like I was, but then the more attention he gave her, the more into him she became. I used to ask her questions about him all the time, living vicariously through her and I used to think it was the closest I’d ever be to him.
Sometimes I wonder if she started dating him because she did really like him or because she knew I did and wanted to bug me. She knew what she was getting herself into when she started going out with him, she knew that the consequences would be brutal, that people would get hurt and a war would start, but she couldn’t predict being abused and murdered. She lost her life because she couldn’t stay away from him. Shit! I’m doing the same thing, I groan, frustrated with myself.
Gabe stirs next to me and rolls us over. I rest my head on his chest, hoping sleep will claim me soon. I need to stop over thinking this.
I feel like history is repeating itself. Annie and Gabe should never have been together but they couldn’t stay away and she paid the price. Gabe and I can’t seem to stay away from each other either, if the Kings find out will we have the same problems, will there be a war between the clubs? Are we signing our own death warrants?
CHAPTER 10
Gabe
I wake up with a smile on my face, it’s an odd feeling, I haven’t woken up smiling in such a long fucking time.
I kiss the top of Viv’s head who’s still fast asleep on top of me, her head resting on my chest, her right hand lying over my heart. It feels so fucking good to have her in my arms, finally.
We’ve both come a long way.
We should have been damaged beyond repair after that night, but we’ve made it, surely it can only get better from now on? I know I’ll have to constantly reassure her that it’s her that I want to be with, not an Annie replica.
Annie…
I still can’t believe that we slept together, I never intended for it to happen that night, but the more time I spent with her, the more I wanted her.
I know it’s sick, I loved her sister and now I’m fucking her. I feel like a new man when I’m around Viv. She’s the light to my darkness. No matter how shitty my day has been, she always brings a smile to my face. She was the missing piece to my happiness and I finally have her with me. She doesn’t give a damn that I’m a biker, which is a huge change for me, when you’re biker women throw themselves at your feet wanting the danger and adrenalin. I never minded, hell I was pretty fucking happy about it, easy fucks on tap, what kind of men would turn that down?
The most fucked up thing is that I knew Viv had feelings for me back then and if I’m being completely honest, it’s Viv that I’ve always wanted. Those eyes, those lips, those curves…
I’m aware that makes me a total dick, initially I dated Annie because I thought Viv didn’t feel anything for me and blamed me for Jared’s treatment of her, which only got more brutal and cruel after that night. It wasn’t long after I started seeing Annie that I found out Viv reciprocated my feelings but I was stuck. I couldn’t just end things with Annie and go to Viv telling her that it was her that I had loved all along. Annie had quickly fallen in love with me and I couldn’t stomach the thought of breaking her heart, Viv never would have wanted me after I broke her sister’s heart.
Selfishly I stayed with Annie. If I couldn’t have Viv, then I’d have Annie, she was the closest I could get to Viv. Maybe if I’d had the balls to end things with Annie and forgot about those two amazing women, Annie would still be alive. I never should have pursued Annie, it was a big fucking mistake that I’m still paying for. But at the same time, I don’t regret any of it because I was still kinda with Viv.
I disgust myself, but I don’t plan on stopping whatever it is that Viv and I have. Call me a fucking asshole, I don’t care, I have loved that woman for the past twelve years and I am not punishing myself any longer. I might not be showing it
Sometimes I wonder if she started dating him because she did really like him or because she knew I did and wanted to bug me. She knew what she was getting herself into when she started going out with him, she knew that the consequences would be brutal, that people would get hurt and a war would start, but she couldn’t predict being abused and murdered. She lost her life because she couldn’t stay away from him. Shit! I’m doing the same thing, I groan, frustrated with myself.
Gabe stirs next to me and rolls us over. I rest my head on his chest, hoping sleep will claim me soon. I need to stop over thinking this.
I feel like history is repeating itself. Annie and Gabe should never have been together but they couldn’t stay away and she paid the price. Gabe and I can’t seem to stay away from each other either, if the Kings find out will we have the same problems, will there be a war between the clubs? Are we signing our own death warrants?
CHAPTER 10
Gabe
I wake up with a smile on my face, it’s an odd feeling, I haven’t woken up smiling in such a long fucking time.
I kiss the top of Viv’s head who’s still fast asleep on top of me, her head resting on my chest, her right hand lying over my heart. It feels so fucking good to have her in my arms, finally.
We’ve both come a long way.
We should have been damaged beyond repair after that night, but we’ve made it, surely it can only get better from now on? I know I’ll have to constantly reassure her that it’s her that I want to be with, not an Annie replica.
Annie…
I still can’t believe that we slept together, I never intended for it to happen that night, but the more time I spent with her, the more I wanted her.
I know it’s sick, I loved her sister and now I’m fucking her. I feel like a new man when I’m around Viv. She’s the light to my darkness. No matter how shitty my day has been, she always brings a smile to my face. She was the missing piece to my happiness and I finally have her with me. She doesn’t give a damn that I’m a biker, which is a huge change for me, when you’re biker women throw themselves at your feet wanting the danger and adrenalin. I never minded, hell I was pretty fucking happy about it, easy fucks on tap, what kind of men would turn that down?
The most fucked up thing is that I knew Viv had feelings for me back then and if I’m being completely honest, it’s Viv that I’ve always wanted. Those eyes, those lips, those curves…
I’m aware that makes me a total dick, initially I dated Annie because I thought Viv didn’t feel anything for me and blamed me for Jared’s treatment of her, which only got more brutal and cruel after that night. It wasn’t long after I started seeing Annie that I found out Viv reciprocated my feelings but I was stuck. I couldn’t just end things with Annie and go to Viv telling her that it was her that I had loved all along. Annie had quickly fallen in love with me and I couldn’t stomach the thought of breaking her heart, Viv never would have wanted me after I broke her sister’s heart.
Selfishly I stayed with Annie. If I couldn’t have Viv, then I’d have Annie, she was the closest I could get to Viv. Maybe if I’d had the balls to end things with Annie and forgot about those two amazing women, Annie would still be alive. I never should have pursued Annie, it was a big fucking mistake that I’m still paying for. But at the same time, I don’t regret any of it because I was still kinda with Viv.
I disgust myself, but I don’t plan on stopping whatever it is that Viv and I have. Call me a fucking asshole, I don’t care, I have loved that woman for the past twelve years and I am not punishing myself any longer. I might not be showing it
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