to say."
I look up at him through wet eyes. My stomach tightens, my emotions twisting at the things he still doesn't know. He doesn't know that he created a child with me, and he doesn't know that he could have been a father. I hold back my tears, listening as Leo starts to talk again.
"I don't know what the fuck you're talking about, but this is what I do know. You're gonna listen to what I have to say." He takes a deep breath, looking right at me. "I wasn't glad Kendal ripped Jax's heart out. I don't know who the fuck you were listening to, but you weren't hearing me. I don't even know what the fuck I said. I do know that I wasn't happy never say anything about us. I never wanted to keep us a secret in the first place! That was all on you!" His eyes are wide, and I stay quiet. I'm too shocked to think about what to say right now. "I didn't want you to go. I was a little relieved that maybe, because Kendal had broken it off with Jax, she wouldn't be as pissed at me for sleeping with you. Maybe that's what you misheard? I don't know. What I do know is that I never wanted any of those other girls. I only wanted you, but you were too ashamed to tell anyone about us. I didn't blame you. You're fucking gorgeous Tan, an angel. You were always my angel, you still are. I'm just a drummer in a band. You could have done so much better than me. I wanted you to be all mine anyway. I used those other girls to make you jealous, I wanted you to get mad at me. I wanted you to tell everyone about us! I wanted you to be mine, and only mine! I wanted to be yours. I didn't want those fucking groupies. It was you. Angel, I still want you."
Oh. My. God!
What the fuck am I supposed to say? I'm speechless. He really didn't want me to leave? He didn't want to keep us a secret?
Leo takes a step towards me, placing his hands either side of my face. "There isn't one single day that I didn't think about you Tanya. I tried to forget, I really did, but I couldn't. You're mine, and you always will be. When I came back and saw you again, I knew why I couldn't forget you." He looks me right in the eyes, blowing me away with his next words. "I love you, angel. I didn't know what you were doing to me back then, but I do now. I love you. I want you back. It fucking kills me to think about you with someone else."
As lovely as these words are, they remind me what the girls were talking about last week. I remove his hands from my face. "But that doesn't stop you does it? You don't want me to be with anyone else, but you're free to do as you please."
"What are talking about?"
I laugh. "Oh please, don't bother lying. This is what you do. It's who you are. I know you left with another girl when I left the club. Christ, it was all in the magazines!"
Leo frowns at me. "So what? You left with that pretty boy."
What the fuck is he talking about? Oh shit, Marcus, then I remember what Maisy told me. "For your information he followed me out to see me safely to my car. Whatever Maisy told you was a lie. I went home by myself, not that it matters. I'm free and single. I can do as I please."
He chuckles to himself. "See we're just playing the same old game, me and you making each other jealous." He stops laughing, looking seriously at me. "I didn't sleep with her. She came back to mine and I was going to, but I couldn't. Sure, I let her leave happy, but we didn't have sex."
She left happy? In other words he made her come. Very nice Leo. "What a gentleman you are."
I sit down on shaky legs. I never thought he'd be saying these things to me. This is why he's been chasing me around, trying to get me to talk to him since he came back. All this time I was wrong about him. He didn't want me to leave. He wanted us to be together, and I didn't see it.
Leo sits down next to me, close enough that his thick denim covered thigh touches my leg. "Look, I want you to know that I don't blame you for leaving. I understand
I look up at him through wet eyes. My stomach tightens, my emotions twisting at the things he still doesn't know. He doesn't know that he created a child with me, and he doesn't know that he could have been a father. I hold back my tears, listening as Leo starts to talk again.
"I don't know what the fuck you're talking about, but this is what I do know. You're gonna listen to what I have to say." He takes a deep breath, looking right at me. "I wasn't glad Kendal ripped Jax's heart out. I don't know who the fuck you were listening to, but you weren't hearing me. I don't even know what the fuck I said. I do know that I wasn't happy never say anything about us. I never wanted to keep us a secret in the first place! That was all on you!" His eyes are wide, and I stay quiet. I'm too shocked to think about what to say right now. "I didn't want you to go. I was a little relieved that maybe, because Kendal had broken it off with Jax, she wouldn't be as pissed at me for sleeping with you. Maybe that's what you misheard? I don't know. What I do know is that I never wanted any of those other girls. I only wanted you, but you were too ashamed to tell anyone about us. I didn't blame you. You're fucking gorgeous Tan, an angel. You were always my angel, you still are. I'm just a drummer in a band. You could have done so much better than me. I wanted you to be all mine anyway. I used those other girls to make you jealous, I wanted you to get mad at me. I wanted you to tell everyone about us! I wanted you to be mine, and only mine! I wanted to be yours. I didn't want those fucking groupies. It was you. Angel, I still want you."
Oh. My. God!
What the fuck am I supposed to say? I'm speechless. He really didn't want me to leave? He didn't want to keep us a secret?
Leo takes a step towards me, placing his hands either side of my face. "There isn't one single day that I didn't think about you Tanya. I tried to forget, I really did, but I couldn't. You're mine, and you always will be. When I came back and saw you again, I knew why I couldn't forget you." He looks me right in the eyes, blowing me away with his next words. "I love you, angel. I didn't know what you were doing to me back then, but I do now. I love you. I want you back. It fucking kills me to think about you with someone else."
As lovely as these words are, they remind me what the girls were talking about last week. I remove his hands from my face. "But that doesn't stop you does it? You don't want me to be with anyone else, but you're free to do as you please."
"What are talking about?"
I laugh. "Oh please, don't bother lying. This is what you do. It's who you are. I know you left with another girl when I left the club. Christ, it was all in the magazines!"
Leo frowns at me. "So what? You left with that pretty boy."
What the fuck is he talking about? Oh shit, Marcus, then I remember what Maisy told me. "For your information he followed me out to see me safely to my car. Whatever Maisy told you was a lie. I went home by myself, not that it matters. I'm free and single. I can do as I please."
He chuckles to himself. "See we're just playing the same old game, me and you making each other jealous." He stops laughing, looking seriously at me. "I didn't sleep with her. She came back to mine and I was going to, but I couldn't. Sure, I let her leave happy, but we didn't have sex."
She left happy? In other words he made her come. Very nice Leo. "What a gentleman you are."
I sit down on shaky legs. I never thought he'd be saying these things to me. This is why he's been chasing me around, trying to get me to talk to him since he came back. All this time I was wrong about him. He didn't want me to leave. He wanted us to be together, and I didn't see it.
Leo sits down next to me, close enough that his thick denim covered thigh touches my leg. "Look, I want you to know that I don't blame you for leaving. I understand
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