ads in running magazines and what did I think? He wrote to inform me that heâd placed those ads in running magazines and the response was good. He wrote to ask why I hadnât answered any of his previous letters. He wrote to plead for encouragement. He wrote to complain that I hadnât responded to his previous plea for encouragement.
Iâd always considered myself a conscientious correspondent. (Iâd sent countless letters and postcards home during my trip around the world. Iâd written faithfully to Sarah.) And I always meant to answer Johnsonâs letters. But before I got around to it there was always another one, waiting. Something about the sheer volume of his correspondence stopped me. Something about his neediness made me not want to encourage him. Many nights Iâd sit down at the black Royal typewriter in my basement workshop, curl a piece of paper into the roller, and type, âDear Jeff.â Then Iâd draw a blank. I wouldnât know where to begin, which of his fifty questions to start with, so Iâd get up, attend to other things, and the next day thereâd be yet another letter from Johnson. Or two. Soon Iâd be three letters behind, suffering from crippling writerâs block.
I asked Jeanne to deal with the Johnson File. Fine, she said.
Within a month she thrust the file at me, exasperated. âYouâre not paying me enough,â she said.
AT SOME POINT I stopped reading Johnsonâs letters all the way to the bottom. But from skimming them I learned that he was selling Tigers part-time and on weekends, that heâd decided to keep his day job as a social worker for Los Angeles County. I still couldnât fathom it. Johnson just didnât strike me as a people person. In fact heâd always seemed somewhat misanthropic. It was one of the things Iâd liked about him.
In April 1965 he wrote to say heâd quit his day job. Heâd always hated it, he said, but the last straw had been a distressed woman in the San Fernando Valley. Heâd been scheduled to check on her, because sheâd threatened to kill herself, but heâd phoned her first to ask âif she really was going to kill herself that day.â If so, he didnât want to waste the time and gas money driving all the way out to the valley. The woman, and Johnsonâs superiors, took a dim view of his approach. They deemed it a sign that Johnson didnât care. Johnson deemed it the same way. He didnât care, and in that moment, Johnson wrote me, he understood himself, and his destiny. Social work wasnât it. He wasnât put here on this earth to fix peopleâs problems. He preferred to focus on their feet.
In his heart of hearts Johnson believed that runners are Godâs chosen, that running, done right, in the correct spirit and with the proper form, is a mystical exercise, no less than meditation or prayer, and thus he felt called to help runners reach their nirvana. Iâd been around runners much of my life, but this kind of dewy romanticism was something Iâd never encountered. Not even the Yahweh of running, Bowerman, was as pious about the sport as Blue Ribbonâs Part-time Employee Number Two.
In fact, in 1965, running wasnât even a sport. It wasnât popular, it wasnât unpopularâit just was. To go out for a three-mile run was something weirdos did, presumably to burn off manic energy. Running for pleasure, running for exercise, running for endorphins, running to live better and longerâthese things were unheard of.
People often went out of their way to mock runners. Drivers would slow down and honk their horns. âGet a horse!â theyâd yell, throwing a beer or soda at the runnerâs head. Johnson had been drenched by many a Pepsi. He wanted to change all this. He wanted to help all the oppressed runners of the world, to bring them into the light, enfold them in a community. So maybe he
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