to look at a baby and not feel something. But had she been taken by monsters? She rolled back onto the mattress, her eyes open against the black cloth. For some reason, she felt she could think better if her eyes were open, even though her view was of nothing. She lay there for a few minutes, formulating.
âLet me ask you something,â she finally said, keeping her voice as conversational as she could: not antagonistic but not condescending, either. It was her courtroom voice, the neutral one she used when addressing witnesses.
âIt seems you are a compassionate person. Can you at least tell me your name? Or even something I can call you? Weâre here alone together in all of this. You can at least talk to me. You donât have to tell why youâve done this, or what your plans are. Just talk to me. Youâve let me know youâre here by giving me something to feed my baby. Canât you just say something?â
Silence.
Again, Diane heard the creak of wood. Is he sitting in a chair? A straight-backed wooden chair against the wall? Sitting there with a gun in his hand just waiting for the order to kill her? Or is he just staring at her? Or was that muted clicking sound sheâd heard really a cell phone heâs using to text someone? She tried to form a picture in her mind. Were the walls concrete? Was the door metal, like a cell? Were there windows? Were they glass, and thus breakable?
The silence was causing her imagination to run rampant. Sheâd never been good at silence. In her work, she was surrounded by people: attorneys asking questions, aides making requests, bailiffs giving reports, other judges discussing changes in rules. Outside of court, she was a sociable woman, attending conferences and fund-raisers and society dinners.
Billy was the quiet one, always listening, always taking in the conversations and sights and smells, and rarely speaking. Though his stutter put him in that situation, Diane knew there was an upside to it. He liked the fact that she could take over in a social situation. He was glad to be able to ignore a social function he considered a chore. Billy might be able to stand this silence and wait it out.
She didnât think she could. She needed to know. She needed to do something. She was blind, pregnant, and at the mercy of physically bigger and stronger captors. If she tried to get up, sheâd be shoved back down. If she called out, sheâd be slapped quiet. If the only way she could act was by talking quietly, sheâd do it.
âDo you speak English?â she asked. If indeed her kidnappers were somehow aligned with Escalante, maybe they were South American. Or would they be locals who worked in his drug distribution enterprise?
Sheâd read the files on Escalante, knew of the ruthlessness of his multiheaded businesses in Colombia and the internecine battles with both the government there and other drug distributors vying for trafficking routes and supplies. The photos of village citizens, children, caught up in the crossfire of the drug wars had made her blanch. Even if Escalante hadnât done the deeds by his own hand, it was by his order that certain outcomes were achieved. If these were men of the same cloth, a dead American judge would mean nothing to them.
Stop, Diane , she told herself. No negatives nowâdonât go there. Your father always taught you optimism.
Her father had been a judge for forty years. As a child, sheâd learned from watching him come home from court with the wear in his eyes and the tired, slumped shoulders of a man who had carried a burden all day and had not been able to leave it behind in the courthouse. When she was older, he would quietly discuss the dayâs deliberations and rulings and the inevitable moral and ethical dilemmas that could not be discussed on the bench or with attorneys.
Those burdens belonged to the judge. Heâd told Diane the truth when she first donned a robe:
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