rotates slowly, reluctantly. âBy the way, victory is victory. I end up on top, not the bottom.â
âOn top of what? The pile of heartbreak and suffering you leave in your wake?â
He opens his mouth, closes it with a snapâand falls.
I catch him, but heâs heavy, heavier than I expected. He keeps falling, taking me with him. We hit the ground and he laughs, then I laugh. We remain on the floor in a tangle of limbs.
âIâm beginning to think,â I say, âMight Equals Right should mean the strong are tasked with the protection of the weak, because the strong arenât always strong and the weak arenât always weak. Everyone stumbles. And one day, when you stumbleâand you willâyouâll need someone to help you stand. Will there be anyone eager to do so, or will there be a line of people hoping to kick you while youâre down?â
His amusement does a disappearing act. Abracadabra...gone! He glares at me. âIâm done with this topic.â
The words are thrown at me. The same words Iâve thrown at Bow every time sheâs hit a nerve; I know Iâve reached him, whether heâs willing to admit it or not.
âOkay, Iâm going to break my own rule and discuss the realms.â I stretch out over the floor, more comfortable with him than I should be. And I canât blame the alcohol. Stupid game! Killian caught me when he could have let me fall. âWhat made you side with Myriad?â
He leans back on his elbows, watching me warily. âThere are too many reasons to list in a single evening.â
âGive me the highlights, then.â When he shakes his head, I say, âThe top ten? Top two?â
âWhy bother? My reasons wonât affect your decision.â
âSo? Tell me anyway. Iâm curious.â What remains unsaid: about you.
He gaze heats, as if he heard what I didnât speak. âOne. Iâm more at ease in the dark. Two, Troika claims soul-fusion is a lie, but I know itâs real.â
Excitement turns the wine Iâve ingested into champagneâor what I imagine is champagneâthe potent brew suddenly bubbling and effervescent in my veins. âYou have concrete proof? Even though no other spirits have seen it happen and, from what I gather, the only way the people in Myriad know whoâs Fused with whom is through guesstimates, matching the deaths in the realms with the births here.â
âI donât have to see to believe. Iâm sometimes pulled in two different directions.â
I wait for him to say more. He doesnât, and my excitement fizzles.
Treading carefully, remembering his mother, I say, âIâm often pulled in two different directions, but that doesnât necessarily mean Iâm Fused. It means Iâm divided, the potential for good and evil running through my heart.â
He scowls at me. âSomeone who refuses to see the truth will accept the lie.â
Well. Thatâs kind of deep for a boy who presented himself as a shallow he-slut. Also, itâs kind of true. âSomeone who accepts the lie will never see the truth.â
âI have to be Fused. My mother has to be Fused.â His accent is thicker. â That is the truth.â
Poor boy, I think again. Heâs holding on to his hope with everything heâs got. âI hope youâre right,â I say and I mean it.
He nudges my hip with his foot. âHalf the things that come out of your mouth make me want to punch a wall, and the other half make me want to kiss you...and only sometimes to shut you up.â
I reel. He wants to kiss me? âI gather you donât like someone mucking around in your head.â
âIs that what youâre doing?â
âNot intentionally. Maybe.â His pretty eyelashes throw shadows over his cheeks, but the flicker of candlelight spilling from the table continually chases the darkness away with beams of