The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt

waxer and managed the trash and did other odd jobs around the building. The doormen (who didn’t appear to know his name any more than I did) called him “the new guy,” and griped about management bringing in a houseman who spoke neither English nor Spanish. Everything that went wrong in the building, they blamed on him: the new guy didn’t shovel the walks right, the new guy didn’t put the mail where it was supposed to go or keep the courtyard clean like he should.
    “You cah back later,” the new guy was saying, hopefully.
    “No, wait!” I said, as he was about to hang up. “I need to talk to somebody.”
    Confused pause.
    “Please, is anybody else there?” I said. “It’s an emergency.”
    “Okay,” said the voice warily, in an open-ended tone that gave me hope. I could hear him breathing hard in the silence.
    “This is Theo Decker,” I said. “In 7C? I see you downstairs a lot? My mother hasn’t come home and I don’t know what to do.”
    Long, bewildered pause. “Seven,” he repeated, as if it were the only part of the sentence he understood.
    “My mother,” I repeated. “Where’s Carlos? Isn’t anybody there?”
    “Sorry, thank you,” he said, in a panicky tone, and hung up.
    I hung up the phone myself, in a state of high agitation, and after a few moments standing frozen in the middle of the living room went and switched on the television. The city was a mess; the bridges to the outer boroughs were closed, which explained why Carlos and Jose hadn’t been able to get in to work, but I saw nothing at all that made me understand what might be holding my mother up. There was a number to call, I saw, if someone was missing. I copied it down on a scrap of newspaper and made a deal with myself that if she wasn’t home in exactly one half hour, I would call.
    Writing the number down made me feel better. For some reason I felt sure that the act of writing it down was going to magically make her walkthrough the door. But after forty-five minutes passed, and then an hour, and still she hadn’t turned up, I finally broke down and called it (pacing back and forth, keeping a nervous eye on the television the whole time I was waiting for somebody to pick up, the whole time I was on hold, commercials for mattresses, commercials for stereos, fast free delivery and no credit required). Finally a brisk woman came on, all business. She took my mother’s name, took my phone number, said my mother wasn’t “on her list” but I would get a call back if her name turned up. Not until after I hung up the phone did it occur to me to ask what sort of list she was talking about; and after an indefinite period of misgiving, walking in a tormented circuit through all four rooms, opening drawers, picking up books and putting them down, turning on my mother’s computer and seeing what I could figure out from a Google search (nothing), I called back again to ask.
    “She’s not listed among the dead,” said the second woman I spoke to, sounding oddly casual. “Or the injured.”
    My heart lifted. “She’s okay, then?”
    “I’m saying we’ve got no information at all. Did you leave your number earlier so we can give you a call back?”
    Yes, I said, they had told me I would get a call back.
    “Free delivery and set up,” the television was saying. “Be sure and ask about our six months’ free financing.”
    “Good luck then,” said the woman, and hung up.
    The stillness in the apartment was unnatural; even the loud talking on the television didn’t drive it away. Twenty-one people were dead, with “dozens more” injured. In vain, I tried to reassure myself with this number: twenty-one people wasn’t so bad, was it? Twenty-one was a thin crowd in a movie theatre or even on a bus. It was three people less than my English class. But soon fresh doubts and fears began to crowd around me and it was all I could do not to run out of the apartment yelling her name.
    As much as I wanted to go out on the