look closer and notice the darkness around his eyes. He must’ve been drinking a lot and not gotten much sleep. Okay, now my heart feels even more guilt.
I walk toward him, and he looks like he’s uncomfortable and doesn’t know what to say to me.
“Hey, Grace. Umm…” He coughs. “Scott called and said you were on your way back home, so I figured I’d come to get you since your car was delivered back to our house.” He runs his fingers through his hair and looks down to the ground and back up to my eyes.
“Oh, okay. Well, let’s go home, then.”
Tony fastens my new travel bag to the back of the bike, and I climb on behind him. Tony hands me his helmet, and we ride in the most uncomfortable silence back to the house.
Tony helps me off the bike and smiles as he hands me the house key. I open the door and my breath is taken away from me. There are rose petals covering the whole living room floor and up the stairs. I take a closer look and realize there are white petals arranged to form the words “I’m Sorry” in the middle of the living room.
The tears start rushing down my face, and I turn around and see Tony on one knee holding a ring.
“Grace, I know I lied to you, but I was just trying to protect you. I married you the first time because I loved you and wanted to share the world with you. So, I’d love to continue showing you how much I’ll always love you… Will you make me the happiest man in the world and marry me again?”
I’m crying so hard that I can barely see. I drop to the floor and close the ring box. “Oh, Tony, I’m sorry! I was a bitch. I’ve been wrong about everything. You were always there for me and when Scott came back in the picture, I just needed to get the answers I’ve been looking for. I finally got them, baby, and I’m finally ready to move on with my life. I love you, Tony! And yes, I would love to marry you again!”
Tony grabs my hand to pull me up and kisses me like a mad man. I know I can’t have sex with him today because I was just with Scott, but I’m not going to tell Tony about what happened between me and Scott. I’ll come up with an excuse just like I always do.
Once I’m able to catch my breath, I notice I Love Lucy is playing on the television and my favorite bottle of wine is on the floor. I lie down on the floor with the rose petals and smile. I can’t believe Tony had the time to do this! He lies down next to me and we cuddle as I rest my head on his chest while he plays with my hair.
“I’m honestly sorry, Gracie. I only started digging and looking for Scott when you would come home drunk and cry yourself to sleep while screaming his name. I had to know who was causing you all this pain.”
I didn’t realize I screamed Scott’s name. I had wanted to drink to put Scott in the back of my mind, not to have him invade my sleep.
“I’m sorry for that, Tony. I didn’t know what I was doing in my drunken haze. I never wanted to hurt you, but it seems like that’s all I end up doing. I’m fucked up, Tony. You know that, yet you love me anyway. You accept all my flaws, but at what cost to you? I want you to be happy, and I want to try to be the one who makes you happy, but I don’t know how to let go of such a big part of my life.” I sigh and look at Tony shyly because I don’t know how to handle this situation.
I still have so much to learn about truly loving someone and putting others first. But, I want to figure it out. I want to be a good wife and a good mother. Not just good – amazing. If being with Scott the past couple days taught me anything, it’s that it’s time for me to grow up and stop being so selfish. I can’t keep letting my past and my insecurities run my life. I need to take control and appreciate and value the home and life Tony has given me. I need to give Scottie the love and family I never had.
“Well, as long as we can start over again and on a clean slate. I can’t lose you again, Grace. I was a lost
I walk toward him, and he looks like he’s uncomfortable and doesn’t know what to say to me.
“Hey, Grace. Umm…” He coughs. “Scott called and said you were on your way back home, so I figured I’d come to get you since your car was delivered back to our house.” He runs his fingers through his hair and looks down to the ground and back up to my eyes.
“Oh, okay. Well, let’s go home, then.”
Tony fastens my new travel bag to the back of the bike, and I climb on behind him. Tony hands me his helmet, and we ride in the most uncomfortable silence back to the house.
Tony helps me off the bike and smiles as he hands me the house key. I open the door and my breath is taken away from me. There are rose petals covering the whole living room floor and up the stairs. I take a closer look and realize there are white petals arranged to form the words “I’m Sorry” in the middle of the living room.
The tears start rushing down my face, and I turn around and see Tony on one knee holding a ring.
“Grace, I know I lied to you, but I was just trying to protect you. I married you the first time because I loved you and wanted to share the world with you. So, I’d love to continue showing you how much I’ll always love you… Will you make me the happiest man in the world and marry me again?”
I’m crying so hard that I can barely see. I drop to the floor and close the ring box. “Oh, Tony, I’m sorry! I was a bitch. I’ve been wrong about everything. You were always there for me and when Scott came back in the picture, I just needed to get the answers I’ve been looking for. I finally got them, baby, and I’m finally ready to move on with my life. I love you, Tony! And yes, I would love to marry you again!”
Tony grabs my hand to pull me up and kisses me like a mad man. I know I can’t have sex with him today because I was just with Scott, but I’m not going to tell Tony about what happened between me and Scott. I’ll come up with an excuse just like I always do.
Once I’m able to catch my breath, I notice I Love Lucy is playing on the television and my favorite bottle of wine is on the floor. I lie down on the floor with the rose petals and smile. I can’t believe Tony had the time to do this! He lies down next to me and we cuddle as I rest my head on his chest while he plays with my hair.
“I’m honestly sorry, Gracie. I only started digging and looking for Scott when you would come home drunk and cry yourself to sleep while screaming his name. I had to know who was causing you all this pain.”
I didn’t realize I screamed Scott’s name. I had wanted to drink to put Scott in the back of my mind, not to have him invade my sleep.
“I’m sorry for that, Tony. I didn’t know what I was doing in my drunken haze. I never wanted to hurt you, but it seems like that’s all I end up doing. I’m fucked up, Tony. You know that, yet you love me anyway. You accept all my flaws, but at what cost to you? I want you to be happy, and I want to try to be the one who makes you happy, but I don’t know how to let go of such a big part of my life.” I sigh and look at Tony shyly because I don’t know how to handle this situation.
I still have so much to learn about truly loving someone and putting others first. But, I want to figure it out. I want to be a good wife and a good mother. Not just good – amazing. If being with Scott the past couple days taught me anything, it’s that it’s time for me to grow up and stop being so selfish. I can’t keep letting my past and my insecurities run my life. I need to take control and appreciate and value the home and life Tony has given me. I need to give Scottie the love and family I never had.
“Well, as long as we can start over again and on a clean slate. I can’t lose you again, Grace. I was a lost
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