of such pride it was almost lustful.
I heard Sarah's steps as she left the courtroom. But I couldn't find the courage--not even for a single second--to look up and watch her go.
13
We won. That's what the head juror announced, holding a sheet of paper. The judges critiqued our performances, but I can't remember a word they said. I just kept repeating the phrase--part cheer, part question--over and over in my head:
we won, we won, we won.
The sun was nearly down, the courtroom filled with purple light. The judges were gone. Most of the crowd had gone home.
"Let's go celebrate," Daphne said.
"Sure. Hang on a second."
I walked toward John and Nigel. "Where are you going?" she called after me.
They were still sitting at their table. John was staring at his notes. Nigel looked ahead blankly, like a kid who has just learned his dog died.
"Come on," I said to them. "We're going out."
They looked at me like I was crazy.
"I'm serious. We're going out. It's over. We've been killing ourselves for a month. Come on. I'm buying."
"I don't feel like it," Nigel said.
"I don't care. I'm buying us a round of drinks. After that, you can leave if you want. You owe me that much."
I wasn't taking no for an answer. Somehow I bullied them intojoining us at The Idle Rich. Mostly, I think they were numb. The four of us sat around an oak table with the rapport of funeral directors, until the second round of drinks, when things loosened up a bit.
"Something about this place," I said. "It's corrosive, isn't it? When did we get so serious?"
"You didn't have fun destroying our case?" Nigel asked. His tone was only halfway bitter, a major improvement over the last hour.
"How did you know that about our witness?" John asked, shaking his head. We hadn't met each other's experts before the trial. We hadn't even known their names. He must have been baffled.
"I know her," I said. "We met on campus."
"Lucky her," Nigel said dryly.
I shook off a sinking feeling in my stomach, changed the subject.
"Seriously, though. Did you guys ever just hang out, act stupid? Or were you always future Supreme Court clerks?"
"John used to be crazy," Daphne said.
"Bullshit."
"What are you talking about?" John asked her, making eye contact with us for the first time since the verdict.
"You know, the table story?"
"You are
not
bringing that up."
"If you don't tell it, I will," Daphne said, grinning.
"Fine. Go ahead." John leaned back, closed his eyes, and held a bottle to his forehead.
"It's an Oxford story," Daphne said. "John and his friends decide they want to start a poker game. So after a few drinks, one of his brilliant friends--who was it, Tom?--suggests that oneof the big round tables in the dining hall would make a perfect poker table. You have to imagine it: these are giant wooden tables, maybe seven or eight feet wide. It took five of them to lift it. So after dinner one night, when the dining hall was empty, John and his friends snuck back in and carried out the table. That was their whole plan. Just walk out with it. Rhodes scholars, right?"
"Oh no," Nigel said, shaking his head. "You stole a table from Oxford?"
"We did," John said. I saw the hint of a grin.
"They almost made it too. They were halfway across campus, carrying this table in the middle of the quad, when a security guard stopped them."
"No."
"What happened?"
"That's the best part," Daphne said. "As the story goes, everyone's panicking except John. He looks right at the security guard and says with a straight face, 'Do you think I
want
to be carrying this table across campus?' He says it just right. The guard blinks at him for a few seconds. Then he lets them go!"
Everybody was smiling now, even laughing a little. "Confidence," John said happily, "the key to life." He took a drink.
"So you kept the table?"
Daphne laughed.
"They couldn't get it through the door of their apartment."
John turned red and looked down. The rest of us cracked up.
"You put it back?"
"Not
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