J.H. will be over and after Wednesday, a big part of it will be left behind.
As I said yesterday, I’ll remember this year of being a year of casual acquaintances. I didn’t get close to anyone outside of my family except Derek. He disappointed me and my heart full one minute, shattered the next. This year has been a not-so-good chapter in the life of myself. Next year I hope it will be one of the better ones. I had so many troubles with my mother. I’m hoping next year we’ll smooth it over even though I sincerely doubt it. The older I get, the more harder it gets.
Courtney is married, Dave is single and on his own, I hearthe faint sounds of wedding bells for Rondah and Phillip, I have a nephew; overall a lot has happened that’s good. In their lives that is. The only thing for me has been you. This is so much like you’re dying. I’ll miss you a lot. You know everything that’s happened to me since September 10th. I tried never to keep anything back from you but there was always that feeling that someone would be reading your pages not too long from now. I’ll miss the idea of you and just everything about this. I’ll talk to you tomorrow for the last time. I’ll miss you.
June 26, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I t’s my last day of so much. It’s my last day living here on Bainbridge Ave., it’s my last day at J.H.S.80, my last day writing to you. In this entry I want to look ahead. I wonder what grade 9 holds for me. I want to look and see how my highschool career will go. I want to settle down and listen to my teachers no matter how hard it is. I’ll try to be more open to people and become more of a friend to more people. I’ll try not to fall so deep for a guy because I don’t want another heartbreak. I’m going to cool it for a while with these thoughts of boys. That is,
if
I can stop. I hope my mother won’t be so weird when it comes to them though.The less cautious she is of those things, the less I’ll care about them.
All in all, I look for understanding in my future. I just want people to understand me! That would set the pace for the rest of life. With understanding I think I’ll achieve anything I want. I just want understanding! Well Janice, this is it. It was fun while it lasted.
As I said yesterday, I’ll remember this year of being a year of casual acquaintances. I didn’t get close to anyone outside of my family except Derek. He disappointed me and my heart full one minute, shattered the next. This year has been a not-so-good chapter in the life of myself. Next year I hope it will be one of the better ones. I had so many troubles with my mother. I’m hoping next year we’ll smooth it over even though I sincerely doubt it. The older I get, the more harder it gets.
Courtney is married, Dave is single and on his own, I hearthe faint sounds of wedding bells for Rondah and Phillip, I have a nephew; overall a lot has happened that’s good. In their lives that is. The only thing for me has been you. This is so much like you’re dying. I’ll miss you a lot. You know everything that’s happened to me since September 10th. I tried never to keep anything back from you but there was always that feeling that someone would be reading your pages not too long from now. I’ll miss the idea of you and just everything about this. I’ll talk to you tomorrow for the last time. I’ll miss you.
June 26, 1991
Dear Janice
,
I t’s my last day of so much. It’s my last day living here on Bainbridge Ave., it’s my last day at J.H.S.80, my last day writing to you. In this entry I want to look ahead. I wonder what grade 9 holds for me. I want to look and see how my highschool career will go. I want to settle down and listen to my teachers no matter how hard it is. I’ll try to be more open to people and become more of a friend to more people. I’ll try not to fall so deep for a guy because I don’t want another heartbreak. I’m going to cool it for a while with these thoughts of boys. That is,
if
I can stop. I hope my mother won’t be so weird when it comes to them though.The less cautious she is of those things, the less I’ll care about them.
All in all, I look for understanding in my future. I just want people to understand me! That would set the pace for the rest of life. With understanding I think I’ll achieve anything I want. I just want understanding! Well Janice, this is it. It was fun while it lasted.
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