him that the day he walked out on me, he didn’t shatter my heart. He played it off nicely, too. Pretending that his heart didn’t bleed when he saw me. He was working full-time, but he didn’t want to tell me what he was doing for a living. I never asked. He hung out with Clarissa a lot at the apartment while I worked at the club bartending at night on the weekends. I dreaded returning home knowing that he would be making love to her while I was at the club, maybe in my bed; maybe in the bathroom…living room, kitchen floor…maybe the windowsill with her hands pressed against the window. I was sick to my stomach, but he needed to move on without me. That’s what he wanted, so I respected his wishes and moved on with my life, too.
“Hey Madison.” The familiar voice rang in my ear as I poured a vodka and cranberry juice.
“Andrew, I thought I was meeting you tonight at your place? I’m working right now.” I said with a nervous smile. I didn’t want anyone at the bar to know I was dating Andrew.
“Yeah…I couldn’t wait.” He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. My eyes looked around the bar to see if anyone was looking. “Tonight’s the night I finally get to make love to you. Your birthday gift to me. Sweet, tender age of nineteen.” He sounded like such a greedy perv, taking everything, my self-respect and now…my virginity. But, I vowed I would use him to get what I wanted; and what I wanted was to be married to get full custody of the kids and then divorce his fucking ass.
“I can’t wait…but I want to surprise you so, I’m going home early to get the outfit I bought yesterday and the special bra and panty set.”
“Jesus, I’m getting hard just hearing you say those words. Okay, I’m leaving. Don’t forget to be there at ten. Remember what happened the last time you came late to my apartment.” How could I forget? He spanked my ass so hard I couldn’t sit down the next day at work. I must be losing my mind. I can’t believe I’m belittling myself like this. But, it’s for Daniel and Alyssa.
The way I belittled myself for HIM, for the sake of my mother and the kids, because they needed me back then. They need me now. They need their mother. ME.
He strolled out of the bar with his five-thousand-dollar blue-gray suit, checking every girl out until he finally swung the bar door open and left.
“Hey Jack, I’m leaving. Do you mind? It’s my birthday.” Jack was the head bartender. He was a decent guy. He knew I was working here for the kids. He knew I needed the extra money. He never let any guy hit on me and he made sure if they tried to, he would get, Gary, the scary bouncer at the front door to throw them out.
“Sure thing Maddie. Happy birthday! How old are you?” he smiled as he poured a vodka and orange juice and sucked it down in two gulps.
“Twenty-two!” I shouted as I started to gather my things and head out through the back door. Thank God Andrew made me a fake ID, otherwise, I would be assed out. Jack would have never hired me if he knew I was only eighteen.
My car was parked in the back. I drove home fearing what I was going to walk into this weekend with Stone and Clarissa. Last time, the kids were asleep and I could hear their passionate kiss, their lips and tongue slapping together while I bit my lip until I bled. My blood pressure hit the roof. I’m going to make sure they know what I’m doing tonight. Clarissa hasn’t told me she slept with Stone. She says they’re almost there. I know she’s lying. Well, he could have her . I’m getting married and he’s not getting in the way. I can’t let my heart get in the way of saving my family.
I parked my car in my spot noticing a black SUV in the spot next to mine, I’ve never seen before. I perused the parking lot making sure I wasn’t being followed. According, to the last time I spoke to Lacky, I was still on Sly’s gangs hit list. I felt uneasy, so I waited a few seconds
“Hey Madison.” The familiar voice rang in my ear as I poured a vodka and cranberry juice.
“Andrew, I thought I was meeting you tonight at your place? I’m working right now.” I said with a nervous smile. I didn’t want anyone at the bar to know I was dating Andrew.
“Yeah…I couldn’t wait.” He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. My eyes looked around the bar to see if anyone was looking. “Tonight’s the night I finally get to make love to you. Your birthday gift to me. Sweet, tender age of nineteen.” He sounded like such a greedy perv, taking everything, my self-respect and now…my virginity. But, I vowed I would use him to get what I wanted; and what I wanted was to be married to get full custody of the kids and then divorce his fucking ass.
“I can’t wait…but I want to surprise you so, I’m going home early to get the outfit I bought yesterday and the special bra and panty set.”
“Jesus, I’m getting hard just hearing you say those words. Okay, I’m leaving. Don’t forget to be there at ten. Remember what happened the last time you came late to my apartment.” How could I forget? He spanked my ass so hard I couldn’t sit down the next day at work. I must be losing my mind. I can’t believe I’m belittling myself like this. But, it’s for Daniel and Alyssa.
The way I belittled myself for HIM, for the sake of my mother and the kids, because they needed me back then. They need me now. They need their mother. ME.
He strolled out of the bar with his five-thousand-dollar blue-gray suit, checking every girl out until he finally swung the bar door open and left.
“Hey Jack, I’m leaving. Do you mind? It’s my birthday.” Jack was the head bartender. He was a decent guy. He knew I was working here for the kids. He knew I needed the extra money. He never let any guy hit on me and he made sure if they tried to, he would get, Gary, the scary bouncer at the front door to throw them out.
“Sure thing Maddie. Happy birthday! How old are you?” he smiled as he poured a vodka and orange juice and sucked it down in two gulps.
“Twenty-two!” I shouted as I started to gather my things and head out through the back door. Thank God Andrew made me a fake ID, otherwise, I would be assed out. Jack would have never hired me if he knew I was only eighteen.
My car was parked in the back. I drove home fearing what I was going to walk into this weekend with Stone and Clarissa. Last time, the kids were asleep and I could hear their passionate kiss, their lips and tongue slapping together while I bit my lip until I bled. My blood pressure hit the roof. I’m going to make sure they know what I’m doing tonight. Clarissa hasn’t told me she slept with Stone. She says they’re almost there. I know she’s lying. Well, he could have her . I’m getting married and he’s not getting in the way. I can’t let my heart get in the way of saving my family.
I parked my car in my spot noticing a black SUV in the spot next to mine, I’ve never seen before. I perused the parking lot making sure I wasn’t being followed. According, to the last time I spoke to Lacky, I was still on Sly’s gangs hit list. I felt uneasy, so I waited a few seconds
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