suppose he doesn’t want to see me leave. I don’t like
goodbyes either, Conor. Holding my dress up, I run into the forest, towards my
way back home. Or what I thought was home.
Chapter 12
Halfway through
the woods I collapse on my knees. My palms cover my face and I weep with fervid
sobs that convulse my whole being. No matter how much I cry, my pain can’t be
released. It’s consuming me.
I feel lost
without him. Where do I go? How can I resume my past life when I am not the
same person anymore? I did find what I was looking for and now I lost it for
good. How will I survive this pain? I am sure I won’t. How can I possibly go
on?
When I was a
little girl, the Mayor’s daughter died mysteriously. They said she was swept
away by the town’s river. However, I heard my parents whisper something about
her fiancé, who abandoned her and got engaged to another woman. I was
always prone to eavesdropping, but back then I didn’t understand what all this
meant. Now, I do. She committed suicide because she couldn’t stand living
without the man she loved.
I sob even
harder at the thought of killing myself. No. I can’t do it. My poor parents
lost me once. I can’t put them through such a torment all over again.
Abandoning them without an excuse was cruel enough. They don’t deserve such a
treatment. No parents do. They have been more than kind to me. They have
offered me everything I could ever want and I am pretty sure they would have
eventually respected my wish not to get married.
You have to
find courage, Calista. Do it for your parents.
Yes, but not now. Now, I just need to cry till my eyes bleed.
I cry so hard
that I am astonished when his arms envelop my body. I didn’t hear him
approaching. He has knelt behind me and yanks me close to him, kissing my
shoulder fervently.
“Don’t go!” he
says in a desperate tone, “I love you. I am being the most selfish man in the
world right now, but I need you, Calista. Please, stay. I will never hurt you.
I love you too much to harm you.”
I hug my body,
holding his arms firmly and turn my head backwards to meet his face.
“Conor…”
He kisses the
back of my neck, my cheek and then compels my head back, to kiss me avidly on
my lips. Oh, I have missed him so much.
“Will you stay?”
he asks.
“Of course, my
Lord.”
He lowers my
dress down my shoulders and continues his kissing path to my spine, sending me
to the stars.
“You just made
me the happiest man on the planet. Aren’t you afraid of me?”
“No, my Lord. I
trust you.”
I exhale a moan
as he keeps on kissing me. The pleasure makes it difficult for me to keep my
eyes open.
“I know you are
a good and caring man, even if you have been tough with me,” I go on panting,
“You have led me to places no one else would ever dare to show me.”
“Is that enough
for you, my baby? You are a lady…You deserve so much more than me. Than living
in a hut.”
“Conor, do you
think I care about where I live? Just as long as I am with you.”
“I knew it from
the first time I saw you, dancing like a nymph of the forest, that you were
different. You took my breath away. All the other girls were willing to learn
just like you, but no one could love me. They couldn’t abandon their wealth,
their servants and their diamonds for a guy like me.”
“It’s their loss
and my gain. So…you liked me from the beginning?”
“Oh, if you only
knew…When you escaped that morning, I was wretched to lose you. And I really
wanted to make you suffer for abandoning me. But you obeyed to everything, no
matter how degrading it was. And that only made my love for you grow stronger.
I still hate myself for tasting your blood and raping you. I wanted you to
leave, in order to protect you from my beastly side.”
“And I thought
you were distant because you were bored by me…”
“Calista, what
can I do to prove to you that I want you? That I belong to you just as much as
you belong to me?”
“Kiss
goodbyes either, Conor. Holding my dress up, I run into the forest, towards my
way back home. Or what I thought was home.
Chapter 12
Halfway through
the woods I collapse on my knees. My palms cover my face and I weep with fervid
sobs that convulse my whole being. No matter how much I cry, my pain can’t be
released. It’s consuming me.
I feel lost
without him. Where do I go? How can I resume my past life when I am not the
same person anymore? I did find what I was looking for and now I lost it for
good. How will I survive this pain? I am sure I won’t. How can I possibly go
on?
When I was a
little girl, the Mayor’s daughter died mysteriously. They said she was swept
away by the town’s river. However, I heard my parents whisper something about
her fiancé, who abandoned her and got engaged to another woman. I was
always prone to eavesdropping, but back then I didn’t understand what all this
meant. Now, I do. She committed suicide because she couldn’t stand living
without the man she loved.
I sob even
harder at the thought of killing myself. No. I can’t do it. My poor parents
lost me once. I can’t put them through such a torment all over again.
Abandoning them without an excuse was cruel enough. They don’t deserve such a
treatment. No parents do. They have been more than kind to me. They have
offered me everything I could ever want and I am pretty sure they would have
eventually respected my wish not to get married.
You have to
find courage, Calista. Do it for your parents.
Yes, but not now. Now, I just need to cry till my eyes bleed.
I cry so hard
that I am astonished when his arms envelop my body. I didn’t hear him
approaching. He has knelt behind me and yanks me close to him, kissing my
shoulder fervently.
“Don’t go!” he
says in a desperate tone, “I love you. I am being the most selfish man in the
world right now, but I need you, Calista. Please, stay. I will never hurt you.
I love you too much to harm you.”
I hug my body,
holding his arms firmly and turn my head backwards to meet his face.
“Conor…”
He kisses the
back of my neck, my cheek and then compels my head back, to kiss me avidly on
my lips. Oh, I have missed him so much.
“Will you stay?”
he asks.
“Of course, my
Lord.”
He lowers my
dress down my shoulders and continues his kissing path to my spine, sending me
to the stars.
“You just made
me the happiest man on the planet. Aren’t you afraid of me?”
“No, my Lord. I
trust you.”
I exhale a moan
as he keeps on kissing me. The pleasure makes it difficult for me to keep my
eyes open.
“I know you are
a good and caring man, even if you have been tough with me,” I go on panting,
“You have led me to places no one else would ever dare to show me.”
“Is that enough
for you, my baby? You are a lady…You deserve so much more than me. Than living
in a hut.”
“Conor, do you
think I care about where I live? Just as long as I am with you.”
“I knew it from
the first time I saw you, dancing like a nymph of the forest, that you were
different. You took my breath away. All the other girls were willing to learn
just like you, but no one could love me. They couldn’t abandon their wealth,
their servants and their diamonds for a guy like me.”
“It’s their loss
and my gain. So…you liked me from the beginning?”
“Oh, if you only
knew…When you escaped that morning, I was wretched to lose you. And I really
wanted to make you suffer for abandoning me. But you obeyed to everything, no
matter how degrading it was. And that only made my love for you grow stronger.
I still hate myself for tasting your blood and raping you. I wanted you to
leave, in order to protect you from my beastly side.”
“And I thought
you were distant because you were bored by me…”
“Calista, what
can I do to prove to you that I want you? That I belong to you just as much as
you belong to me?”
“Kiss
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