insecure I’ve been. Hell, you saved my life that night.” I bite the inside of my lip nervously. “Sometimes your dismissive remarks make me feel so inadequate, and I know you don’t mean it like that, but you make me feel...subordinate.” I take a deep breath and aimlessly shake my head, running my hands through my hair. “Jesus! Does that even fucking make sense?” I sigh and drop my head. “I promised myself after Alan, that I would never be someone’s lower half ever again, and I’m not gonna be afraid to express my feelings, Ash. If you can’t accept that, then maybe we need to rethink…” I put my head in my hands and sob.
He scoots in closer to me, as tears fall from his eyes onto my leg. “Liv, you’re not subordinate, and I’m so sorry if I made you feel that way. God woman! Can’t you see how much you mean to me?” He throws his hands up and his head back. “If I ever lose you, I’ll die… I swear to God... I’ll die. I don’t want to lose you, Sunshine. Please…”
I take him into my arms, “I love you Ash. I love you so much.”
He smiles, tries to make light of things. “So was this our first fight?”
I laugh, as he wipes the tears from my face with his thumbs.
“Actually our first fight was the night you were drunk, and called me from your hotel room. You were pretty twisted.”
He strokes my face and laughs, “Ah yeah I remember that. The best night I’ll never remember.” He cackles.
He pulls me back onto the bed, with his arms on either side of me, and his eyes have a longing look. “Liv, from now on, let’s move forward. I don’t want to rehash the past, and I don’t want to fight. I just want you. Promise me? Pinky swear?”
With tears in my eyes, I nod my head. “I promise. Pinky swear.”
I’m giddy with excitement, as we drive to the airport for our flight to Houston. Ash looks at me laughing, and shakes his head. “You’re not gonna have a leg left, if you don’t quit shaking it, Sunshine.”
I giggle, as I look down at my leg. “I’m just anxious.”
He winks, “Ya think?”
To prepare for our flight, Ash and I each made playlists of our iTunes. Music’s such an important part of our lives, and I love how we create playlists for special occasions. He winks and puckers his lips, “Liv, you’re gonna love the playlist I made for you.”
I tap his nose and banter back, “Well, I’m betting mine for you, will top yours for me.”
He raises his eyebrows, cocking his head to the side, “We’ll just have to see, Sunshine. I’m pretty competitive, ya know.”
***
We make it through the long line at security and settle into our seats. I’m excited, since I’ve never flown first class in my life, and find the service here to be pretty impressive. I guess I must look like Alice in Wonderland, because Ash looks over the top of his glasses smiling, and rolls his eyes. “Your first time in first class?”
I put my hands on my waist and look at him teasingly, as I stick out my tongue. “Yes this is my first time in first class. Forgive me, but I wasn’t born privileged.”
I reach into my bag and get out our phones and headphones. I smile, as Ash tilts his head allowing me to put the buds in his ears, and gives me a thumbs up. I’ve got my Beats headphones on and Ash comically remarks about them, as he pulls his ear buds out. “You look like one of those obsessive music lovers I’ve read about.” He points at my headphones and laughs. I pull my legs up in the seat, take out my book and readjust my headphones. I start listening to the playlist he made for me, appropriately called ‘ Soon to be OH ’. He looks over at me, cuddled up in my seat, and kisses the top of my head. I look down at my ring and marvel, shaking my head in amazement.
Ash lifts one side of my headphones off and asks, “Whatcha looking at?”
“I’m looking at this over the top amazing ring.” I matter of factly laugh.
“So, you still like it?” Ash
He scoots in closer to me, as tears fall from his eyes onto my leg. “Liv, you’re not subordinate, and I’m so sorry if I made you feel that way. God woman! Can’t you see how much you mean to me?” He throws his hands up and his head back. “If I ever lose you, I’ll die… I swear to God... I’ll die. I don’t want to lose you, Sunshine. Please…”
I take him into my arms, “I love you Ash. I love you so much.”
He smiles, tries to make light of things. “So was this our first fight?”
I laugh, as he wipes the tears from my face with his thumbs.
“Actually our first fight was the night you were drunk, and called me from your hotel room. You were pretty twisted.”
He strokes my face and laughs, “Ah yeah I remember that. The best night I’ll never remember.” He cackles.
He pulls me back onto the bed, with his arms on either side of me, and his eyes have a longing look. “Liv, from now on, let’s move forward. I don’t want to rehash the past, and I don’t want to fight. I just want you. Promise me? Pinky swear?”
With tears in my eyes, I nod my head. “I promise. Pinky swear.”
I’m giddy with excitement, as we drive to the airport for our flight to Houston. Ash looks at me laughing, and shakes his head. “You’re not gonna have a leg left, if you don’t quit shaking it, Sunshine.”
I giggle, as I look down at my leg. “I’m just anxious.”
He winks, “Ya think?”
To prepare for our flight, Ash and I each made playlists of our iTunes. Music’s such an important part of our lives, and I love how we create playlists for special occasions. He winks and puckers his lips, “Liv, you’re gonna love the playlist I made for you.”
I tap his nose and banter back, “Well, I’m betting mine for you, will top yours for me.”
He raises his eyebrows, cocking his head to the side, “We’ll just have to see, Sunshine. I’m pretty competitive, ya know.”
***
We make it through the long line at security and settle into our seats. I’m excited, since I’ve never flown first class in my life, and find the service here to be pretty impressive. I guess I must look like Alice in Wonderland, because Ash looks over the top of his glasses smiling, and rolls his eyes. “Your first time in first class?”
I put my hands on my waist and look at him teasingly, as I stick out my tongue. “Yes this is my first time in first class. Forgive me, but I wasn’t born privileged.”
I reach into my bag and get out our phones and headphones. I smile, as Ash tilts his head allowing me to put the buds in his ears, and gives me a thumbs up. I’ve got my Beats headphones on and Ash comically remarks about them, as he pulls his ear buds out. “You look like one of those obsessive music lovers I’ve read about.” He points at my headphones and laughs. I pull my legs up in the seat, take out my book and readjust my headphones. I start listening to the playlist he made for me, appropriately called ‘ Soon to be OH ’. He looks over at me, cuddled up in my seat, and kisses the top of my head. I look down at my ring and marvel, shaking my head in amazement.
Ash lifts one side of my headphones off and asks, “Whatcha looking at?”
“I’m looking at this over the top amazing ring.” I matter of factly laugh.
“So, you still like it?” Ash
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