Kresley Cole - [MacCarrick Brothers 03] by If You Deceive

in her clothes, including this last fine gown she owned.
    Each day in La Marais, Maddy made countless decisions, and the stakes were high. At every turn, her choices could lead her to reward—or fate would ruthlessly check her.
    Each night before she went to sleep, she catalogued her actions for the day, analyzing them for weaknesses or exposures. She would ask herself, Did I do anything today to leave myself vulnerable…?
    Marrying a man like Le Daex would be one of her most critical moves, yet she would do it to avoid Toumard’s punishments—or plans. She’d sold her other gowns and paste jewels, but she hadn’t been able to keep up with the man’s demands for money. His lackeys hounded her more and more.
    Out on the street, Maddy passed the usual prostitutes in the usual alleyways, perched on their knees servicing clients. The pained expressions on the men’s faces had always fascinated her. The young ones, usually dressed in regimental uniforms, pleaded with the tarts not to stop. The older ones commanded them not to. Maddy had always wondered what could be so pleasurable that they feared its incompletion so much.
    The Scot had certainly made sure he’d completed his, by his own hand. She stumbled, nearly catching the hem of her dress.
    With him, she’d had a taste of passion and had begun to understand more about the scenes she witnessed routinely. At night, when she was alone in her bed, she recalled the pleasure he’d given her—before the pain. Even after he’d hurt her so terribly, she thought of him—more than of Quin, whom she’d failed to snare.
    As the neighborhood grew higher in elevation and therefore more expensive, she passed the boulangerie shop that was the bane of her existence. As was her custom, she stopped to stare through the window.
    The warmed shelves were piled with glazed treats, begging her to come liberate them. Inside, behind the counter, were the downtrodden ice creams jailed in a patented ice cream freezer. Alas, she’d never figured out how to pocket goods that melted or flaked apart with the merest touch.
    Leering at the food was only an appetizer of anguish for her. Maddy’s true torment was watching the young bourgeoisie wives sitting inside. Her hungry gaze drifted to a group of them now.
    They were her age and happy, gossiping and glancing over fashion plates, leaving food untouched. Some had gurgling babies in perambulators with silver teething rings, and all of them probably had respectable husbands at home—men they could adore and be adored by in return, men who would protect them and their children.
    Maddy envied them so bitterly that her eyes watered and her stomach churned with it.
    I would give anything to be one among those women. Anything.
    She coveted everything they had. She wanted a happy, well-fed baby of her own whom she could love and care for, much better than her own self-serving mother had cared for her. Maddy wanted to wear a watch pinned to her bodice to check if it was time to meet her husband back at their warm, secure home. She wanted to read fashion magazines—not to dream about a new wardrobe but to plan one.
    Maddy admittedly sought a rich husband, but not for the reasons everyone supposed. Precious jewels and baubles were welcome, but incidental. She yearned for the safety and security money would bring to her—and to the family she imagined of having.
    She’d turned her matrimonial focus to the very rich because those men were in less danger of losing everything, as her own father had. Her papa had been dearer to her than anyone, always striving to make up for her mother’s lack of affection, but the fact remained that he’d left his daughter defenseless in a world that seemed to lie in wait, ready to punish any misstep she might make….
    The old boulangerie shopkeeper eyed Maddy through the window. Though she was dressed in her costly gown, he recognized her and glared. He put on a grandfatherly face to paying customers, but he was