tackle.
The Manchester United boy holds out a hand to help him up.
Matt knocks it away.
His angry face makes me want to cry. Mrs Jarvis looks pretty upset too. Uncle Cliff looks bewildered.
âWhyâs he playing like this?â says Uncle Cliff. âMaybe heâs homesick. Have there been any signs? Has he been calling out the names of Australian TV shows in his sleep?â
I shake my head.
But in a way, I realise, Uncle Cliff is right.
Itâs not Aussie TV Mattâs missing. Itâs something even more important. The thing he had every day on our patch of waste ground at home. The thing he doesnât have here, not even when weâre winning threeâone.
The thing that makes soccer worth playing.
After the match the trainers and coaches are delighted, and Mattâs the player they make the most fuss of. I donât think itâs just because we won. I think they like the way he played.
When Matt comes over to us, heâs got a big grin.
âThey want me to play in the next match,â he says. âThey want us to stay longer in England. At least another week.â
For a moment I donât know what to say.
Then I throw my arms round Matt to share his joyfulness.
So does Mrs Jarvis.
I hug Uncle Cliff as well.
âRock ânâ roll,â says Uncle Cliff. âIâm over the moon about this.â
âActually, Cliff,â says Mrs Jarvis, âif you were over the moon, the atmospheric vacuum would make your brains come out your ears.â
But she lets him hug her as well.
Uncle Cliff is right. This is the moment when Mattâs family should rejoice with him.
But I canât get rid of a feeling deep in my guts. Something heavy and not-good. An out-of-control cattle truck type feeling.
I take a big breath and try to ignore it.
But I canât.
Because I know the awful truth.
If Matt keeps playing like this and makes it through to the first team, it wonât be his legs that are permanently damaged by top-level professional football in the first part of the twenty-first century.
Itâll be his gentle loving heart.
Itâs the middle of the night when I creep into Mattâs room.
I donât knock.
This is too important and too urgent.
Matt is curled up in bed. The pale light from the street lamp is coming in through the curtains. It makes him look dead.
The door squeaks.
Matt opens his eyes and peers at me, blinking.
âYou alright?â he says.
âIâve been thinking,â I say.
He pats the doona. I donât sit down. Some things you say better when youâre standing up.
âWe have to go home, Matt,â I say. âBefore itâs too late.â
Matt sits up, staring at me sleepily.
âBefore whatâs too late?â he says.
âEverything,â I say. âAll this.â
âWhat are you talking about?â he says.
âTop-level professional football in the first part of the twenty-first century,â I say. âWhat itâs doing to you. Itâs turning you into somebody else.â
Matt doesnât say anything.
For a few moments I think heâs going to agree with me.
Iâm wrong.
âItâs not doing anything to me,â he says. âFew bruises, thatâs all. No problem, Iâve got reinforced legs, remember? Anyway, what was it Uncle Cliff said that time he hurt his back trying to walk like Mick Jagger? No pain, no gain.â
âLetâs go home, Matt,â I say. âJust come home and be with me and Mum and Dad.â
âThatâs stupid, Bridie,â he says. âIâm doing this for them. And you. For all of us.â
âDo you want to end up like Gazz?â I say.
Matt frowns.
Before I can tell him all the reasons I donât want him to end up like Gazz, he jumps out of bed and glares at me.
âYes, I do,â he says. âGazzâs parents live in a six-bedroom circular house with a
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