threaten to topple her over. Luis climbs out of the car and he sinks into the grass, which is still damp from the morning dew. His feet and ankles are instantly wet. Tommyâs only been missing for a handful of days but the long, snarly grass looks like it hasnât been mowed in weeks. Now that heâs closer to the house, almost standing in its shadow, Luis thinks it does look different. He can see this placeeasily becoming the neighborhood haunted house, the one the kids tells stories about, and theyâll tell them so often youâll have no choice but to believe them.
Dad edges Luis forward with a slight shove and a âCome onâ that has an exasperated edge to it. Luisâs father is older than everyone elseâs dad; his late fifties is a decade and a half older than Mom. He and Mom are the same height, five foot seven, but physical opposites otherwise. Dadâs hair has gone totally gray. Heâs thick through the chest, shoulders, and arms. His legs are as skinny as picket fence posts. Dad is generally kind, particularly to strangers, and loyal to a fault, but he craves confrontation like the morningâs first cup of coffee.
Elizabeth Sanderson opens the front door. She is dressed for a jog: black yoga pants, sneakers, blue short-sleeved outer shell. Elizabeth offers Joshâs mom a weak smile that instantly collapses like a long-neglected bridge, and they embrace. Josh and his dad stand to the side, their heads down and hands folded in front of them. Luisâs mom climbs up the brick stairs, puts a hand on Joshâs dadâs shoulder before stepping in front of him. Elizabeth hugs Luisâs mom next. Luis is still slowly walking across the front lawn.
Mom and Elizabeth continue to hold each other. She looks over Momâs shoulder and she locks eyes with Luis. Itâs not the hardness, the completeness of her stare that makes him feel so small, smaller than he always feels. Itâs how quickly she looks away from him. Luis imagines his smallness as a condition without a cure, and itâs accelerating. Heâll shrink so that the grass is over his waist and then over his head, and heâll continue shrinking until the grass stalks are as large as redwoods, until heâs down in the dirt with the ants and the ticks and the spiders, and then heâs even too small for them to bother with, and maybe it would be okay living down here alone in the secret roots of the world.
Kate hovers back at the borderline of the kitchen and living room, running her foot along the crack between the hardwood and tile. Luis, Josh, and both sets of their parents are inside her house, grouped together in the small entryway that spills into the living room. They shouldnât be here. Is it unfair of her to think that theyâre here to make themselves feel better? Nothing they can say or do will help make Tommy come back. Kate didnât quite articulate it in that way earlier when Mom announced who was coming over, but it was implied in her âMom, you shouldâve said no.â
Kate hates the Griffins and Fernandezes right now. She blames them and hates them, all of them, even Luis, whom sheâs had an obvious crush on forever. Luis has always made her laugh, and whenever the three boys were together in the house, Luis was nicer to her than Tommy was. Tommy would snap at her, tell her to leave them alone and go play with her own friends, and he wouldnât even look at her when heâd say it. Luis would be the one to say, âDonât listen to himâ and âLet her watch us play Mario Kart.â A week ago Luis and his big brown eyes, jet-black hair, and sneaky smile wouldâve sent an embarrassed and exhilarated Kate and her just-got-up morning wear (baggy sweats, dingy T-shirt, no training bra) retreating to her bedroom. Look at Luis now, hiding behind a wall of parents, and slouching next to Josh, both boys with their heads down and their hands
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