cheat.â
âDonât worry about those things. As long as you keep your man happy at home, he will have no reason to stray. And who knows? Maybe one day you young ladies will find someone just as special as my booga bear!â
Booga bear? Who is she fooling with her sad eyes and fake-ass smile? This huzzy must think Iâm stupid. Please, I do believe Iâll take my red velvet cake to go.
On the way out, I tapped Roberta on the shoulder and wished her good luck.
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Ten minutes later, my cell phone rang. âHello?â
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing?â Roger said, blaring in my ear.
âFuck you, Roger!â
âIt wasnât what it looked like.â
âOh, no? Was I dreaming?â
âNo. She heard me making reservations and she thought that I made them for her and me! What was I going to say? I had to take her. I had no choice.â
âLook, this situation between us doesnât seem to be working out.â
âDonât be like that, Vera!â
âWhat did I just say?â
âLet me make it up to you.â
âHow is that?â
âManolo is having a sale.â
âShoes? You think you can make this up with shoes?â
âOkay, name it. What?â
âNothing! We are done! Get it? Good-bye!â
I was pissed off, confused, and I felt guilty as hell. The truth is, I only snuck my ass to lunch because I was trying to run away from my feelings for Taj, and I only ended up running closer to him, because seeing Roger with his wife only made me want Taj even more.
I didnât know why I was running. I just I felt like I wanted to place my emotions on an airplane and run away with them. And where was I running to? I didnât know, especially when all of my needs, wants, and desires pointed toward Taj. I found myself looking for Taj in everything that I did. If I bought something to eat, I got enough for the both of us. If I bought something to wear, I wondered what heâd think. If I heard something funny, I savored the humor, as if I was holding my breath, and then I exhaled when I saw him, hopped in his lap, and told him what the joke was, and he just looked at me.
Something in his eyes smiled when I sat on his lap and lay in his arms. I felt safe, the same way I used to feel when Uncle Boy would hold my hand or take me to the park. At the same time, it was different because I outgrew Uncle Boy holding me, but I never wanted to let Taj go. I really couldnât deal with this.
Just then the phone rang. It was Roger.
âVera,â Roger said, âdonât hang up, please. Iâm really sorry about the other day. Please let me make it up to you.â
âSpare me.â
âLook, I fucked up, but come on, baby, just one more chance, please.â
âJust this one time, Roger, but no more after this.â
Two seconds after I said that, the doorbell rang. Roger was standing on my stoop, as if he had been sitting in front of my house waiting for me to invite him in.
Roger tried to kiss me when he walked in the door and handed me five hundred dollars. I nicely pushed him away and gave the money back to him.
âIâm cool,â I said. âI donât want to be bothered with that anymore. Keep your money.â
âCome on, baby,â he said, running his hands across my breast.
âWould you get off of me?â I said, walking away and sitting on the couch.
âWhatâs the problem, Vera?â
âThereâs no problem. Iâm just not feeling you like that.â
âWhat?â
âYou heard me. You know what? Go home, Roger. Donât you have a wife and four kids? Go and see about them.â
âYou never worried about my wife and kids before.â
âWell, things change and people change. I donât want to be with you anymore. Iâm okay where Iâm at.â I stood up and he pushed me back down, trying to climb on top
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