The Cookbook Collector by Allegra Goodman

get everything out of my system,” Arminda continued as Jess walked out, feeling strange, and also invisible.
    No one acknowledged her as she walked down the hall. She saw couples in the bathroom, but no one looked at her. She didn’t recognize anybody. Were the other guests all strangers? That couldn’t be, but at the moment she couldn’t tell any of them apart. She felt light-headed in the hazy, mazy house. The smell of beer mixed with the cloying smoke upstairs and made her queasy. She stepped out the back door and descended creaky steps for air.
    How overgrown the garden was. Picking her way through ferns and banana trees, she almost stepped into a pocket-sized pond choked with lily pads. The Save the Trees office looked like a witch’s house in the dark, its peaked roof and walls overhung with ivy. Behind the witch’s house, a massive oak filled the sky. No stars pricked this tree’s canopy, no moonlight sifted through these leaves, but a swing hung down on ropes so long that, in the dark, Jess scarcely saw where they began. She tugged at one; the rope held, and the wood swing bumped her hip. Shivering, she sat down and tucked her skirt under her legs.
    Suddenly Leon appeared behind her. She jumped up.
    “You forgot your jacket.”
    “How did you know it was mine?”
    “Wallet in the pocket,” he said. “Probably not a great place for it, by the way.” He looked amused when she tried to take the jacket from him. It took her a moment to realize that he was holding it for her so that she could slip her arms inside. “Too many friends of friends in there.”
    “Well, that’s what I am,” she pointed out. “Or was.”
    “You and Noah?” Leon asked.
    “Is that what he told you?”
    Leon hesitated a moment, but only a moment, before he nodded.
    “I barely know him.” Jess sat down again and pushed off with her feet to start the swing, but the ropes were so long she only swayed a little. She kicked off again.
    “Do you want a push?”
    “Sure.” She hoped that sounded diffident enough, as if to say, Since you’re just standing there, you might as well, but she wasn’t diffident at all. She lifted off as he pushed gently, hand between her shoulder blades. When she returned to him, he pushed lower on her back. A strange sensation, the brief contact, and then the long downstroke of anticipation. “My sister used to push me,” she told him.
    “I have sisters.”
    “Really?”
    “Are you surprised?”
    She stretched her legs and leaned back to swing higher. Her hair blew over her shoulders. Her skirt came loose and billowed over her knees. He was watching her, and as she rose and fell, she felt his gaze as radiant warmth. Of course she knew all about the male gaze, and she resented being gazed upon, but she was young enough that her resentment was purely theoretical. She was a paper feminist, just as Emily was a paper millionaire.
    “You don’t look like the kind of person who has sisters,” she said.
    “What do I look like?”
    She thought for a moment as she swung forward. When she returned to him, she said, “An only child.”
    “Too selfish for siblings?” She was almost horizontal now, leaning back as she held the ropes.
    “Way too selfish.”
    He pushed hard with both hands, and she shot forward, laughing. It felt so good to plunge feetfirst into the night. She felt a rush of air as she vaulted up into the dark branches. Too quickly she sank down again, the ground rose up, and the blood rushed to her head and dizzied her. She dragged her feet to slow herself, but she couldn’t stop all at once. Twice, then three times, she braked with her feet, until Leon caught the ropes from behind. He was close enough for her to feel his breath against her hair. “Are you all right?”
    “Just tree-sick.”
    He held her by the shoulders, as if to steady her, but she still felt the garden rushing toward her, and the sickening rush of air.
    He touched her collarbone with his fingertips. “I remember