is not being friendly. This makes Mom sympathetic, Dad uneasy, and Trent completely disgusted. Itâs enough that they leave me alone for the night.
As part of the show, I walk down my hallway to say good night a little before nine. I contemplate holding a warm water bottle against my side, but sometimes less is more. Although I might want to pack one for the rideâmy butt is already shuddering at the inevitable.
I knock softly on my parentsâ door but no one responds. Cracking the door a bit, I peer inside.
Dadâs sitting on the edge of the bed buttoning up his flannel pajama top. Correctionâ trying to button his flannel pajama top. His fingers arenât cooperating and his lips press together in frustration. Itâs like watching a four-year-old tie his shoelaces.
âNeed help?â Mom asks as she appears from the bathroom. Sheâs wearing one of her long, satin nightgowns, the kind I used to sneak into her closet to rub against my cheek.
Dad smiles. âIâve performed oral reconstructive surgery. I think I can button a shirt.â
Mom watches him for another moment before whispering, âIs it getting bad again, Wayne?â
âJust tired.â Dad finishes the last button and kisses my mom on the cheek. âNothing to worry about.â
Mom nods, but her look proves she doesnât believe him and neither do I. I push the door open and try my best to pretend I didnât witness the scene. âJust wanted to say good night.â
âFeeling better, sunshine?â
I should be asking him this. Even while dealing with his own pain, he thinks about someone else. Why canât he be mean? Why canât he have a woeful, self-involved, Iâm-sick-screw-it phase where he eats Chinese food while watching game shows all day?
âFeeling great. Well, night.â Iâm about to close the door behind me but poke my head through the crack.
âOh, and about spring break.â
Mom and Dad exchange a loaded look.
âFloridaâs not bad.â
I shut the door quickly and plod to my room. I slip Dadâs Sixers shirt onto my pillow like a pillowcase and clutch it, pretending that Iâm hugging my dad, like I can squeeze all his pain away.
Iâm glad I didnât stay to see their reaction to my Florida comment. Momâs probably gaping or even worse, tearing up. That I can handle. But what I donât want to see is the look of hope that would be in my dadâs eyes. Because itâll ache that much more when I hurt him again.
âWho are you trying to be? Catwoman?â I ask Jac when I bike up to the corner of Pawlings Road. Sheâs in black gloves and head-to-toe black spandex, with her hair freed from its braids and flowing under her helmet.
âMeow.â
âYouâre going to freeze. Itâs forty-something degrees out.â
âThis spandex is fully lined.â
I pull out the extra sweatshirt Iâve stuffed into my backpack along with some water, hand warmers, and safety flares. Just in case. âTake this.â
She grabs the sweatshirt but ties it around her waist.
âAnd youâre supposed to wear bright colors when night riding,â I say.
âDuh.â She whisks some glow-in-the-dark necklaces out of her pocket and starts fastening them around various parts of her body. âDoesnât mean I canât do it in style.â
âLetâs go,â I say before I decide she is too much of a hazard and call the whole thing off.
The park weâre meeting Sean at is only a few blocks away, and weâre there in less than five minutes. The park closes at dusk and, luckily, there isnât a ranger in sight. For a moment, I think weâve been stood up. Then a maroon Honda Civic with three bikes on a rack swerves into the parking lot and parks in a spot behind the restrooms.
âIs that them?â I ask Jac.
âLetâs find out.â
âBut what if it
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