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I don’t think it is possible to be close friends with a guy, especially when he has a girlfriend. Someone always gets hurt and most of the times that someone is you. You probably think I am cynical now but I know it is true because I have made this experience myself. Maybe I should tell you the whole story from the beginning because it will be easier for you to understand how this realisation suddenly dawned on me. I think the best way to start is by telling you who I am.
My name is Mary-Ann Maloni and I am 24 years old. I know exactly what you are thinking now. Who has such a stupid name? I blame my parents for it since I’m five and you’re welcome to blame them too but now back to my story. I grew up as an only child and I guess my parents spoiled me a lot but that’s probably normal for parents with only one daughter. I was their princess, their most important thing in the world. My childhood was great and I loved every minute of it but it was always hard for me to find friends.
I really don’t know why it was like this but I often felt alone which was the reason why I started to read. Most of the times I was running around with a book in my hand and I even read while I was walking but back to not having many friends. Of course I had friends but it never felt like having the one best friend every girl should have. There were always other people who were closer to the persons whom I called friends. Maybe it was my fault but I didn’t know what to change and it made me sad from time to time. I finished school with good grades and started studying. There I met new people, found new friends but still it didn’t feel like I had found a friend with whom I could talk about everything. By now I was quite used to it, so I didn’t mind that much anymore. Anything was better than always being alone and doing everything on your own. When I got the chance to go abroad for a practical semester I grabbed the opportunity with both hands and was excited to get out of my familiar surroundings and see something new. Deep inside me I had the hope to find a true friend there. It was better than I had expected. I liked my work, I had nice co-workers and I was able to see a new city. It was summer and the weather was nice, so I was able to explore everything in my free time. Soon I met new people with whom I spent my time, had fun and was able to enjoy the summer. And then there was this guy. He was my supervisor at work and I really liked him. When I had questions he was always patient with me and it was great to work with him because I learned a lot. I discovered that we had a lot in common. We liked the same books or movies which always gave us something to talk about and I opened up to him. Opening up takes some time for me because I have to know the person quite well to do so which should tell you something about me liking him. We became friends and that was all I wanted. I guess, I had a secret crush on him but I never showed that because he had a girlfriend and I am not someone who breaks a relationship apart. Who could blame me? He was good looking, easy to talk to and funny at the same time but I knew that I couldn’t have him. That was alright for me because all I really wanted was a friend. We had a great time and I would say we still finished a lot of work. I told him things which I haven’t told anybody else and it was