emotionally connected to important persons when they are physically absent, leaving the individual with BPD feeling lost and perhaps worthless. Suicide threats and attempts may occur along with anger at perceived abandonment and disappointments.
People with BPD exhibit other impulsive behaviors, such as excessive spending, binge eating and risky sex. BPD often occurs together with other psychiatric problems, particularly Bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, and other personality disorders.
The National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH)
I maintained a pretty manic state for around three years, and during this time I had been taking large amounts of amphetamines. During this three year stretch I was painting a lot, and I was also writing a novel. I would write every single day. Even if I was at a party I would have my notebook with me. I was obsessed with the idea of writing the great American novel. On my notebook it even said: “The Great American Novel.” I was going to write this book and I have boxes and boxes of notebooks that I still haven’t looked at to this day.
I would stay up for days and days writing this book, sometimes for five days in a row and then I would sleep. I was in an abusive codependent relationship, and since I'm borderline, I attach myself to men who were very disturbed individuals. That's who I'm attracted to. I have a savior complex with men or something. In this particular relationship, I liked the fact he would push me, and he would encourage my insanity. He would encourage me to believe that these insane and grandiose thoughts in my head were right.
My mom used to know when I was manic and she wouldn't let me leave the house because she knew that I was manic. When I was manic I would dress differently, and I would wear more makeup and dress sexier and I would always come home completely blitzed. I simply did not have a stop button. It was like when I was manic I was invincible and this personality would scare my mom. She didn’t know how to handle my mood changes.
I use to take myself off the mood stabilizers, although I always stayed on the antidepressants. They put me on a mood stabilizer when I was 16 when I was diagnosed as Bipolar. Because the mood stabilizer would curve my creativity I would take myself off of it because I enjoy my creativity. By only taking the antidepressants it caused me to be more manic.
What led up to me going into an institution for the second time is I had the realization that I had a drug problem. During this time I was living with my father, and he's an alcoholic, so he would let me do whatever I wanted and that's why I lived with him. He would just let me do whatever I wanted, and living with him I had a lot of freedom and I would through parities almost every night.
I was 18 at the time and one night my boyfriend and I went to see Bruce Springsteen in New York City. I had been up for three days. We were at a friend’s house and my boyfriend and I got into a physical fight over my drug use. My boyfriend said if I got off the drugs our relationship would be a lot better and he wouldn’t be so abusive. And this motivated me to going into going to an institution for the second time. I had a breakdown and I called my mom for help, where I disclosed to her that I had a problem with the prescription drugs.
The institution I went to for the second time was an incredible hospital. I learned a lot and it was phenomenal. I was put on the proper medication and I left the hospital very stable. I was there for about 45 days and I lived in the dual diagnosis house. At the time I didn't think I had a problem being Bipolar, rather I thought if I got off the drugs I would be fine. It was difficult but it was a lot better experience than what I experienced the first time. My first experience in the hospital was horrible, but this place was like a resort. At this point I was anorexic and I was a cutter and I really didn't have any
People with BPD exhibit other impulsive behaviors, such as excessive spending, binge eating and risky sex. BPD often occurs together with other psychiatric problems, particularly Bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, and other personality disorders.
The National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH)
I maintained a pretty manic state for around three years, and during this time I had been taking large amounts of amphetamines. During this three year stretch I was painting a lot, and I was also writing a novel. I would write every single day. Even if I was at a party I would have my notebook with me. I was obsessed with the idea of writing the great American novel. On my notebook it even said: “The Great American Novel.” I was going to write this book and I have boxes and boxes of notebooks that I still haven’t looked at to this day.
I would stay up for days and days writing this book, sometimes for five days in a row and then I would sleep. I was in an abusive codependent relationship, and since I'm borderline, I attach myself to men who were very disturbed individuals. That's who I'm attracted to. I have a savior complex with men or something. In this particular relationship, I liked the fact he would push me, and he would encourage my insanity. He would encourage me to believe that these insane and grandiose thoughts in my head were right.
My mom used to know when I was manic and she wouldn't let me leave the house because she knew that I was manic. When I was manic I would dress differently, and I would wear more makeup and dress sexier and I would always come home completely blitzed. I simply did not have a stop button. It was like when I was manic I was invincible and this personality would scare my mom. She didn’t know how to handle my mood changes.
I use to take myself off the mood stabilizers, although I always stayed on the antidepressants. They put me on a mood stabilizer when I was 16 when I was diagnosed as Bipolar. Because the mood stabilizer would curve my creativity I would take myself off of it because I enjoy my creativity. By only taking the antidepressants it caused me to be more manic.
What led up to me going into an institution for the second time is I had the realization that I had a drug problem. During this time I was living with my father, and he's an alcoholic, so he would let me do whatever I wanted and that's why I lived with him. He would just let me do whatever I wanted, and living with him I had a lot of freedom and I would through parities almost every night.
I was 18 at the time and one night my boyfriend and I went to see Bruce Springsteen in New York City. I had been up for three days. We were at a friend’s house and my boyfriend and I got into a physical fight over my drug use. My boyfriend said if I got off the drugs our relationship would be a lot better and he wouldn’t be so abusive. And this motivated me to going into going to an institution for the second time. I had a breakdown and I called my mom for help, where I disclosed to her that I had a problem with the prescription drugs.
The institution I went to for the second time was an incredible hospital. I learned a lot and it was phenomenal. I was put on the proper medication and I left the hospital very stable. I was there for about 45 days and I lived in the dual diagnosis house. At the time I didn't think I had a problem being Bipolar, rather I thought if I got off the drugs I would be fine. It was difficult but it was a lot better experience than what I experienced the first time. My first experience in the hospital was horrible, but this place was like a resort. At this point I was anorexic and I was a cutter and I really didn't have any
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