don’t know. You just seem so distant from me. What is playing in your mind?”
He stops walking and I turn to look at him. His dark hair falls to one side of his face. He is so beautiful and I want to wrap my arms around him. I have the instant need to kiss him and feel his lips on mine. Those soft lips stare back at me. I inch closer to him and press my hand on his chest. I hear his breathing get deeper as I slowly look up in his eyes. I can see desire in his eyes as I lift up my hand to his cheek. He doesn’t stop me. I feel his hand on my lower back and his other hand on my cheek. We look at each other and unhurriedly our lips meet in a gentle kiss. He tastes like heaven and I don’t want him to stop kissing me. I part my lips and let his tongue explore my mouth. We play a little dance and the kiss becomes urgent and full of want. For a moment I forget where I am and get lost in his kiss. This feels amazing and I don’t want him to stop. I slowly pull away from him as I hear his breathing. “Wow.”
He smiles and kisses me on the forehead. “Pretty girl, would it freak you out if I told you I’ve been waiting for that kiss my whole life?”
I gasp at his honesty. “No,” I start to say, “Because I’ve been waiting for that kiss my whole life too.” I pull him back down to my lips as we kiss again.
Chapter 8
The next few days are perfect. Adam and I spend time together and I feel our love growing. The memories of us haunt me and I try to shut them out so I can live in the now but it’s hard. There’s so much that we need to talk about but I don’t know how to bring it up and a part of me wants him to say something. There’s no denying our feelings for one another but neither of us have admit our feeling. Every time we hang out with Erin and Connor, they’d make their comments that we should just get together already. I smile and laugh but Adam doesn’t say anything. It makes me wonder how he truly feels. We share more moments of passion and I love when his lips touch mine. I want his kiss to be my last.
He took me out to dinner a few more nights and surprised me with ice cream while I was in the library studying more about Optimax . The sweet little gestures mean so much to me and it feels good to know how much he cares about me. I’m thankful that I’m not afraid anymore to be around him and with each day, I feel closer than ever to him.
A few days before Christmas break, Adam asked me if I wanted to ride back home with him and Connor. As much as I wanted to say yes, I told him I preferred to drive so that I would have my car at home and was looking forward to some time to think. He laughed and didn’t push the subject any further. It is Sunday night as I change into my shorts and tank top before climbing into bed. I haven’t seen much of Erin since she has been busy with finishing up her assignments and spending time with Connor. I’m happy for my friends and can tell they really like one another. I am not sure what is holding them back and I don’t ask, because I know Erin would turn around and ask me the same question about Adam. I smile to myself as I snuggle under my covers. I lie here for a minute or so then take out my phone and send a text to Adam.
Me: Just wanted to say good night.
I turn on my TV and flip through the channels trying to find something to watch. I finally settle on “ A Walk to Remember ” . After about an hour, I look at my phone again and don’t see anything from Adam. I get a little sad and wonder what he is doing. I turn my head back to the TV and watch as Landon dismisses Jamie in front of his friends. “What an asshole,” I say to myself.
Suddenly there is a knock on the door and I get up wondering who it is. The knock becomes more urgent. I freeze. I can’t seem to open the door. What if it is Kyle? I look around my room to find a bat or anything! I can do this. I reach for the door and turn the door knob.