Avenue. On this trip, Marlissa didnât window shop, and Kevin didnât leave her behind.
Seated at the same corner table theyâd shared weeks before, Kevin sipped hot apple cider while Marlissa enjoyed her usual chai tea.
Kevin took a sip and placed the cup on the round table. âMarlissa, can you explain something to me?â
Marlissa covered his hand with hers. âGo ahead.â
Kevin took mental note of her effort to express affection. âI donât understand how attending one church service, drunk, changed your life. You spent many Sundays and Tuesday nights at church with me and you werenât moved at all. I prayed for you all the time, but the more I prayed, the more you resisted. I would have given anything to see you interested in church like you are now. I guess what Iâm asking is, why did you have to leave me to find the Lord?â
Marlissa sipped her tea before answering. âKevin, Iâll be straight with you. I couldnât relate to the God your mother preached about. I didnât understand her God.â She paused for him to respond; when he didnât, Marlissa continued. âThe God your mother presented was condemning and judgmental. Her God was full of rules and regulations, and He didnât love you unless you followed this long list of rules. You couldnât make any mistakes; you had to be perfect to serve her God. Your mother preached about a loving God, but her God didnât require her to love sinners like me. I was never good enough for her. Iâm still not. To be completely honest, I didnât want the God she was selling.â
âBut I wasnât like that with you,â Kevin spoke up. Marlissa heard the depth of his pain, and saw the turbulence as anger and hurt collided together in his eyes. âI was always there for you even after . . . after you rejected me.â
Marlissa didnât bother wiping away the tears that moistened her cheeks. She hurt for Kevin and all they had lost. âKevin, youâre right. Itâs like I told you before: I didnât love myself. Therefore, I couldnât accept the love you offered. I donât know how to make you understand, but my leaving had nothing to do with you. You were a wonderful husband; I was the one all twisted up. Itâs like you said the first day we met: I was crazy. I had to be crazy to leave you.â Marlissa smiled and that seemed to lighten his mood. âIâm not crazy anymore, and I know what I want. I want us, Kevin.â
Kevin wanted to tell her he wanted the same, but his heart wasnât ready. Instead, he asked, âWhen can I see you again?â He figured it wasnât the response she wanted, but it was the best he could offer.
âWhen do you want to see me?â
Kevin finished his cider. âTomorrow for dinner.â
Marlissa pouted. âIâm sorry, but Iâm working at Macyâs every night this week. This is my only night off.â The sound of Marlissaâs cell phone startled them both. âExcuse me.â
Kevin listened as Marlissa tried to convince the caller she wasnât in any kind of trouble. Giving up, she handed the phone to Kevin. âWill you tell Leon that I am with you?â
He received the phone and leaned back in the chair. âThatâs right, Leon, she hasnât left my sight all evening. And, by the way, I met your mother this evening. Sheâs a character. Iâm going to see her on Friday.â
Marlissa leaned back with her arms folded as Kevin and Leon talked on and on about what she considered unnecessary jibber jabber. âIâd better go, someoneâs getting jealous . . . Thanks for looking out . . . Iâll make sure she gets home safely.â
Marlissa defended herself after he handed her back the phone and she secured it on the waist clip. âIâm not jealous, but I donât get to spend much time with you. I donât want to share
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