don’t understand.
“My mom died when I was two, from cancer. I’m an only child and my dad passed a while ago. The band’s been my only real family. I have no aunts, uncles or cousins. I have nobody. I joined the Military when I was young to get that sense of family that I needed and never had growing up. My dad worked a lot, so I was left fending for myself at such a young age. That’s why being a loner has fit for me. That’s why being a bachelor works.”
“Didn’t you ever want to have a family yourself?” I kiss his chest.
I can’t believe James has no family. How sad! I know Johnathan doesn’t have anyone else either, but now James too. What is with these poor men and screwed up childhoods?
“Of course I did. But when the tragedy happened to my male parts and my self-confidence over the years with failed dating attempts. I’ve sort of decided that would probably never happen. I’m not one to seek out a woman. It’s feels like I am asking her to judge me and see if I’m worthy.” His tone is level but I can sense an uneasiness in his words.
My poor James. Not worthy? If anything, no woman is worthy of him. Truth be known, if I ever set him up with a woman like I’ve wanted to, I can tell I’d probably not like her even if she was perfect. I’m that overprotective of him and our life together. I can’t tell anyone about what we are sharing or have been sharing for months. It’s personal and looking back now it’s more of a relationship than I’ve ever experienced. Sure we’ve not had sex. But we’ve cuddled, talked, supported each other, he’s protected me and I’ve tried to help take care of him. We’ve both grown a lot. Including this fat stomach of mine with twins swimming inside.
“I think you are perfect, James. I don’t think any woman would be worthy of you. And I am your family and you are mine, for as long as you want to be. You’re not going to get rid of us three for a very long time. Even if Johnathan decides he doesn’t want to keep you as a bodyguard anymore,” I reassure him.
He rubs my calf and kisses my forehead, allowing his big supple lips to linger on my skin a bit longer. “Mama Bear, if Johnathan fired me I wouldn’t need to get another job. I would still protect and help you.”
“What?”
“I’ve told you that I’m not poor. You know I have a stock portfolio. I could easily afford a house, a car, and live comfortably for about ten years with the amount of money I’ve accumulated. I get disability from the Military for my injury that I roll into the rest. I have health insurance for life and I only keep this job so I have something to do. It’s not that I need it.”
“What?”
Okay, so James has enough money that he doesn’t have to put up with rocker antics and a fat pregnant lady? Then why does he do it? I know for a fact I wouldn’t stick around with Johnathan as a bodyguard for this many years. That would seriously put me into an early grave with how much work his bodyguards have to endure because of his shenanigans. He’s naughty. Sure, in the past few months since I’ve come into his life, he’s dropped the crazy partying level down. But I can’t imagine how bad it’s been for James over the past four years, doting on his spoiled rock star ass. No matter how much better Johnathan gets, one thing is for sure. He doesn’t take no for an answer. And even when you think he’s being a good boy, he does the polar opposite, for instance, playing with two women on an airplane. Johnathan is just one big kid with a lot of money and one hell of a voice. He still has a lot of maturing to do. Not that I have much room to talk. I may not be at the level he’s at with immaturity but I too have years of maturing to conquer.
“What? As in…. I don’t know what you want me to answer, mama.”
“Why do you keep this job if you have the means to live without all the Stricken drama?”
“Oh, well, I don’t know.” He shrugs. “I guess I
“My mom died when I was two, from cancer. I’m an only child and my dad passed a while ago. The band’s been my only real family. I have no aunts, uncles or cousins. I have nobody. I joined the Military when I was young to get that sense of family that I needed and never had growing up. My dad worked a lot, so I was left fending for myself at such a young age. That’s why being a loner has fit for me. That’s why being a bachelor works.”
“Didn’t you ever want to have a family yourself?” I kiss his chest.
I can’t believe James has no family. How sad! I know Johnathan doesn’t have anyone else either, but now James too. What is with these poor men and screwed up childhoods?
“Of course I did. But when the tragedy happened to my male parts and my self-confidence over the years with failed dating attempts. I’ve sort of decided that would probably never happen. I’m not one to seek out a woman. It’s feels like I am asking her to judge me and see if I’m worthy.” His tone is level but I can sense an uneasiness in his words.
My poor James. Not worthy? If anything, no woman is worthy of him. Truth be known, if I ever set him up with a woman like I’ve wanted to, I can tell I’d probably not like her even if she was perfect. I’m that overprotective of him and our life together. I can’t tell anyone about what we are sharing or have been sharing for months. It’s personal and looking back now it’s more of a relationship than I’ve ever experienced. Sure we’ve not had sex. But we’ve cuddled, talked, supported each other, he’s protected me and I’ve tried to help take care of him. We’ve both grown a lot. Including this fat stomach of mine with twins swimming inside.
“I think you are perfect, James. I don’t think any woman would be worthy of you. And I am your family and you are mine, for as long as you want to be. You’re not going to get rid of us three for a very long time. Even if Johnathan decides he doesn’t want to keep you as a bodyguard anymore,” I reassure him.
He rubs my calf and kisses my forehead, allowing his big supple lips to linger on my skin a bit longer. “Mama Bear, if Johnathan fired me I wouldn’t need to get another job. I would still protect and help you.”
“What?”
“I’ve told you that I’m not poor. You know I have a stock portfolio. I could easily afford a house, a car, and live comfortably for about ten years with the amount of money I’ve accumulated. I get disability from the Military for my injury that I roll into the rest. I have health insurance for life and I only keep this job so I have something to do. It’s not that I need it.”
“What?”
Okay, so James has enough money that he doesn’t have to put up with rocker antics and a fat pregnant lady? Then why does he do it? I know for a fact I wouldn’t stick around with Johnathan as a bodyguard for this many years. That would seriously put me into an early grave with how much work his bodyguards have to endure because of his shenanigans. He’s naughty. Sure, in the past few months since I’ve come into his life, he’s dropped the crazy partying level down. But I can’t imagine how bad it’s been for James over the past four years, doting on his spoiled rock star ass. No matter how much better Johnathan gets, one thing is for sure. He doesn’t take no for an answer. And even when you think he’s being a good boy, he does the polar opposite, for instance, playing with two women on an airplane. Johnathan is just one big kid with a lot of money and one hell of a voice. He still has a lot of maturing to do. Not that I have much room to talk. I may not be at the level he’s at with immaturity but I too have years of maturing to conquer.
“What? As in…. I don’t know what you want me to answer, mama.”
“Why do you keep this job if you have the means to live without all the Stricken drama?”
“Oh, well, I don’t know.” He shrugs. “I guess I
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