wasnât just physical. It was more like finding another part of his soulâa part heâd never even knew existedâand feeling as if he was a little closer to being whole.
A person couldnât be that for him. He didnât trust the universe to keep the people he cared about alive and with him. He kept his relationships carefully limited. Mick, Dennis, maybe Hemi and a few of the other guys who were trying for the Cronus missions. That was it. He didnât let many people get close to him and he had the uncomfortable feeling that Molly had slipped in when he hadnât been paying attention.
Her long legs and curvy hips had distracted him. Made him think with his dick instead of his brain. And now he was dealing with the fallout.
He put his head in his hands, stared at the tabletop and saw a small crescent moon etched into the wood. Dropping his hands, he traced the old carving. He remembered how rebellious heâd felt when heâd worked on it over the course of his first summer at the ranch. Heâd felt like he had a secret. Tonight heâd unconsciously sat in the same spot that had been his all those years ago. He glanced across the table, remembered that Molly had sat there.
It was funny that no matter how much had changed this still felt like his spot. He rubbed the moon again. He had always been so sure of what he wanted, where he wanted to go, where his real home wasâup there in the starsâbut as he looked around the kitchen and the memories of the past swelled around him, he realized he had more of a home here than he wanted to remember.
* * *
H E LEFT BEFORE dawn broke over the horizon the next day. Making love to Molly...well, that hadnât been his smartest idea, but he didnât regret it.
As much as ranching wasnât in his plans, he owed it to Mick to make sure that the place survived.
Despite his desire to ride the fences and see the acreage theyâd discussed the night before, he didnât want to wait another moment before putting their plan into action. That was why heâd left. It wasnât cowardice driving him from her arms; it was determination. Or at least that was his story and he was sticking to it. He fiddled with the radio and had a flashback to this first ride out to the Bar T Ranch sitting in the front seat with Mick.
The older man had been larger than life and his voice the kind of quiet rumble that rolled through a room the way thunder did across the wide-open plains. Heâd hit the different buttons on the radio and looked over at Jasonâheâd definitely only been Jason back thenâand said, âYou like this kind of music?â
Jason hadnât said anything. Still mad that heâd gotten busted for living alone and scared that legally he had to live with this guy.
Finally, after exhausting all of the choices, Mick turned to him, stared with those wise eyes of his and said, âYou donât like much, do you?â
Jason had shrugged. Heâd been living alone for six months after his mom died. For most of that time there had been no electricity, no music. âI donât know.â
âFair enough,â Mick said. âNow that youâre living with us, you can figure it out.â
Mick had turned on a country music station. Not one of the modern ones. One that played classic country like George Jones, Hank Williams, Jr. and Conway Twitty. And Jason had been hooked. Mick knew it and kept him supplied with CDs and a new CD player in his room. It was the first thing heâd liked about his new life. That, and the fact that he didnât have to worry about finding his next meal or keeping warm at night.
Now, he stopped on that old classic country station. âWhoâs Gonna Fill Their Shoes?â by George Jones began to play, and tears burned the back of Aceâs eyes. He wondered if thereâd ever be a man who could fill Mickâs shoes. Ace was determined to do right by
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