makes no sense. I’ve only known the guy for two minutes. Why should I care that he saw me with my fiancé? He knew I had a fiancé, of course I might have forgotten to mention that he was coming home for two weeks but still, why did he look so hurt by it? Why did he look almost heartbroken?
To say that I’m confused would be the understatement of the year. I am so far-off being confused that I ’m pretty sure there isn’t a word in the English dictionary that describes how I am feeling right now. However, there is one word that has been circling my brain for the past fifteen hours and that word would be ‘tease’. Well…more specifically ‘dick tease’, and I can’t help feel that I may have led him on somehow. It would explain his reaction yesterday, but it was never my intention to lead him on…
“ Hey, you okay?” I’m abruptly brought back to the present with the sound of Sebastian’s voice. I look up to see him staring down at me, a bemused look on his face.
I clasp his hand tightly in mine, giving him a reassuring smile. “Yeah, I’m fine, sorry I was miles away.”
“ Come on,” he coaxes, pulling me in the direction of Lily in her NICU room.
Putting everything else to the side for a moment, I have to say I’m blissfully happy to be walking hand in hand with Sebastian, and I have to thank my lucky stars he’s here with me right now, and safe. Also knowing I have him all to myself for the next two weeks leaves me feeling somewhat giddy. That is until I remember the warzone he has to be subjected to for another four months when he returns and then I just feel violently sick.
Once Sebastian and I have thoroughly cleaned our hands at the communal sinks, I round the corner and my heart comes to a stop. Ashton is doing his morning rounds, and he’s currently doing his vital checks on Lily. With my hand clasped tightly in Sebastian’s, I approach with apprehension. Oblivious to my inner turmoil, Sebastian engages him in conversation. I stand back, and it suddenly feels as if my vocal chords have been ripped out of my throat. I’m muted on the spot.
“ How’s my daughter?”
I watch Ashton intently as he looks up from Lily ’s chart and over to Sebastian with a professional smile, subsequently avoiding all eye contact with me. I hate to admit it, but my heart takes a brutal hit as he ignores me.
“She had another successful night, there have been no problems at all. You must be Sebastian?”
Sebastian smirks knowingly down at me. I smile back uncomfortably, noticing in the corner of my eye the dubious look on Ashton’s face. “Yes, I am. Ava must have told the entire hospital about me. It’s good to know she didn’t forget about me while I was gone.” He chuckles while my gut churns inside out with unruly guilt. I purposely avoid looking at Ashton and focus solely on Lily.
“No chance of that.” Ashton gives a feigned laugh, my heart almost shattering into a million pieces at the underlying jealousy I can hear in his voice. I clench my eyes shut, feeling like the worst human being in the entire world. To make matters worse, Sebastian wraps his arms around me, bringing me closer to his chest, kissing the very top of my head. Usually I would embrace this kind of affection from Sebastian, but with Ashton only two feet away, I feel as if I’m flaunting my relationship in his face.
“So I hear you’ve been in Afghanistan, are you back for good?” Ashton asks Sebastian.
“ Unfortunately not, I’m only back for two weeks special leave, then I have to head back out there, but it’s only for four months, then I’ll be back for good. I need to focus on my family, you know?” I watch as Ashton gives Sebastian a subtle smile and I swear for just one moment I see a flash of resentment in his eyes but just as quickly as it appears, it disappears again as if it were just a figment of my own imagination.
“ Well it was nice to meet you. I’m Doctor Bailey; I’m one of your
To say that I’m confused would be the understatement of the year. I am so far-off being confused that I ’m pretty sure there isn’t a word in the English dictionary that describes how I am feeling right now. However, there is one word that has been circling my brain for the past fifteen hours and that word would be ‘tease’. Well…more specifically ‘dick tease’, and I can’t help feel that I may have led him on somehow. It would explain his reaction yesterday, but it was never my intention to lead him on…
“ Hey, you okay?” I’m abruptly brought back to the present with the sound of Sebastian’s voice. I look up to see him staring down at me, a bemused look on his face.
I clasp his hand tightly in mine, giving him a reassuring smile. “Yeah, I’m fine, sorry I was miles away.”
“ Come on,” he coaxes, pulling me in the direction of Lily in her NICU room.
Putting everything else to the side for a moment, I have to say I’m blissfully happy to be walking hand in hand with Sebastian, and I have to thank my lucky stars he’s here with me right now, and safe. Also knowing I have him all to myself for the next two weeks leaves me feeling somewhat giddy. That is until I remember the warzone he has to be subjected to for another four months when he returns and then I just feel violently sick.
Once Sebastian and I have thoroughly cleaned our hands at the communal sinks, I round the corner and my heart comes to a stop. Ashton is doing his morning rounds, and he’s currently doing his vital checks on Lily. With my hand clasped tightly in Sebastian’s, I approach with apprehension. Oblivious to my inner turmoil, Sebastian engages him in conversation. I stand back, and it suddenly feels as if my vocal chords have been ripped out of my throat. I’m muted on the spot.
“ How’s my daughter?”
I watch Ashton intently as he looks up from Lily ’s chart and over to Sebastian with a professional smile, subsequently avoiding all eye contact with me. I hate to admit it, but my heart takes a brutal hit as he ignores me.
“She had another successful night, there have been no problems at all. You must be Sebastian?”
Sebastian smirks knowingly down at me. I smile back uncomfortably, noticing in the corner of my eye the dubious look on Ashton’s face. “Yes, I am. Ava must have told the entire hospital about me. It’s good to know she didn’t forget about me while I was gone.” He chuckles while my gut churns inside out with unruly guilt. I purposely avoid looking at Ashton and focus solely on Lily.
“No chance of that.” Ashton gives a feigned laugh, my heart almost shattering into a million pieces at the underlying jealousy I can hear in his voice. I clench my eyes shut, feeling like the worst human being in the entire world. To make matters worse, Sebastian wraps his arms around me, bringing me closer to his chest, kissing the very top of my head. Usually I would embrace this kind of affection from Sebastian, but with Ashton only two feet away, I feel as if I’m flaunting my relationship in his face.
“So I hear you’ve been in Afghanistan, are you back for good?” Ashton asks Sebastian.
“ Unfortunately not, I’m only back for two weeks special leave, then I have to head back out there, but it’s only for four months, then I’ll be back for good. I need to focus on my family, you know?” I watch as Ashton gives Sebastian a subtle smile and I swear for just one moment I see a flash of resentment in his eyes but just as quickly as it appears, it disappears again as if it were just a figment of my own imagination.
“ Well it was nice to meet you. I’m Doctor Bailey; I’m one of your
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