to bring me here? Who gave him a key? I sit up from the bed he must’ve laid me on, and look at him, realizing that my gut was right about him. “How did you know about this place?” I question, somehow knowing he must’ve been so much more to Joella than I originally thought.
“I’ve never been in this room, but I’ve seen it in my mind before. She gave me a reading in the room we first passed through. It’s where you fainted. Why did you faint on me, Kali? I’m prepared to talk, but I need to make sure you’ll be okay with the things I tell you.”
I can’t look away from him and those eyes of his.
I notice a key dangling on a black cord around his neck. He instantly grabs hold of the key and hides it under his T-shirt. He momentarily looks away from me and rubs his chest, making sure the key is in its place. He’s waiting for me to answer, and I wish I could explain to him why I blacked out. I wish I could tell him that I am prepared to hear everything. But the truth is I’m scared out of my mind and I’ve never felt my heart beat this hard in all of my twenty-five years on this earth.
“ Don’t Stand So Close To Me ” by The Police
L ately my presence seems to make the women I encounter faint on me, and this is not a welcomed side effect. I wanted to show Kali the room where the fortuneteller, her grandmother, gave me her stupid reading, but that plan just went to shit. The second we entered that room, I felt her small hand begin to shake in mine, right before going limp, as she stopped holding on and began to fall. I was instantly reminded of Sara fainting in the bathroom six months ago, allowing the familiar terror and fear to flood through my veins again. I had Kali nestled in my arms, unresponsive to my touch. I looked around to find a flat place to lay her weak body on and tried to wake her. The living room we were in only had chairs, so I proceeded farther inside and carried her to the next room before placing her on a bed. It was dark, and a strong smell of roses hit me immediately. I’d never seen this room in my life, but it felt familiar like a childhood bedroom that you never forget.
I called out her name, trying to wake her up. I couldn’t help but stroke her hair and face, and that, too, seemed natural. Who the hell is she? Where do I know her from? Why do I feel like I’ve been here already? It had only been a few seconds, but I thought perhaps I needed to call an ambulance. As soon as the thought entered my head, her eyelids flickered. I instinctively moved away from her. I didn’t need to scare her more than all of this already has. Her color slowly came back to her cheeks and my treacherous heart began to beat again.
The fear in her eyes does crazy shit to my insides. I know she’s not scared of me, but I still feel like a dick for somehow causing that look. This isn’t sexual or anything, but I crave to hug her fear away. Who the fuck are you, Kali? Why do I care so much who the fuck she is in the first place? She sat up, and as if reading my thoughts, asked me who I am. I don’t know how to answer that. I don’t think I’ve figured that part out yet. I feel as if she knows more about me than I know about myself. And my questions seem to elicit a similar mute response from her.
I get up, unable to restrain myself and maintain an acceptable distance, and walk over to sit next to her on the bed I’ve placed her on. I know I can’t touch her, but I need to be close to her. She looks confused, like she needs someone to be close to her, and right now, that someone is me. Her eyes enlarge with an emotion I hope to God is not fear. As soon as I sit next to her, I regret our proximity. I immediately feel more than I should for a woman I just met. When I hear her gasp, I instantly get up, because I have no business feeling anything.
There are moments in your existence that you know your life will change forever. I had that moment when I met Sara almost
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