Elegy on Kinderklavier by Arna Bontemps Hemenway Page A

plate has thus far been stilled in that motionless nadir of its spring-loaded inverted arc of travel but, as Abrams’ foot helplessly begins its lift (the pressure of his weight on the contact plate lessening every microsecond), the charged metal surface is now rising, heading toward its kismet of electronal reunion.
    The alley’s stole of shadow moves again, Abrams thinks. The alley is attempting to shrug it off, it seems. The reverse inertia of what is about to happen is lightening the alley before him, it seems.
    IED is really a terrible term for the device, for what this device that is agent of Abrams’ fate really is. There’s nothing “improvised” about it, first of all. There’s nothing spontaneous, extemporaneous, or accomplished without preparation there in its careful circuitry, its repurposed materiel. “Explosive” is a little better, but also fails to capture the true quantum entanglement of possibility in this alley-deposited incendiary: that is, that it could fail to go off, could not be explosive at all, ultimately. It is a possibly explosive thing, a probable explosive. This is a relatively unforgivable lingual oversight given the defiance of experience—of life itself.
    â€œDevice,” though, is the telltale heart of the term. It marries in its etymology the essences of its Middle English, Old French, and Latin ancestors, pulling through the original sense of “desire” into “will” and even “last will,” and bringing the word to its dark end of signal with “means of division.” The IED is fate itself. Abrams was always moving toward it. It was created (he imagines some nameless scarred ghost of an insurgent bent over the basement table in perfect silence, with no morbid élan, even) for no other death than his. Time has existed in his life for no other purpose than to draw him through it, to guide him into this particular stride.
    What has he imagined he’d think of, in this moment? All that most indulgent memory of private beauty, the jetsam of his thirty years blinking in the sunlight of this planet.
    Abrams at twelve years old, on a trip to London, lost in the deserted financial district, when the clock hits noon exactly and suddenly the buildings burst with people, and he looks up, and all around him are men all wearing (thrilling, the coincidence) pastel shirts and ties, a shifting, towering forest of brightly-coloredthoraces, Abrams overwhelmed with pleasure. Also as a boy, his mother calling him ABCD, instead of Abrams, for no good reason. Approaching a county fair’s carnival from a far field, the loopy, maniac music of the rides, the rich smell of funnel cake, it all reaching him before he can see anything but a sort of macula of light on the horizon. When he is older, a tour guide’s funny voice echoing around his visit of Pompeii. The grassy mountaintop campus in Sewanee, Tennessee. The shirt (long-sleeved, striped with a Creamsicle orange color) that his first girlfriend kept on the first time he ever had sex. Going to a local café late at night after a different girl’s volleyball games and drinking overly rich hot chocolate while eating artisanal pizza and pretending to be in Paris, or Rome, talking to each other about all the great sites they pretended to have seen that day. But also, the only perfect date he’s ever been on, much later, in Athens. They’d had gyros (the woman’s hair still wet from the shower) at a small corner restaurant in a very quiet neighborhood square, the dark face of the church at the square’s other end somber and still. Then they’d gone to an anonymous building, gone up the stairs to the top of it, to a rooftop showing of a terribly dubbed American movie on a screen just beside which, in the near distance, was the Acropolis, set ablaze in the sunset. At the intermission, they’d both bought strawberry-and-ices, and sipped them silently