and knelt at his feet. “Allow me this. Please.” Unzipping first one boot, then the other, as he balanced a hand against the wall, she pulled them from his feet and tossed them aside. Then she removed his suit and tossed it aside. She rose, stepped away from him, and smiled. “You’re as magnificent in your physical body as in our thoughtwalk. What I’ve been missing all this time. I know that your people revere the melding through the mind higher than the physical. But, Jarek, we shall know both. And the colors we create—there will be none like them anywhere.” He reached for her, but again Kierra stepped away. “We will go slowly. I want you to know every moment of pleasure. And to know it is through us—you and I—that you know it. I’m going to give you such memories, they will usurp all previous ones. I promise you a new sanctuary.” “Sanctuary?” He had a vague sense of it, but most of that memory had been destroyed. Fragments. All fragments littered his mind. She touched his jaw. “You once shared your sanctuary with me. It was a beautiful place filled with colors, your colors, that seduced and pleasured me more than I thought possible. It was a place of no Befores or Beyonds. Right now you fear me in your mind, but I’ll bring you to a place where you will know I could never judge you for anything you’ve ever done.” “How could you not?” His body tingled with awareness of her in ways he’d never known. He wanted to open his mind to her—wanted her words to be true. “Do you judge me for what happened in our years of bondage? When my body was taken time and time again?” “How can you ask that?” “Then do you think me weak? That my love is such a poor thing it can’t be trusted not to judge? None of the Before matters. Not to me and not to you.” “I don’t know how to let go of it. I have no certainty that anything I remember is real.” “What about the thread that connects us? Do you think that is fashioned by Odon?” “No—I—” The thread linking him to Kierra was different. He was sure of it. There was some inner sense that denied it was part of anything that Odon had created or altered. “It is real.” She linked her hand with his. “Then come with me. Trust me. Let us share some of the bliss that is waiting for us.” “Where are we going? Hopefully not too far since we’re both naked.” He heard her throaty laugh, and his khout hardened even more. “We’re about to begin a journey. A cleansing that is long overdue.”
CHAPTER ELEVEN
She’d been fearful he would reject her out of hand. That she had left it too long. Eluria attempted to impart the knowledge she’d learned as a Twilight Companion, skills and arts an ordinary female would not know. But in the end, Eluria had told Kierra to go with her instincts and they would guide her. What instincts? The only thing she’d ever known of physical joining was what the Enforcers had taught Kierra through pain and drugs. Jarek had offered her the sensual mind bonding, but she’d shied away from physical contact. Now, when she was finally ready, he’d been so damaged, he’d pulled away from her. Did she have what it would take to heal him? She led him into the shower enclosure. The automatic motion indicator engaged and a warm rain of water fell over them. Kierra reached for a bottle of fragrant liquid body cleanser and poured some into her hand. Turning back to him, she spread the liquid into the thick bed of dark hair on his chest. She worked the foamy liquid along his shoulders and down across his ribs. Moving closer, she brought her body flush with his and rubbed her sensitive breasts against his chest, enjoying the feel of rough hair as she moved her hands to his back and down over the curve of his muscled buttocks to skim the back of his upper thighs. The heat of his body penetrated the cool water that streamed down their bodies. Without touching his khout she progressed