cried as I pounded my fists against his chest.
Alan stood there stoically watching the tears flow from my eyes silently taking every blow I delivered against his chest. Finally wearing myself down, I collapsed into his embrace. He held on tight until my sobbing began to stop.
He looked over my head and spoke, “Don’t be surprised if those people over there come see if they need to help you. No, true to form they have turned their heads around ignoring us.”
“It’s just as well,” I cried. “I have no desire to explain all of this to strangers.”
I looked into his eyes and felt I was looking at a stranger. I tried to push away again but he kept a firm hold on me.
“Little girl, I want you to listen to me and that isn’t a request. Yes, I lied to you by omission and you can even make a good case against me that I stalked you. I am sorry! I should have told you when I first approached you who I was and why I came. I was afraid that you would reject me before you even gave me a chance. I was and am very attracted to you. Online you were like this amazing whirlwind of life, love, laughter, and passion and you weren’t afraid to show it. I had to meet that! I had to meet you! I did it the wrong way but my intentions were always honorable. I promise you, you were never a pity fuck. You are much more to me than that .” he explained.
For the longest time I just stared into his eyes looking, searching for the truth. Finally I ordered, “Don’t use your Dom voice on me. It isn’t Saturday yet .”
Alan smiled at me resting his head against my forehead. “Are we still on for Saturday? Are you still willing?”
I smirked at him teasing, “I haven’t decided yet. We still have one sex free day left!” I became serious as I continued to stare at his face. “I will promise you this. Don’t ever lie to me again whether it’s by omission or bold faced. My trust is a precious thing. Don’t fuck with it or you won’t get it back!”
“Never again, little girl! You have my word,” he promised. “Come on, let’s pack up and go straight to the cabin. I need to hold you in my arms if you’ll let me .”
I helped him pack up our picnic but never gave him an answer. I just wasn’t sure how I would feel once we were back at the cabins. Incredible hurt flooded my heart and mind at his omission but I was certain he meant everything he told me.
Alan straddled the bike revving the engine as I gingerly climbed up onto the passenger seat. I wasn’t sure what to do with my hands and arms since I wasn’t sure I wanted to wrap them around him. He was quiet as we left the roadside park making me feel a bit guilty. My thoughts kept going back and forth between forgiving him or stopping everything right now. The drive back would take over an hour so I would have some time to work it out in my mind. I was watching Alan in the mirror this time. I could tell by the stiff position of his mouth he knew he had screwed up. His face looked broken and I guessed his heart was too. I had grown very fond of him but he would have to accept the consequences of his mistake. The trip back went faster than I had hoped as we drove onto the road leading to the cabins. Letting me off at my cabin, I didn’t say a word; just smiled and went in.
I watched him throw his helmet through the door of his cabin. Since there was no reason to be angry with me, I guessed that he was angry with himself.
Chapter Eleven
I sat on the side of my bed thinking about what I was going to do. Should I tell Alan to leave or should I give him another chance. After all, he did tell me the truth and he didn’t have to do that. I would never have known Ryan Wolf was even connected to Alan. Alan could have easily closed Ryan’s account and no one would have known the difference. I had to give him points for that. I really liked him and enjoyed his company. We were good
Alan stood there stoically watching the tears flow from my eyes silently taking every blow I delivered against his chest. Finally wearing myself down, I collapsed into his embrace. He held on tight until my sobbing began to stop.
He looked over my head and spoke, “Don’t be surprised if those people over there come see if they need to help you. No, true to form they have turned their heads around ignoring us.”
“It’s just as well,” I cried. “I have no desire to explain all of this to strangers.”
I looked into his eyes and felt I was looking at a stranger. I tried to push away again but he kept a firm hold on me.
“Little girl, I want you to listen to me and that isn’t a request. Yes, I lied to you by omission and you can even make a good case against me that I stalked you. I am sorry! I should have told you when I first approached you who I was and why I came. I was afraid that you would reject me before you even gave me a chance. I was and am very attracted to you. Online you were like this amazing whirlwind of life, love, laughter, and passion and you weren’t afraid to show it. I had to meet that! I had to meet you! I did it the wrong way but my intentions were always honorable. I promise you, you were never a pity fuck. You are much more to me than that .” he explained.
For the longest time I just stared into his eyes looking, searching for the truth. Finally I ordered, “Don’t use your Dom voice on me. It isn’t Saturday yet .”
Alan smiled at me resting his head against my forehead. “Are we still on for Saturday? Are you still willing?”
I smirked at him teasing, “I haven’t decided yet. We still have one sex free day left!” I became serious as I continued to stare at his face. “I will promise you this. Don’t ever lie to me again whether it’s by omission or bold faced. My trust is a precious thing. Don’t fuck with it or you won’t get it back!”
“Never again, little girl! You have my word,” he promised. “Come on, let’s pack up and go straight to the cabin. I need to hold you in my arms if you’ll let me .”
I helped him pack up our picnic but never gave him an answer. I just wasn’t sure how I would feel once we were back at the cabins. Incredible hurt flooded my heart and mind at his omission but I was certain he meant everything he told me.
Alan straddled the bike revving the engine as I gingerly climbed up onto the passenger seat. I wasn’t sure what to do with my hands and arms since I wasn’t sure I wanted to wrap them around him. He was quiet as we left the roadside park making me feel a bit guilty. My thoughts kept going back and forth between forgiving him or stopping everything right now. The drive back would take over an hour so I would have some time to work it out in my mind. I was watching Alan in the mirror this time. I could tell by the stiff position of his mouth he knew he had screwed up. His face looked broken and I guessed his heart was too. I had grown very fond of him but he would have to accept the consequences of his mistake. The trip back went faster than I had hoped as we drove onto the road leading to the cabins. Letting me off at my cabin, I didn’t say a word; just smiled and went in.
I watched him throw his helmet through the door of his cabin. Since there was no reason to be angry with me, I guessed that he was angry with himself.
Chapter Eleven
I sat on the side of my bed thinking about what I was going to do. Should I tell Alan to leave or should I give him another chance. After all, he did tell me the truth and he didn’t have to do that. I would never have known Ryan Wolf was even connected to Alan. Alan could have easily closed Ryan’s account and no one would have known the difference. I had to give him points for that. I really liked him and enjoyed his company. We were good
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