stared at her for a moment. “What?”
“I’m sorry.” Tears started to bubble in her eyes. “I don’t want to lose you, Jared. I was just—emotional last night. I’m so sorry. I want you back. Please don’t go.”
I took a deep breath. “You mean it?”
She wiped a tear away. “Of course I do.”
I grabbed her and squeezed her to my chest. “Thank god.” I buried my face in her neck and let my tears leak. I was so happy that she came back to me. I was shaking.
“I’m sorry.”
“Just forget about it, Ellie.”
She rubbed her fingers through my hair then down my back. “That necklace just scared me, Jared. I’m really moving on. Sometimes I get cold feet. I feel like I’m betraying Tom.”
I pulled away and looked at her. “I’m sorry that I rushed you and tried too hard.”
“It wasn’t you, Jared.”
“Since we slept together, I assumed—”
“I know. I’m sorry.”
“Next time just ask for you r space. Don’t break up with me. It almost killed me, Elisa.”
“Please don’t say that.”
“Okay.”
“Jared, I’m so sorry.”
“You’re forgiven.” I kissed her forehead then guided her into my apartment. I moved her to the couch and just held her in my arms. We said nothing for a long time. I didn’t have anything to say. I was still in shock.
“Come home with me,” she whispered.
I looked at her. “You came here by yourself?”
She nodded.
“In the dark?”
“Yeah.”
“Why didn’t you just call me?”
“I didn’t want to do this over the phone.”
“You could have asked me to come over.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t do it again.” My voice came out cold.
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay,” I said. “Let me shower and I’ll take you back.”
“You’ll sleep with me, right?”
“Yeah, of course.”
“Okay.”
I showered and changed my clothes before we left.
“Does Ethan know?” I asked when we were in the cab.
She nodded.
“What did he say?”
“That I was just getting scared.”
“Yeah.”
“I’m really sorry for hurting you.”
I hate seeing Elisa in pain. She said she was sorry and I believed her. I grabbed her face and directed her gaze on me. “I forgive you, Elisa. Just forget about it. We’re okay.”
She stared at me for a long time. “Okay.”
When we arrived at the house, the kids were sitting in the living room with Ethan and Sadie. Ethan stared at us for a long moment.
Elisa grabbed my hand. “We’re going to go to bed early.”
Ethan nodded but said nothing.
We walked inside the bedroom and I removed my clothes. Since I hadn’t slept all night, I was exhausted. I stripped down to my boxers then lay in bed. Elisa removed her clothes then lay next to me, kissing my chest and neck. I wasn’t in the mood to fool around so I grabbed her and held her to my chest, just holding her tight. The smell of coconut wafted to my nostrils. I felt better having her next to me. I couldn’t live without her and I tried to forget about that short amount of time when I was forced to. She hurt me so deeply but I didn’t want her to know that. I just wanted to forget about that day. It started off so amazing. I planned to make her birthday perfect but it exploded in my face. When I said I forgave her, I meant it, but remnants of the pain were still there. They would be there for a long time.
12
I left early the next morning and went to the gym. I didn’t feel like spending the day with Elisa and she didn’t ask me to stay. She probably understood that I needed my space. I loved her more than anything and I wanted to be with her but the pain wouldn’t stop. My heart was throbbing.
After I finished my boxing class, I went back to my apartment and showered. I spent the Saturday afternoon lounging around the living room. I made lunch and watched television for a while. After I had some time alone, I was feeling better, not so upset. I wondered if I could see Elisa later. A new kid’s movie was playing at the
“I’m sorry.” Tears started to bubble in her eyes. “I don’t want to lose you, Jared. I was just—emotional last night. I’m so sorry. I want you back. Please don’t go.”
I took a deep breath. “You mean it?”
She wiped a tear away. “Of course I do.”
I grabbed her and squeezed her to my chest. “Thank god.” I buried my face in her neck and let my tears leak. I was so happy that she came back to me. I was shaking.
“I’m sorry.”
“Just forget about it, Ellie.”
She rubbed her fingers through my hair then down my back. “That necklace just scared me, Jared. I’m really moving on. Sometimes I get cold feet. I feel like I’m betraying Tom.”
I pulled away and looked at her. “I’m sorry that I rushed you and tried too hard.”
“It wasn’t you, Jared.”
“Since we slept together, I assumed—”
“I know. I’m sorry.”
“Next time just ask for you r space. Don’t break up with me. It almost killed me, Elisa.”
“Please don’t say that.”
“Okay.”
“Jared, I’m so sorry.”
“You’re forgiven.” I kissed her forehead then guided her into my apartment. I moved her to the couch and just held her in my arms. We said nothing for a long time. I didn’t have anything to say. I was still in shock.
“Come home with me,” she whispered.
I looked at her. “You came here by yourself?”
She nodded.
“In the dark?”
“Yeah.”
“Why didn’t you just call me?”
“I didn’t want to do this over the phone.”
“You could have asked me to come over.”
“I’m sorry.”
“Don’t do it again.” My voice came out cold.
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay,” I said. “Let me shower and I’ll take you back.”
“You’ll sleep with me, right?”
“Yeah, of course.”
“Okay.”
I showered and changed my clothes before we left.
“Does Ethan know?” I asked when we were in the cab.
She nodded.
“What did he say?”
“That I was just getting scared.”
“Yeah.”
“I’m really sorry for hurting you.”
I hate seeing Elisa in pain. She said she was sorry and I believed her. I grabbed her face and directed her gaze on me. “I forgive you, Elisa. Just forget about it. We’re okay.”
She stared at me for a long time. “Okay.”
When we arrived at the house, the kids were sitting in the living room with Ethan and Sadie. Ethan stared at us for a long moment.
Elisa grabbed my hand. “We’re going to go to bed early.”
Ethan nodded but said nothing.
We walked inside the bedroom and I removed my clothes. Since I hadn’t slept all night, I was exhausted. I stripped down to my boxers then lay in bed. Elisa removed her clothes then lay next to me, kissing my chest and neck. I wasn’t in the mood to fool around so I grabbed her and held her to my chest, just holding her tight. The smell of coconut wafted to my nostrils. I felt better having her next to me. I couldn’t live without her and I tried to forget about that short amount of time when I was forced to. She hurt me so deeply but I didn’t want her to know that. I just wanted to forget about that day. It started off so amazing. I planned to make her birthday perfect but it exploded in my face. When I said I forgave her, I meant it, but remnants of the pain were still there. They would be there for a long time.
12
I left early the next morning and went to the gym. I didn’t feel like spending the day with Elisa and she didn’t ask me to stay. She probably understood that I needed my space. I loved her more than anything and I wanted to be with her but the pain wouldn’t stop. My heart was throbbing.
After I finished my boxing class, I went back to my apartment and showered. I spent the Saturday afternoon lounging around the living room. I made lunch and watched television for a while. After I had some time alone, I was feeling better, not so upset. I wondered if I could see Elisa later. A new kid’s movie was playing at the
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