again. She was making me chase her down to the other end of the pool. She launched her shimmering body onto the side. âYou must make your own myth. Make a myth of yourself . Thatâs what I did.â
Later, wrapped in towels, we were sitting on loungers by the pool and drinking double Jamesonâs on ice because Steph said it reminded her of her New York days. I was telling her about Samuel and how he desperately wanted to be from Williamsburg. âWhy?â she groaned. âWhatâs interesting about self-regarding hipsters with nothing to say?â
I told her about Samuelâs fixation with The Little Mermaid .
She got excited. âRead a chapter called âThe Woman in Loveâ in The Second Sex by de Beauvoir. Have you read it?â
I shook my head.
âYou must,â she said. âShe talks about why love shouldnât be sacrifice. Because the mermaid sacrifices her tail for legs and leaves everything behind. But when she goes on land, she feels there are hot knives stabbing into the soles of her feet with every step that she takes. It is torture.â
âBut theyâre happy in the end?â I said, dumbly. âHer and Eric?â
âWhoâs Eric?â laughed Steph. âIâm talking about the original, the Hans Christian Andersen version. Thereâs no Eric . The prince falls in love with someone else. He rejects the mermaid. And then she dies.â
Steph and I were back in the kitchen.
The front door opened. There was the sound of a child, an American. The prim ballerina from the restaurant appeared, along with Marge Perez. They were weighed down with bags.
âOh,â said Marge. She held her key aloft, as though ready to open another door. âYou have a visitor.â
Steph stood up. âDonât be like that, Marge. How was shopping? Get everything you need?â
âYeah!â chirruped ballerina. She pulled out a packet of marshmallows.
Marge sat down heavily at the breakfast bar and said to me: âSo. Are you seduced?â
Eight
Stephanie had promised that I could return, soon.
It was Sunday night. I had relented and gone to Samuelâs party at the peanut factory in Hackney Wick. My poetry slot was at 11.30.
From the podium, I read to a crowd of fools dressed like creatures from the deep:
â I canât love you if you kill me.
Lover, I am ransacked. â
Freddie and Samuel waited for me to continue.
âThatâs it,â I said into the microphone. It screeched â an amplified gull.
Mirages of mermaids flew across the room. The crowd ignored my poem and continued to dance to no music.
Freddie looked at Samuel, who shrugged. He fiddled with his decks. The noise returned: Siren, siren, siren SONG .
I got out of the papier-mâché seashell, climbed down from the podium, and pushed through people and pissstained corridors until I found an exit. It opened onto a back alley. There was a rotting mattress, a green dreadlock. A giant cartoon peanut waved to me from the roof. Its white-gloved hand looked like a cloud against the black sky.
Freddie appeared. âWhat the fuck was that?!â
âIâm sorry.â I lit a cigarette. âI couldnât think of any mermaidthemed stuff at the last minute so I just used something old. Do you remember when I wrote that poem?â
âYour self-obsession is no longer amusing,â said Freddie. âItâs become vulgar.â
âFreddie, when youâve done loads of drugs you look like a frightened horse.â
âHow sweet.â He attempted to run up the brick wall, which didnât work. He crouched before me. âWhy donât you write a poem like that for me?â
I stared at him.
He stood up and brushed his harem pants. His face was smeared with blue. âThat wasnât even a poem, anyway,â he said. âThat wasnât even a haiku. That was more like a song lyric. A fucking schmaltzy R&B
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