about popping some, but I closed the door and looked in the mirror. I couldnât see what Sally saw in my faceâwhat spooked her so. I had seen my father that morning, the first time in some time, hunted him down on my ownâsurprised him. I guess I was a little bit desperate. I couldnât talk to my mother about anything, really, certainly not about being dumped by a poor, freckly white girlâany white girl, for that matter. Shake and Brian had already been with too many girls, and Gavin hadnât been with any. So I went to my father, and I donât know why I expected him to be anything besides a stranger. I kept pretty quiet, pushed an uneaten sandwich and coffee mug around a diner counter. He didnât say much, either, just clicked his teeth. A couple of times he looked out in front of him, toward the open kitchen into nowhere, and smiled. When I was getting money out for the check, Iâd looked up and caught him shaking his head at me. âWhen you were a little boy, you were so full of light . . . ,â heâd started. He thanked me for lunch and the opportunity to see me and left.
Even locked in the bathroom, I could hear Gavin from downstairs, exclaiming over some bad eighties rock in his most exalted tone that â. . . indeed, the party has just arrived.â By the time I got downstairs the negotiations had begunâBrian and Shake were welcome, butGavin had to go. When he saw me, he bellowed drunkenly, âMu brathirâ
Eire nua!â
He snatched a bottle of fancy whiskey off the bar and tossed it to me dramatically like it was my confiscated sword. âSar! Ho!â he bellowed and then ran out the door into the night. I held the fifth by the neck, looked around at the ring of rich boys, had a quick mindâtried to calculate how many I could crack with the bottle. Then I drank and followed.
We went cruising around downtown in Shakeâs new used carâout and aimless. Brian had just dropped two hits of blotterâgoony-birds, I think. Shakeâs tape deck had just eaten his latest party mix, so we were listening to the radio. Even though it was his car, he thought it fair for everyone to have equal time on the dial. Brian chose first.
âClassics, dude.â
âWhose classics?â
âCome on, dude. One hundred point seven.â
Shake pulled the car over. We were in Chinatown, on the edge of the Combat ZoneâBostonâs tiny red-light district. He shut the motor off and turned to Brian, who was slumping in the back seat, and stared at him coldly. Shake was about as close as any of us could come to being a bully. He was already fully grown and dark. He was already a very good writer. Heâd graduated midyear and was on his way that summer to New York to serve as an intern for some well-known director that none of us had ever heard of. I asked him once about his writing, how he did it. âI see things and I write them downâconnect the dots to here,â he snapped. I thought that Iâd annoyed him so I didnât push it. I hadnât known that his anger was targeting something else, the visions, an awakening schizophrenia, which was soon to leave him shaking and alone.
âWhat, dude?â
âIâm in no mood for your shit,â he shot back crisply. All three of his accentsâurban black, Jamaican patois, and his fatherâs high-brow Londoneseâwere confounding to listeners. He could scare almost any white boy at will.
âWhat?â
âGâwan claat!â
âSorry, bro.â
âI ainât your brother.â
âSorry.â
He switched on the juice and tuned the station in. Van Morrison was on, singing âInto the Mystic.â Shake nodded to the music and turned it up.
âThis tuneâs all right.â
Brian slouched more, relaxed, and looked out the window. I followed his eyes down an alley where a transaction was going on between a black hooker and
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