who were not the descendants of her uncle Walter, whom her father had dubbed the Enemy. I did not know that she had extended the application of this word to include all girls and even young men of my generation, who might deprive her of my company. The twins therefore were doubly inimical.
âYou spent the whole evening with them and youâve learnt your lesson.â
âBut I havenât,â I protested. She was much too upset to be restored to reason by a breezy manner.
âNow youâre being rude,â she said.
âIâm sorry. But I donât see that itâs rude to say that I wonât stop knowing the only girls that I do know, except Josie, whoâs like a sister.â This was turning the sword in Mildyâs wound.
âIâm sorry you donât find it entertaining here, but doubtless you can find somewhere more amusing. You might live with the twins.â
âActually they did ask me tonight,â I said hotly, but added with honest weakness, âthough I donât think they meant it.â
Mildy was in that neurotic state when her sensitivity responded only to the stings and ignored the assuagement.
âYouâd better go then,â she said in a trembling voice. âIâve tried to make you comfortable, but apparently Iâm not rich or smart enough. You want someone who can drive you home in a horse cab.â
I was horrified at the implication of ingratitude, and also at the idea of leaving Mildyâs house as the result of a quarrel, not only because my father would be annoyed, but because I was dimly aware that there was something ridiculous in sharing an emotional quarrel with my aunt, and that the twins would be very funny about it.
âYouâve made me wonderfully comfortable,â I said. âI thought you wanted me to enjoy myself.â
âSo I do, but in a sensible way.â
âWhat have I done thatâs not sensible?â
She searched round for something other than not spending the whole evening between herself and Miss Bath. âYou shut your eyes and put on an affected artistic manner when Wolfie was playing that horrible music.â
With her inverted reasoning, she did not understand that the last way to endear herself to a young man was to expose his adolescent absurdities.
âIâd better go to bed,â I said in a subdued voice. Mildy took this as an acceptance of her rebuke, and proferred her cheek, barely concealing the queenliness of the great courtesan of her fantasy, under the modest demeanour of an aunt, receiving the dutiful kiss of a nephew.
Afterwards she referred to this as âthat horrid evening when we quarrelledâ.
Although during my conversation with Mildy the visions, illuminated in my mind as I stepped from the Government House car, flickered and grew dim, becoming utterly black at the moment of our kiss, as I lay awake soothed by the luxury of the bed which she had bought for me, they began to glow again, and I saw before me brilliant routes into experience. As we have noted, the illuminations of young people, though dazzling, follow each other in quick succession, and are more in the nature of hallucinations. To older people they are more serious, and Diana felt that in some way the party had shown her the journey in life that she wished to make, but for which she had long ceased to hope. This was due to her conversation with Russell.
CHAPTER FIVE
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