necktie.
âWell, now, if youâll recall, we were discussing clothing and the curious difficulty some of us have in parting with certain garments. There was one such garment I bought in 1946, and Iâve dragged it along with me ever since. A housecoat . Of course, nobody in my family wore such a thing, a housecoat , and neither did any of the people we knew. We were what youâd call poor, working-class people. But I bought myself this housecoat anyway. Itâs made of felt. Iâm not sure itâs entirely fabricated from wool, but thereâs wool in the mix for sure, and now, as you might expectâit was purchased in 1946, as I believe I mentionedâit has big gaping holes under the arms. It hangs in my wardrobe, quite alone, and I donât have many occasions to wear it. But in the winter when the house is cold and I donât want to turn up the heat too high, Iâll pull it on and wrap it around me, and this garment, this housecoat , doesprove useful enough. It has white piping along the edges of its pockets and cuffs and such, and silver stitches, if you please.â
INCIDENT REPORT 118
I walked with my eyes closed.
âThis way, this way, good. I wonât let you trip.â
âAre we nearly at the greenhouse?â
âAlmost.â
âIs the moon still out.â
âYes.â
âIs anyone else around?â
âNo. Nobody I can see, except two men.â
âWhere are they?â
âSome place far away, walking their dogs. Off by the edge of the park. They each have a dog. One small dog is white, with short legs and short fur, one big dog is brown with curls.â
âThank you.â
âYou are welcome. Is there something else you would like to see?â
âNo.â
âAre you sure? You could see a lot through my eyes. The trees are casting dark precise shadows.â
âWhat happens when we reach the greenhouse?â
âNothing.â
âNothing?â
âI then close my eyes, Darkest Miriam, and itâs your turn to lead me.â
âWhere to?â
âHome.â
âYou donât have a home, Janko.â
âDonât I?â
âNo.â
âWhat about my apartment?â
âNo.â
âAnd my paintings?â
âThey are the closest thing you have to a home.â
âWhat if I have children? Where will they live?â
âYou wonât have children.â
âI wonât? You are deciding I wonât have children? But I want to have children.â
âI donât see you having any.â
âYou mean you donât want me to have any? Is that what you mean?â
âI havenât any idea if I want you to or not. Iâm saying what I see when I close my eyes.â
âOpen your eyes.â
âHave we reached the greenhouse?â
âNo.â
âThen why should I open them?â
âOpen them, Darkest Miriam.â
âNo.â
âDo you want me to leave you here?â
âAre you afraid of what Iâll see, if I keep my eyes closed?â
âAfraid. Afraid. Why are you always thinking about fear? Life is bigger than fear.â
âAre you afraid of what Iâll see if I keep them closed?â
âYes.â
âYes?â
âI am afraid of what you will see if you keep your eyes closed.â
âThen Iâll open them.â
âThank you.â
âTheyâre open now.â
âGood. I see that they are. And you see, we are not far from the greenhouse.â
âIt doesnât matter anymore, Janko.â
âYou are disappointed?â
âThe moon is gone.â
âIt will come back.â
âI was only imagining.â
âYou said that I wonât have any children. It sounded like a curse. You didnât mean to curse me, but that is how it sounded.â
âI said what I saw, what I saw with my eyes shut. Not what I wanted to
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