is!â I protested. âIt sounds like it got really ugly. Did I actually fight anybody?â âI wouldnât call it a fight. One shot and you went down like a sack of potatoes.â âWas it Justin who hit me?â I asked. He was a year older and bigâreal big. One shot from him would have practically put down a bear. âNo, Justin wouldnât hit you. Heâs your friend.â âIt was Tommy?â Tommy was my age, but so skinny that a good wind could have blown him away. âTommy? Tommy never hits anybody.â âThen if it wasnât Justin and it wasnât Tommy, who hit me?â Timmy started to chuckle. âIâm glad you think this is so funny. Who hit me?â âCandice.â âCandice? Candice hit me?â âShe kept telling you to shut up but you wouldnât listen. You kept going on and on and on, telling everybody she was a kid and not to give her alcohol or touch her or anything.â âI was drunk.â âYeah, I think we all know that. So finally she jumps to her feet and gives you a shot to the head and down you go.â âNo way. No way could she hit me that hard. My head is all cut up.â âShe was holding a rock. She hit you with it.â Timmy started laughing some more, like he was watching it happen again. Maybe if it hadnât been me I would have thought it was funny too. âAnd then she stood over you, swearing and spitting. She even tried to kick you but Justin held her back.â âI guess I should thank Justin.â âYou should. If it wasnât for him you would have had the crap beaten out of you by a girl . . . a twelve-year-old girl.â âThanks for pointing that out. At least that explains why I canât remember anything.â âWhat do you mean?â Timmy asked. âYou know, because I got knocked out.â âNo you didnât. You got back to your feet, blood all over your face, and started yelling at Justin because youthought he was hugging Candice when he was just holding her back.â âThis gets worse and worse.â âIt would have, if I hadnât gotten you out of there. Thatâs when I took you home. Me and Tommy.â I sat down on the curb and Timmy sat down beside me. I didnât know what to say. It would have been better not to have known any of that. It would have been better for nobody to have known, but I figured it was probably the talk of the town by now. âDonât sweat it,â Timmy said. âItâs no big deal.â âNo big deal?â I couldnât believe my ears. âYou got drunk and you got stupid and you got beaten up by a twelve-year-old girl. So what? It could be a lot worse.â âIt could? How?â I asked. âShe could have been ten years old.â He paused. âOr even worse, it could have been me she beat up.â Timmy was laughing so hard now I couldnât help laughing along with him. âSo, what are we going to do tonight?â he asked. âI donât know what youâre going to do, but Iâm going to be staying home.â âDid your mother ground you?â I shook my head. âShe didnât do anything. I wish sheâd yelled at me or punished me or done something.â âYou want to get punished? Just how hard did that girl hit you?â âNot hard enough. It was just the way my mother looked at me. She wasnât mad as much as she was . . . I donât know . . . disappointed.â âDisappointed?â âYeah. Havenât you ever felt that way?â âNo way. My father expects the worst of me and I hardly ever let him down. I always set the bar so low that if I ever make a mistake and donât screw up heâll be surprised and shocked. Thatâs the secret.â âNot much of a secret.â Timmy shrugged. âWorks for