Germany I hadn’t seen you in 5 years. Five fucking years Jaxson! I got short phone calls, but that’s it. Then I spend almost all of my savings to come see you and you refuse me. I went through a lot to be there for you, it’s not like you were just in the next state!”
Some of the hardness leaves his expression: “I’ll pay you back for…”
“I don’t want your fucking money! This isn’t about money!” I scream at him finding it harder every second to hold on to my control. I take a deep breath and say the one thing that hurt me the most, “When I got that phone call from Kayla, saying you were hurt, my whole world stopped because nothing mattered to me more than you. Even after you stayed away from me for so long you still mattered to me. Do you have any idea what that did to me when you made Cooper get rid of me? It was a shitty way to find out I didn’t mean anything to you anymore,” my voice cracks and I will myself not to cry. I swore a year ago I would never shed another tear over him again.
“Fuck Julia!” his voice is rough as he starts towards me but I put my hand up, stopping him. I know if I let him touch me I’ll give in and I can’t.
Then I ask the one question that will make or break this conversation: “Are you sorry at all? Do you regret it?”
He runs his fingers through his hair roughly and my heart clenches with pain at his tortured expression.
Stay strong Julia.
“I’m sorry I hurt you Jules, more than you will ever know. But I don’t regret my decision to send you away.”
I guess I’m not surprised by his answer, but it still hurts. Looking down at the floor I shake my head sadly, “Then we have nothing more to say to each other.”
“Goddamn it! Would you try to understand? I didn’t want anyone to see me like that.”
“Even me!?” I yell hurtfully.
“Especially you! How can you not fucking understand that!?”
We stare at each other in silence while hurt and anger swirl between us, then before I can say anything else my front door opens and I hear Kayla yell in a panic: “Julia where are you?”
“In the kitchen,” I call out quietly, still staring at Jaxson.
“Jules you’re never going to fucking believe who’s ba…” Kayla stops short, her gaze moving from me to Jaxson. “Uh never mind, I guess you know.”
I look over at her and nod.
Then she narrows her gaze at Jaxson. “Everything ok in here Julia?”
Jaxson glares over at her in annoyance, “Everything is fine Kayla.”
“I wasn’t asking you, I was asking Julia,” she bites out.
I have to say Kayla can be pretty intimidating when she wants to be. Of course not to Jaxson, but I don’t think anyone intimidates him.
“I’m okay,” I say softly, trying to reassure her.
“Are you sure? Because I’ll fuck him up if you need me to,” Kayla says, completely serious.
Jaxson grunts at this like it’s ridiculous.
“What you don’t think I can? I’ll have you know Coops been showing me some stuff. So I’d watch yourself buddy.”
I try to suppress my smile, “Really Kayla, everything is ok, but you’ll be the first to know if I change my mind.”
Kayla takes a step back then looks me over. When she smirks, I know immediately she’s up to something.
“Looking good Jules, you ready for your hot date?”
My heart speeds up knowing what she’s trying to pull. I glance at Jaxson and see his eyes narrowed at me. Crap! I don’t need this right now. If he finds out who I’m going out with tonight then things are going to get way more ugly than they already are.
Hoping they both get the hint I say, “I will be once you guys leave.”
Kayla walks over and hugs me, “Of course, I’m out of here. Don’t come home early, if you know what I mean,” she winks at me and I feel myself turn red.
Then she looks over at Jaxson smugly: “See ya around Jaxson.”
He doesn’t acknowledge her, he just continues to stare at me.
Kayla leaves chuckling, looking proud of
Some of the hardness leaves his expression: “I’ll pay you back for…”
“I don’t want your fucking money! This isn’t about money!” I scream at him finding it harder every second to hold on to my control. I take a deep breath and say the one thing that hurt me the most, “When I got that phone call from Kayla, saying you were hurt, my whole world stopped because nothing mattered to me more than you. Even after you stayed away from me for so long you still mattered to me. Do you have any idea what that did to me when you made Cooper get rid of me? It was a shitty way to find out I didn’t mean anything to you anymore,” my voice cracks and I will myself not to cry. I swore a year ago I would never shed another tear over him again.
“Fuck Julia!” his voice is rough as he starts towards me but I put my hand up, stopping him. I know if I let him touch me I’ll give in and I can’t.
Then I ask the one question that will make or break this conversation: “Are you sorry at all? Do you regret it?”
He runs his fingers through his hair roughly and my heart clenches with pain at his tortured expression.
Stay strong Julia.
“I’m sorry I hurt you Jules, more than you will ever know. But I don’t regret my decision to send you away.”
I guess I’m not surprised by his answer, but it still hurts. Looking down at the floor I shake my head sadly, “Then we have nothing more to say to each other.”
“Goddamn it! Would you try to understand? I didn’t want anyone to see me like that.”
“Even me!?” I yell hurtfully.
“Especially you! How can you not fucking understand that!?”
We stare at each other in silence while hurt and anger swirl between us, then before I can say anything else my front door opens and I hear Kayla yell in a panic: “Julia where are you?”
“In the kitchen,” I call out quietly, still staring at Jaxson.
“Jules you’re never going to fucking believe who’s ba…” Kayla stops short, her gaze moving from me to Jaxson. “Uh never mind, I guess you know.”
I look over at her and nod.
Then she narrows her gaze at Jaxson. “Everything ok in here Julia?”
Jaxson glares over at her in annoyance, “Everything is fine Kayla.”
“I wasn’t asking you, I was asking Julia,” she bites out.
I have to say Kayla can be pretty intimidating when she wants to be. Of course not to Jaxson, but I don’t think anyone intimidates him.
“I’m okay,” I say softly, trying to reassure her.
“Are you sure? Because I’ll fuck him up if you need me to,” Kayla says, completely serious.
Jaxson grunts at this like it’s ridiculous.
“What you don’t think I can? I’ll have you know Coops been showing me some stuff. So I’d watch yourself buddy.”
I try to suppress my smile, “Really Kayla, everything is ok, but you’ll be the first to know if I change my mind.”
Kayla takes a step back then looks me over. When she smirks, I know immediately she’s up to something.
“Looking good Jules, you ready for your hot date?”
My heart speeds up knowing what she’s trying to pull. I glance at Jaxson and see his eyes narrowed at me. Crap! I don’t need this right now. If he finds out who I’m going out with tonight then things are going to get way more ugly than they already are.
Hoping they both get the hint I say, “I will be once you guys leave.”
Kayla walks over and hugs me, “Of course, I’m out of here. Don’t come home early, if you know what I mean,” she winks at me and I feel myself turn red.
Then she looks over at Jaxson smugly: “See ya around Jaxson.”
He doesn’t acknowledge her, he just continues to stare at me.
Kayla leaves chuckling, looking proud of
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