killed her? Leaving no trace behind her, except a memory in your mind, of ever having existed?”
“That possibility occurred to me, and I decided to do something which I thought would verify or disprove it. Specifically, to commit a murder, deliberately, to see what would happen.”
“But—but Larry, murders happen every day, people are killed every day, and don’t vanish retroactively and leave no trace behind them.”
“But they were not killed by me ,” Kane said earnestly. “And if the universe is a product of my imagination, that should make a difference. The girl on the bicycle is the first person I ever killed.”
Mearson sighed. “So you decided to check by committing a murder. And shot Queenie Quinn. But why didn’t she—?”
“No, no, no,” Kane interrupted. “I committed another first, a month or so ago. A man. A man—and there’s no use my telling you his name or anything about him because, as of now, he never existed, like the girl on the bicycle.
“But of course I didn’t know it would happen that way, so I didn’t simply kill him openly, as I did the stripper. I took careful precautions, so if his body had been found, the police would never have apprehended me as the killer.
“But after I killed him, well—he just never had existed, and I thought that my theory was confirmed. After that I carried a gun, thinking that I could kill with impunity any time I wanted to—and that it wouldn’t matter, wouldn’t be immoral even, because anyone I killed didn’t really exist anyway except in my mind.”
“Ummm,” said Mearson.
“Ordinarily, Morty,” Kane said, “I’m a pretty even tempered guy. Night before last was the first time I used the gun. When that damn stripper hit me, she hit hard , a roundhouse swing. It blinded me for the moment, and I just reacted automatically in pulling out the gun and shooting her.”
“Ummm,” the attorney said. “And Queenie Quinn turned out to be for real, and you’re in jail for murder, and doesn’t that blow your solipsism theory sky-high?”
Kane frowned. “It certainly modifies it. I’ve been thinking a lot since I was arrested, and here’s what I’ve come up with. If Queenie was real—and obviously she was—then I was not, and probably am not, the only real person. There are real people and unreal ones, ones that exist only in the imagination of the real ones. How many, I don’t know. Maybe only a few, maybe thousands, even millions. My sampling—three people, of whom one turned out to have been real—is too small to be significant.”
“But why? Why should there be a duality like that?”
“I haven’t the faintest idea.” Kane frowned. “I’ve had some pretty wild thoughts, but any one of them would be just a guess. Like a conspiracy—but a conspiracy against whom ? Or what ? And all of the real ones couldn’t be in on the conspiracy, because I’m not.”
He chuckled without humor. “I had a really far-out dream about it last night, one of those confused, mixed-up dreams that you can’t really tell anybody, because they have no continuity, just a series of impressions. Something about a conspiracy and a reality file that lists the names of all the real people and keeps them real. And—here’s a dream pun for you—reality is really run by a chain, only they’re not known to be a chain, of reality companies, one in each city. Of course they deal in real estate too, as a front. And—oh hell, it’s all too confused even to try to tell.
“Well, Morty, that’s it. And my guess is that you’ll tell me my only defense is an insanity plea—and you’ll be right because, damn it, if I am sane I am a murderer. First degree and without extenuating circumstances. So?”
“So,” said Mearson. He doodled a moment with a gold pencil and then looked up. “The head-shrinker you went to for a while—his name wasn’t Galbraith, was it?”
Kane shook his head.
“Good. Doc Galbraith is a friend of mine and the
“That possibility occurred to me, and I decided to do something which I thought would verify or disprove it. Specifically, to commit a murder, deliberately, to see what would happen.”
“But—but Larry, murders happen every day, people are killed every day, and don’t vanish retroactively and leave no trace behind them.”
“But they were not killed by me ,” Kane said earnestly. “And if the universe is a product of my imagination, that should make a difference. The girl on the bicycle is the first person I ever killed.”
Mearson sighed. “So you decided to check by committing a murder. And shot Queenie Quinn. But why didn’t she—?”
“No, no, no,” Kane interrupted. “I committed another first, a month or so ago. A man. A man—and there’s no use my telling you his name or anything about him because, as of now, he never existed, like the girl on the bicycle.
“But of course I didn’t know it would happen that way, so I didn’t simply kill him openly, as I did the stripper. I took careful precautions, so if his body had been found, the police would never have apprehended me as the killer.
“But after I killed him, well—he just never had existed, and I thought that my theory was confirmed. After that I carried a gun, thinking that I could kill with impunity any time I wanted to—and that it wouldn’t matter, wouldn’t be immoral even, because anyone I killed didn’t really exist anyway except in my mind.”
“Ummm,” said Mearson.
“Ordinarily, Morty,” Kane said, “I’m a pretty even tempered guy. Night before last was the first time I used the gun. When that damn stripper hit me, she hit hard , a roundhouse swing. It blinded me for the moment, and I just reacted automatically in pulling out the gun and shooting her.”
“Ummm,” the attorney said. “And Queenie Quinn turned out to be for real, and you’re in jail for murder, and doesn’t that blow your solipsism theory sky-high?”
Kane frowned. “It certainly modifies it. I’ve been thinking a lot since I was arrested, and here’s what I’ve come up with. If Queenie was real—and obviously she was—then I was not, and probably am not, the only real person. There are real people and unreal ones, ones that exist only in the imagination of the real ones. How many, I don’t know. Maybe only a few, maybe thousands, even millions. My sampling—three people, of whom one turned out to have been real—is too small to be significant.”
“But why? Why should there be a duality like that?”
“I haven’t the faintest idea.” Kane frowned. “I’ve had some pretty wild thoughts, but any one of them would be just a guess. Like a conspiracy—but a conspiracy against whom ? Or what ? And all of the real ones couldn’t be in on the conspiracy, because I’m not.”
He chuckled without humor. “I had a really far-out dream about it last night, one of those confused, mixed-up dreams that you can’t really tell anybody, because they have no continuity, just a series of impressions. Something about a conspiracy and a reality file that lists the names of all the real people and keeps them real. And—here’s a dream pun for you—reality is really run by a chain, only they’re not known to be a chain, of reality companies, one in each city. Of course they deal in real estate too, as a front. And—oh hell, it’s all too confused even to try to tell.
“Well, Morty, that’s it. And my guess is that you’ll tell me my only defense is an insanity plea—and you’ll be right because, damn it, if I am sane I am a murderer. First degree and without extenuating circumstances. So?”
“So,” said Mearson. He doodled a moment with a gold pencil and then looked up. “The head-shrinker you went to for a while—his name wasn’t Galbraith, was it?”
Kane shook his head.
“Good. Doc Galbraith is a friend of mine and the
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