are you still doing up?â Ma asked. âItâs late.â
I took a deep breath. âMa,â I said, willing myself to form the word.
Were you ever
going to tell me why
my father really we
nt to prison? Did yo
u think Iâd never fi
nd out?
What I actually said surprised me. âDo you ever think about moving?â
Ma let out a little laugh and lay down onto the bed next to me. âTrust me,â she said, âIâve daydreamed about moving more often than you could ever guess.â
I turned over, propping myself up on one elbow so we were facing each other.
âThen why donât we? We could start over someplace different. Someplace where no one knows us, and we could be anyone we want.â
Ma looked at me strange. âWouldnât you miss Keisha too much?â
The thought of missing Keisha tore through me, but I shook my head. âWeâd keep in touch. Please, Ma. Letâs do it.â
Ma stroked my hair. âWhere would we go?â
I thought it over, excitement building at the possibility that she might say yes. âCalifornia,â I said. âWe could live by the beach and I could audition for musicals.â
Ma wrinkled her nose. âCalifornia? Really? Too crowded for me. Iâd choose someplace vast and open, like Nebraska or Wyoming.â
âThose would work too,â I said, even though I didnât really want to live in the middle of nowhere.
Ma just sighed. âSure would be nice if we could afford it. But you know weâre lucky to have this house. If my grandmother hadnât left it to me in her will . . .â Ma closed her eyes. âMoving costs money we donât have and, frankly, I donât know where Iâd be without Ms. Evette to help out with you. I know this isnât the best area, but we have to make do with what we have. You understand that, donât you, Tia?â
I stared up at the ceiling. Tears stung my eyes.
âYeah,â I said. âItâs just . . . I wish . . .â
âWhat do you wish, honey?â
I wish I didnât live in the same ci
ty as Danielle Morto
nâs family.
I shook my head. âNothing. You should go back to bed. I know you have to work early tomorrow.â
âThatâs true.â Ma got up slowly. She walked over to the doorway and stopped. âYou know I love you, right? If thereâs something bothering you, youâd tell me?â
Ma looked so concerned, standing there in her tatterednightshirt, that I didnât have the heart to hurt her. âNothingâs wrong,â I murmured, but the minute I said it, I understood something important.
Lying was exhausting.
So was hiding. I didnât want to be the person Keishaâs aunt Loretta thought Iâd become. I wanted to be the girl whoâd dreamed of changing the world with her voice. I wanted to be the girl who could sing duets with a really great guy if he asked her to.
But now I knew that wouldnât happen unless I
made
it happen. If Ma wouldnât be leaving this city any time soon, then there was something I needed to do.
Something that made my heart pound and my throat constrict.
Something that scared me straight down to my bones.
CHAPTER 18
T HE NEXT NIGHT I was back at Keishaâs. Weâd begged for this sleepover, since weâd missed the one on Monday night.
âAre you sure you need to do this?â Keisha asked. Her room was dark and we were hiding under the sheet, lighting the space with a tiny flashlight. âI just donât see how going to Danielle Mortonâs house will do anything other than make things worse.â
I shook my head. âI told you already. I need to go back to where things went wrong, and if I donât apologize, no one ever will.â
Keisha groaned. âBut it wasnât
your
fault! You were four! How exactly were you supposed to stop your butt-brained father from using his
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