a sigh.
“I assumed. I didn’t know for sure.” I gasp when I see a kid about two years old walking by the door, the spitting image of Matt, and I know who it is.
“I need to sit down, now,” I tell Sam and the old man that let us in pulls up a chair.
“Who is this Sam?” Declan asks. Kate is still beautiful but I can tell she’s lost weight, something she didn’t need to do. I need to get out of here.
The old man grabs my shoulder and leans down. “It’s alright. Just take a deep breath. You’re in shock son, but we ain’t gonna bite ya.” I breathe in and out and then meet Sam’s eyes, and she winces. Yeah, she knows what to expect when we get in that car. I look up when I hear someone say my name.
“Carter?” Kate walks up and stares, waiting for me to say something, but I can’t look at her.
“Jameson.” I hear Sam behind me and finally I look up. This shit cannot be happening, not twice in a week. I have avoided this for a year and I am not ready for this, especially not with Jackson’s family here. They are the one family whose kid should have been saved.
“I, I need to go,” I say and rush for the door but Kate comes after me. Why does it have to be Kate of all people?
“Carter!” she yells at me and I stop and turn to face her. She walks right up to me and jabs her finger into my chest. Damn, no wonder Matt liked her. “You wait a god damned minute . Why haven’t you returned my calls? We needed you; we were a family! YOU were his family! But you disappeared . The last I had heard was that you were in the hospital.” She’s still poking me and I let her, the pain is a welcome distraction from knowing that Sam has betrayed me. She led me into the lion’s den. I thought she didn’t make deals with the devil. She was right because you can’t make deals with yourself.
“Jameson Carter! Are you even listening to me?” Kate slaps my face and I growl.
“Damn it Kate!” I let out a sigh and she breaks down.
“I lost him, and then you, too. Blake couldn’t find you, Mary-Beth said you broke up and didn’t much like her anymore. I know we only met at basic but damn it Jameson, you were like a brother to all of us. ” I look at Kate and I grab her and pull her to me.
“I’m sorry Kate, I just,” I stop myself and take a shaky breath and continue. “I couldn’t look at you because I let you down. He should be here with you today, not me.” She looks up at me and sniffles as she holds my arms .
“Jameson, God took him yes, but I was given something great. I see him every day in Matthew; I still have a piece of him. You, well God knew you needed to help out sweet Sam. Or at least I assume that’s why you’re here. ” She puts her hand on my cheek and smiles.
“You were left because your time wasn’t destined to be up. Now don’t be mad at her for making you face your fears, because she’s facing hers today, too.” She kisses my cheek and turns to walk back into the house. “And, Jameson?” She turns to face me and I raise an eyebrow. “You’re still on my shit list. Your ass had better not go off the grid again.” She walks into the house, and out walks Sam.
She sits down on the step of the front porch and looks at her feet. “I knew if I told you, you wouldn’t come. Jameson, I know I was selfish, but dammit I needed you with me. I wouldn’t have been able to come here, and I should have told you beforehand but I just couldn’t risk you not coming. We both needed this, and here we are.” I walk over and sit down beside her. I smile because I know she’s right; we did both need this and I am grateful she led me here.
“I am so pissed at you, and you’re going to get yelled at a lot on that four hour drive back home, but you’re right I needed this. Now let’s go Devil.” I smirk and she looks at me questioningly and then laughs herself. That’s one more thing I love about Samantha ; she always
“I assumed. I didn’t know for sure.” I gasp when I see a kid about two years old walking by the door, the spitting image of Matt, and I know who it is.
“I need to sit down, now,” I tell Sam and the old man that let us in pulls up a chair.
“Who is this Sam?” Declan asks. Kate is still beautiful but I can tell she’s lost weight, something she didn’t need to do. I need to get out of here.
The old man grabs my shoulder and leans down. “It’s alright. Just take a deep breath. You’re in shock son, but we ain’t gonna bite ya.” I breathe in and out and then meet Sam’s eyes, and she winces. Yeah, she knows what to expect when we get in that car. I look up when I hear someone say my name.
“Carter?” Kate walks up and stares, waiting for me to say something, but I can’t look at her.
“Jameson.” I hear Sam behind me and finally I look up. This shit cannot be happening, not twice in a week. I have avoided this for a year and I am not ready for this, especially not with Jackson’s family here. They are the one family whose kid should have been saved.
“I, I need to go,” I say and rush for the door but Kate comes after me. Why does it have to be Kate of all people?
“Carter!” she yells at me and I stop and turn to face her. She walks right up to me and jabs her finger into my chest. Damn, no wonder Matt liked her. “You wait a god damned minute . Why haven’t you returned my calls? We needed you; we were a family! YOU were his family! But you disappeared . The last I had heard was that you were in the hospital.” She’s still poking me and I let her, the pain is a welcome distraction from knowing that Sam has betrayed me. She led me into the lion’s den. I thought she didn’t make deals with the devil. She was right because you can’t make deals with yourself.
“Jameson Carter! Are you even listening to me?” Kate slaps my face and I growl.
“Damn it Kate!” I let out a sigh and she breaks down.
“I lost him, and then you, too. Blake couldn’t find you, Mary-Beth said you broke up and didn’t much like her anymore. I know we only met at basic but damn it Jameson, you were like a brother to all of us. ” I look at Kate and I grab her and pull her to me.
“I’m sorry Kate, I just,” I stop myself and take a shaky breath and continue. “I couldn’t look at you because I let you down. He should be here with you today, not me.” She looks up at me and sniffles as she holds my arms .
“Jameson, God took him yes, but I was given something great. I see him every day in Matthew; I still have a piece of him. You, well God knew you needed to help out sweet Sam. Or at least I assume that’s why you’re here. ” She puts her hand on my cheek and smiles.
“You were left because your time wasn’t destined to be up. Now don’t be mad at her for making you face your fears, because she’s facing hers today, too.” She kisses my cheek and turns to walk back into the house. “And, Jameson?” She turns to face me and I raise an eyebrow. “You’re still on my shit list. Your ass had better not go off the grid again.” She walks into the house, and out walks Sam.
She sits down on the step of the front porch and looks at her feet. “I knew if I told you, you wouldn’t come. Jameson, I know I was selfish, but dammit I needed you with me. I wouldn’t have been able to come here, and I should have told you beforehand but I just couldn’t risk you not coming. We both needed this, and here we are.” I walk over and sit down beside her. I smile because I know she’s right; we did both need this and I am grateful she led me here.
“I am so pissed at you, and you’re going to get yelled at a lot on that four hour drive back home, but you’re right I needed this. Now let’s go Devil.” I smirk and she looks at me questioningly and then laughs herself. That’s one more thing I love about Samantha ; she always
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