teller—a talker, yes, a teller, not especially—generally, she only kept secrets that belonged to her (and she was keeping secrets; you could just tell), which was fine with Dev. But, in all fairness, this particular secret belonged to Dev, too, and when it came to Dev, Lake was fair. Until this secret came along, Lake was as fair as moms get.
The second piece was the town house. The town house was nice. Not fancy, but with three bedrooms, a real dining room instead of just a kitchen, and with floors made of a blond wood that sunlight slid across like melted butter. And it wasn’t in some cut-off, gated “community” like town houses Dev was used to, but sat on a quiet tree-lined street, the last house in a row of ten. Even if Dev hadn’t seen the rental agreement, he would’ve known that the town house was way more than they could afford, even though Lake, who always worried about money, didn’t seem worried now.
But Dev might not have thought of the town house as a piece of anything at all if he hadn’t found the envelopes. Two envelopes, big ones. They came from schools, one in Miami and one in Los Angeles, and inside were fat, slick brochures full of pictures of kids: kids in white lab coats, test tubes and beakers gleaming around them; kids in front of enormous computer screens; kids playing violins; kids reading books under palm trees. Not just any kids, but gifted kids, because that’s who these schools were for. The crème de la crème, according to the Los Angeles brochure, and the too-rich phrase made Dev queasy.
Dev could tell from the pictures, from the weight and gloss of the brochures and the thick, creamy paper of the applications, that the schools were expensive, probably superexpensive, that even with a “partial, need-based scholarship” Dev wouldn’t be able to go. Not that he wanted to go. He didn’t want to be at the Melton School, which had “an aura of specialness that emanates from the children themselves,” and he didn’t much care about “maximizing his unique gifts.” (Neither brochure even mentioned basketball.) He wanted to stay where he was.
Besides, he couldn’t imagine himself or Lake living in either of those cities, under all that hard sunshine with suntanned rich people everywhere you turned. The Berkeley papers must have done a heck of a number on Lake for her to even consider it.
The Berkeley papers. The secret. The bigness of the secret. The town house. The schools.
Dev stared at the brochures for a long time, feeling the pieces inching toward each other, feeling a theory take shape. Lake had dragged them to a town Dev had never heard of for no reason she would share. She was breaking all her own rules, dipping into their tiny savings to pay rent. She was making crazy-expensive plans.
And then Dev had it. Lake must be expecting to have money, and she was expecting to find the money here. If Lake, who never took a dime from anyone, was expecting money, it must be money someone owed her. Or money someone owed Dev.
Dev touched his hair, spread his hands open in front of him, ran a finger along his eyebrow, and thought about his cells, every cell containing a nucleus, every nucleus containing two strands of DNA, the double helices coding Dev, Dev, Dev. He thought about Aidan saying “biological didn’t bother.” Did strands of DNA make someone owe? Did people belong to people because of what lay tangled in their cells?
Dev didn’t know what he thought about these questions, but he thought he knew what Lake thought. He was almost sure.
But the night after the day of raking leaves with Aidan, Dev wasn’t thinking about these questions. He wasn’t thinking that somewhere in the dark town outside his room, among all the squares of light, was a square belonging to his father. He had thought about it, a lot. But that night Dev lay stretched out in his bed, letting gravity pull his pleasantly aching body down, down into the mattress, and he thought about the
The second piece was the town house. The town house was nice. Not fancy, but with three bedrooms, a real dining room instead of just a kitchen, and with floors made of a blond wood that sunlight slid across like melted butter. And it wasn’t in some cut-off, gated “community” like town houses Dev was used to, but sat on a quiet tree-lined street, the last house in a row of ten. Even if Dev hadn’t seen the rental agreement, he would’ve known that the town house was way more than they could afford, even though Lake, who always worried about money, didn’t seem worried now.
But Dev might not have thought of the town house as a piece of anything at all if he hadn’t found the envelopes. Two envelopes, big ones. They came from schools, one in Miami and one in Los Angeles, and inside were fat, slick brochures full of pictures of kids: kids in white lab coats, test tubes and beakers gleaming around them; kids in front of enormous computer screens; kids playing violins; kids reading books under palm trees. Not just any kids, but gifted kids, because that’s who these schools were for. The crème de la crème, according to the Los Angeles brochure, and the too-rich phrase made Dev queasy.
Dev could tell from the pictures, from the weight and gloss of the brochures and the thick, creamy paper of the applications, that the schools were expensive, probably superexpensive, that even with a “partial, need-based scholarship” Dev wouldn’t be able to go. Not that he wanted to go. He didn’t want to be at the Melton School, which had “an aura of specialness that emanates from the children themselves,” and he didn’t much care about “maximizing his unique gifts.” (Neither brochure even mentioned basketball.) He wanted to stay where he was.
Besides, he couldn’t imagine himself or Lake living in either of those cities, under all that hard sunshine with suntanned rich people everywhere you turned. The Berkeley papers must have done a heck of a number on Lake for her to even consider it.
The Berkeley papers. The secret. The bigness of the secret. The town house. The schools.
Dev stared at the brochures for a long time, feeling the pieces inching toward each other, feeling a theory take shape. Lake had dragged them to a town Dev had never heard of for no reason she would share. She was breaking all her own rules, dipping into their tiny savings to pay rent. She was making crazy-expensive plans.
And then Dev had it. Lake must be expecting to have money, and she was expecting to find the money here. If Lake, who never took a dime from anyone, was expecting money, it must be money someone owed her. Or money someone owed Dev.
Dev touched his hair, spread his hands open in front of him, ran a finger along his eyebrow, and thought about his cells, every cell containing a nucleus, every nucleus containing two strands of DNA, the double helices coding Dev, Dev, Dev. He thought about Aidan saying “biological didn’t bother.” Did strands of DNA make someone owe? Did people belong to people because of what lay tangled in their cells?
Dev didn’t know what he thought about these questions, but he thought he knew what Lake thought. He was almost sure.
But the night after the day of raking leaves with Aidan, Dev wasn’t thinking about these questions. He wasn’t thinking that somewhere in the dark town outside his room, among all the squares of light, was a square belonging to his father. He had thought about it, a lot. But that night Dev lay stretched out in his bed, letting gravity pull his pleasantly aching body down, down into the mattress, and he thought about the
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