Ray of the Star by Laird Hunt Page A

or twice as he was going about his ablutions and eating his sausage and bread covered in the extraordinary rose petal jam that Solange had insisted on running inside to get for him when he had dropped her off at her apartment just a few hours previously, he had burst into song, the submarine thing, yes, but also bits and pieces of others that he had not come up with in years, and indeed he was in the explosive middle of one of these bits when he stepped through the doors of his building a few minutes after leaving his mirror behind and ran into Señora Rubinski, who, beaming, said, “Ah, Harry, how perfect, perhaps you would like to join us, my sleepyhead is finally up off the couch, we’re off for a morning walk, no need to wait for evening, here he is,” upon which she indicated, with rather a flourish, an elderly gentleman, the spitting image of the picture Señora Rubinski carried with her, who smiled a little sheepishly, shrugged, and seemed not at all nonplussed by Harry’s rather stunned silence at being presented to a man he could see through, even if only a little—at the right shoulder and the left shin—nor did Señora Rubinski, who had a reputation for moderate prickliness, take poorly Harry’s silence, which went on for the entire time the three of them were standing there, although when after an awkward interval Harry’s hand went slowly up and out, as if in spite of Harry’s reluctance it had decided a proper greeting was in order, a tiny cloud of worry came and rained on the edges of her huge smile, and she bade Harry a hasty farewell and, not quite touching the small of Señor Rubinski’s back, ushered him away, leaving Harry standing there staring after them, at Señor Rubinski in particular, though not, as one might imagine, with his hand still theatrically stretched out before him—he had immediately pulled that back in, placed it in his pocket, and made a nice tight fist of it—thinking,
O.K.
… and then, probably because he had thought it the night before as he and Solange had stood up straight after climbing out of the submarine and saw both Venus and the moon reflected on the disturbingly shiny waters of the bay, which looked both like and unlike the endless, gentle waters they had seemed to swim through together earlier,
It harrows me with fear and wonder,
the overly poetic incongruity of which remark, not to mention the terrors to do with numbness and icy water it adumbrated, had kept him from voicing it then but didn’t stop him from murmuring it now as the Rubinskis turned a corner and vanished, and he began making his way to Alfonso’s to collect the submarine and head for the boulevard, with the result that Harry arrived at his now customary spot in a very different frame of mind indeed and the silence that surrounded him inside the submarine, which found itself amplified by Solange’s absence from her box across the boulevard, even though it was past the hour they had spoken of the night before, was for the first time an uncomfortable, almost an untenable silence, a silence harrowed, in short, by fear and wonder, in that uncomfortable order, and so when Ireneo jogged up to the grill of the submarine and cleared his throat, Harry threw open the hatch and stepped out and, without hesitation, vigorously pumped the very real Ireneo’s proffered hand, an operation that was only mildly complicated by Ireneo’s apparent reluctance to stop jogging in place as he delivered his message.

“S he wants to see
me?”
Harry said,
    “Yes,” Ireneo said,
    “You’re sure you’ve got the right person?”
    “More than,”
    “Because if it’s Solange you’re looking for she’ll be here any minute,”
    “Solange …”
    “The silver angel, the one with the broken face, the one you were looking for,”
    “The two of you have struck up an acquaintance,”
    “We have, after that night I looked for both of you and found her,”
    “Well, my employer would be very happy to greet Solange