the ASL class
room
back
straight
this deaf teacher
looks me in the eyes
sees my soul
then glances at Sarah
and motions for me to
Go!
Go!
Go!
sarah
I see the change in her face. Miss Saunders is talking, talking, and I run after Annie. Someone tips too far in a chair and almost falls. People laugh.
âHey, Sarah,â Miss Saunders signs to me, stepping to the door. Watching me.
My sister. Thatâs all I sign.
Miss Saunders nods once.
Annieâs moving fast. I have to jog to keep up.
âWhat happened? Annie?â
âIâm leaving,â she says. The hall is cleared out. Her backpack hangs from her arm. Slaps at her leg. Weak light falls through the skylights. So weak it canât even splash on the floor.
I stop, watch her walk away. Hesitate. And then . . .
âWait,â I say, before she goes through the door to snowflakes that look like they might change their minds and go back heavenward. âIâm coming with you.â
Back into my classroom. A quick apology to the teacher. Grab my books. And run to Annie, who doesnât even check out of school.
These last few days . . .
Theyâve felt like an eternity.
Theyâve gone on forever.
They have weighed more than the whole school year before as the story has unfolded and Iâve seen more about my sister.
Weâre finding each other. Thatâs almost as scary as the other stuff. Because what if I fail her somehow? Or fail me?
âIâm coming.â A thought crowds my brain, pushing at me. Is Tommy Jones the reason Annie must protect herself with weight?
âWhere to?â Annie says when I run up to her. She stands on the sidewalk and Iâm worried weâre gonna get called back inside, get a call from the truant officer.
A few flakes of snow fall. Slowing down. Maybe itâs too cold for them too.
âYou decide,â I say. And weâre off to the car, my heart pounding, and Annieâs telling me about Jared and Ben. The apology. The hate.
âOh,â I say, again and again.
We drive around town until Annie stops shaking. Till she can tell how she felt that day in an empty hallway. How she felt when Jared apologized. How sheâs known that Ben is still bent out of shape because her actions messed with his college possibilities.
âBut the notes.â Iâm picking at my nails. Have pulled one off too low. âIt shows he doesnât care.â
âRight,â she says.
We drive on. Pass Dadâs office.
âI hate that place,â my sister says.
Pass the high school twice, like a dare.
âI hate that place too.â
Pass the community center where Annie participated in a few pageants when she was younger. This is the venue that asked her to be a guest judge. âThat place,â she says, her voice as slow motion as those few snowflakes. âThat place I donât mind.â
After a bit Annie says, âSarah. Maybe Iâm starting a diet. You know. A diet of healthy eating.â
âWhat?â I sit up straight in my seat. Nurse my finger.
âSure. I think Iâve decided to. Donât tell Mom. I donât want her crawling all over me.â
The car is warm and I think this Tommy Jones thing is over. Itâs over. I laugh. Happy to be in on the secret. âAre you serious? Why? I thought you wanted . . .â I pause.
âI know. To be this way.â Annieâs quiet. âItâs time to do the hard things and face whatâs happened. And why not?â Annie says. She doesnât look me in the eye.
âOf course. Why not?â
And then, âI am so glad, Annie. Glad this is what you want.â
She changes lanes without signaling. âLetâs get doughnuts as a sendoff. My treat.â
The road is full of traffic. The whole town looks dirty because of the old snow, the lifeless looking trees, the sky like an upside-down pot of scrubbed steel.
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