âCan I talk to the class for a minute?â
He glanced up at the clock on the wall, then back at me. âGo right ahead.â
Oh crap. I was back in Year Four when it was my turn for morning talk. Iâd hated it back then and made my class squirm with how bad I was while all the time swaying around on legs that made me doubly self-conscious.
âI want to tell you whatâs happening this afternoon,â I began. âMaybe some of you would like to join in.â
In front of kids who werenât closely connected to me in some way, I didnât have the nerve to come straight out with the word âprotestâ. Theyâd heard me say something about joining in, though, and eyed me with a mixture of boredom and suspicion in case I was asking them to collect for a charity.
I was learning the hard way what a difference there is between an enthusiastic idea and actually getting something done. Chloe stared up at me from the front row and I fed on her natural self-confidence, hoping it would become my own â in fact, maybe I should tell them Chloe had already agreed to be part of it.
No, a voice shouted in my head, sheâs not one of the popular crowd. âDan Latchworth is part of it and Bec Wiley,â I said instead. Those two were liked across all of Year Twelve, as the lift in interest showed.
I became more aware of Chloe, almost in touching distance, and worried I was denying her, when this chance to enlist more help from my class wouldnât be happening without her. âChloe, too,â I added, nodding down at her, and saying that gave me a boost I hadnât anticipated.
An expectant air filled the classroom by this time â behind me, I sensed Svenson had stopped reading whatever heâd been checking over to listen. Without planning it the way a great orator would, maybe, Iâd managed to intrigue them all by holding back what the hell I was on about. Time to tell them.
âItâs about the picture in this morningâs paper â the policeman with the knife in a plastic bag. Even if you didnât see it, youâve probably heard about it. You know where it came from, too â one of the Muslim families that moved here for the meatworks and youâd only be like everyone else if you were pretty sure by now that Mahmoud Rais is The Ripper. Thatâs his name,â I said quickly, when a few faces seemed confused. âHeâs the brother of Soraya, whoâs normally sitting at that desk by the wall for this lesson. I guess we all know why itâs empty today.â
Pointing out the empty desk stirred up memories of Soraya at the centre of feminine laughter whenever Svenson was late for class. The girls liked her and from that moment I picked out the girls in the class especially as I spoke. I was connecting, too, if the serious way they returned my gaze was anything to judge by. Hey, they were actually listening to me.
I stopped worrying about the dribble from the corner of my mouth and let the years of therapy do its work. Slowly, letting the words come when my tongue was ready, I said, âThe police are barking up the wrong tree and hereâs why.â
I described my afternoon exploring the schoolâs boundary and made a huge thing of the time discrepancy when Mahmoud was seen â with his little brother â and the time of Charlotteâs death.
The faces before me had lost their blankness and many were leaning forwards, eager for what Iâd say next. This had never happened before when Iâd been speaking to a group and so Iâd never understood what an inspiration it could be for a speaker. Ideas were coming from everywhere now and I found myself saying, âIf the police spend their time checking out the wrong person, then theyâre not looking for the real Ripper and thatâs bad for the town, donât you agree? The trail will go cold and eventually thereâll be another attack like the
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