Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison

So like that fellow, I stayed, I had to fight it on out to the end. He mighta died, but I suspects now that he got a heapa satisfaction before he went. I
know
there ain’t nothin’ like what I went through, I caint tell how it was. It’s like when a real drinkin’ man gits drunk, or like when a real sanctified religious woman gits so worked up she jumps outta her clothes, or when a real gamblin’ man keeps on gamblin’ when he’s losin’. You got holt to it and you caint let go even though you want to.”
    “Mr. Norton, sir,” I said in a choked voice, “it’s time we were getting back to the campus. You’ll miss your appointments …”
    He didn’t even look at me. “
Please,
” he said, waving his hand in annoyance.
    Trueblood seemed to smile at me behind his eyes as he looked from the white man to me and continued.
    “I couldn’t even let go when I heard Kate scream. It was a scream to make your blood run cold. It sounds like a woman who was watchin’ a team of wild horses run down her baby chile and she caint move. Kate’s hair is standin’ up like she done seen a ghost, her gown is hanging open and the veins in her neck is ’bout to bust. And her eyes! Lawd, them eyes. I’m lookin’ up at her from where I’m layin’ on the pallet with Matty Lou, and I’m too weak to move. She screams and starts to pickin’ up the first thing that comes to her hand and throwin’ it. Some of them misses me and some of them hits me. Little things and big things. Somethin’ cold and strong-stinkin’ hits me and wets me and bangs against my head. Somethin’ hits the wall—boom-a-loom-a-loom!—like a cannon ball, and I tries to cover up my head. Kate’s talkin’ the unknown tongue, like a wild woman.
    “ ‘Wait a minit, Kate,’ I says. ‘Stop it!’
    “Then I hears her stop a second and I hears her runnin’ across the floor, and I twists and looks and Lawd, she done got my double-barrel shotgun!
    “And while she’s foamin’ at the mouth and cockin’ the gun, she gits her speech.
    “ ‘Git up! Git up!’ she says.
    “ ‘HEY! NAW! KATE!’ I says.
    “ ‘Goddam yo’ soul to hell! Git up offa my chile!’
    “ ‘But woman, Kate, lissen …’
    “ ‘Don’t talk, MOVE!’
    “ ‘Down that thing, Kate!’
    “ ‘No down, UP!’
    “ ‘That there’s buckshot, woman, BUCKshot!’
    “ ‘Yes, it is!’
    “ ‘Down it, I say!’
    “ ‘I’m gon blast your soul to hell!’
    “ ‘You gon hit Matty Lou!’
    “ ‘Not Matty Lou—YOU!’
    “ ‘It spreads, Kate. Matty Lou!’
    “She moves around, aimin’ at me.
    “ ‘I done warn you, Jim …’
    “ ‘Kate, it was a dream. Lissen to me …’
    “ ‘You the one who lissen—UP FROM THERE!’
    “She jerks the gun and I shuts my eyes. But insteada thunder and lightin’ bustin’ me, I hears Matty Lou scream in my ear,
    “ ‘Mamma! Oooooo, MAMA!’
    “I rolls almost over then and Kate hesitates. She looks at the gun, and she looks at us, and she shivers a minit like she got the fever. Then all at once she drops the gun, and ZIP! quick as a cat, she turns and grabs somethin’ off the stove. It catches me like somebody diggin’ into my side with a sharp spade. I caint breathe. She’s throwin’ and talkin’ all at the same time.
    “And when I looks up, Maan, Maaan! she’s got a iron in her hand!
    “I hollers, ‘No blood, Kate. Don’t spill no blood!’
    “ ‘You low-down dog,’ she says, ‘it’s better to spill than to foul!’
    “ ‘Naw, Kate. Things ain’t what they ’pear! Don’t make no blood-sin on accounta no dream-sin!’
    “ ‘Shut up, nigguh. You done
fouled!’
    “But I sees there ain’t no use reasonin’ with her then. I makes up my mind that I’m goin’ to take whatever she gimme. It seems to me that all I can do is take my punishment. I tell myself, Maybe if you suffer for it, it will be best. Maybe you owe it to Kate to let her beat you. You ain’t guilty, but she thinks you is. You don’t want