all.
Thomasâs truck shudders over sixty-five. Mads arrives at the Bellarosesâ, sweaty and out of breath. Suzanne basically shoves poor Ivy into her arms and then takes off, tires screaming. Suzanne always speaks through objects. Tires and doors and Ivy.
âItâs good to see you. It is so, so good to see you.â Mads says this to Ivy, but in her mindâs eye, she is also saying it to Billy Youngwolf Floyd, the moment he runs up to Thomasâs truck, the moment he speaks four words she never knew were magic: Is it the battery?
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âYou can just go out with him and see what happens. Having a date doesnât mean youâre marrying him. You can take it slow.â Mads sits on the edge of the bed in her room at Claire and Thomasâs house. Itâs their former office/spare room, where they put in a twin bed for her. Thereâs a big oak desk, too, and on it, a picture of Claire, Thomas, and Harrison standing near a fountain. AlsoâHarrisonâs first-grade school photo in a frame. In it, he looks serious and responsible, like heâs about to come fix the air-conditioning unit in the apartment complex.
âHeâs so short, heâs up to my eyebrows! His wife cheated on him. Thatâs why heâs divorced. He wanted to stay married. Heâs not the type to just up and leave, like some people we know.â
Mads likes that room, but right then, listening to her mother on the phone, she feels as if sheâs somewhere else. In a lake, where water-words are drowning her. In a desert, where her motherâs voice rolls over her like waves of heat as she slowly melts.
âGood, then,â Mads says.
âWell, Iâm in no hurry to be with a man. I like things the way they are, with you and me. Us girls. Boys just bring complications.â
I like complications , Mads thinks.
Thereâs a rap on the door, and Claire pokes her head in. âDinner,â she mouths.
âGotta go, Mom.â
âWe barely got to talk.â
âDinnerâs ready.â
âYou hardly have five minutes for me anymore.â
Madsâs chest squeezes with the bad/ungrateful/guilty feeling. She can be so selfish, she thinks. Selfish = bad person. She should be more generous. Even this guy, Jim Beam, will be gone soon enough. She knows this. Her mom will pick at him; she will jab and belittle. One day, heâll strike back, because he doesnât understand the rules, how youâre supposed to keep the waters calm, and then it will be over. Everyone leaves Catherine Jaynes Murray, which means Mads never can.
On the other end of the phone, their home sounds empty and abandoned. Of course, Mads worries about abandoned . Sheâs seen what itâs done before. It turns her mom into all of the fairy-tale characters at onceâthe small, scared Gretel lost in the woods, and the angry, consuming witch with the oven and the house of candy. Sheâs a grown woman , Madsâs father would say, Claire would say, Thomas would say. But she isnât really. Mads understands that even the witch is just having a very large tantrum, even if itâs hard to say whatâs worse, the small and scared or the angry and consuming.
âWeâll talk tomorrow.â
âI wanted to tell you about a new listing I got.â
âClaireâs calling.â
âI think it can go for over four hundred. Itâs got a view. The sellerâs a bitch, though. You know what she said?â
âMom, Iâve got to go.â
Madsâs mom sighs. The wind whistles through the desert. âWell, Iâm off. I have work to do.â
âLove you.â
âI love you. I miss you so much. Weâll talk tomorrow.â
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âMads, you barely ate anything,â Claire says. She slides the casserole dish of vegetarian lasagna toward her. âThomas, give her another
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