went up to the hospital after work. To visit the homeless bloke.â
âBob.â
âHim. Yes. But they wouldnât let her see him. He has some infection or something. Heâs pretty sick. Theyâve put him in a room by himself. So Cassy and I had a long chat about the dog, and we decided we really canât keep her, Em. Iâm sorry . . .â
âAnd?â
âSo we dropped her off at the dogsâ home. On the way over here, tonight. I know youâll be disappointed. But itâs the best thing, in the circumstances.â
How dare he say that?
I hate you , I want to shout. You tell me here, in a crowded cafe, so I canât make a fuss. Coward.
Dad waits for me to say something. But I wonât.
âIâm sorry, Em, but please donât go upsetting Cassy even more.â
Itâs a horrible betrayal. Iâm furious with them both. And the fact that Cassy was being all nice when she came over to the stall, when in reality sheâd just got rid of Mattie . . . itâs unbearable.
âWe can visit her,â Cassy says in the car on the way home. âTake her for walks whenever we want. Iâve registered us, so we can just turn up there and take her out.â
I donât say a word all the way back. I donât speak to them at the caravan either. I go to bed without saying goodnight.
I send Seb a text.
Dad is so mean. Has put Mattie in the dogsâ home. I am so sad. Didnât even say goodbye to her.
I wait, but he doesnât reply.
I cry into the pillow.
I hate everyone. Living here is shit.
12
Kat got back from university tonight.
She came via London, with Dan, and then caught another train here, and Dad picked her up from the station. We had supper together late, all together, even though I am still not talking to Cassy and Dad.
Now Kat and me are in bed. Talking in the dark, like the old days.
Itâs just as well weâre used to sharing a room. You can hear every sniff and sigh and creak as one or other of us turns over in the bunk beds or reaches out for a drink of water.
âThe thing is,â Kat says, âDanâs bound to see her. Sheâs back from her university, and they live, like, only minutes away from each other. Theyâll be getting together with old school friends. There will be parties.â
âThat doesnât mean that theyâll get back together again,â I say. âThey might see each other, but so what? They split up for a reason. Now heâs going out with you. So I donât see why youâre so worried.â
âYou donât understand,â Kat says. âHe might just be tempted. You know, after a few drinks, feeling all happy and Christmassy . . . just sort of slip back into it . . . seeing as Iâm not around. Out of sight, out of mind.â
âIf he really likes you, heâs not going to treat you like that, is he? And if he does, if heâs that fickle and unfaithful, heâs not worth it. Youâd be better off without him.â
Kat sighs dramatically. âItâs not that simple, Em.â
âIsnât it? Why not?â
âIf you donât know, how can I explain? You canât just turn feelings on and off, because of how someone else behaves! Heâs probably with her right this minute. Itâs too awful!â
âThatâs a rubbish way to think, Kat!â
âYou donât have a clue, do you? Youâre too young, I guess.â
âOh, for heavenâs sake!â I turn over, in a huff.
Weâre both silent for ages. I kind of know sheâs lying on her back, staring up into the darkness, wide awake. I can feel how awake she is! And even though Iâm pretending to be fed up and asleep, she knows Iâm not really. Thatâs how close we are, my sister and me.
âDo you love him?â I ask her, eventually.
âI donât know,â she says miserably. âI donât know how
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