and tried my damnedest to wash away the smell that was Cade Walker.
The next morning, when I walked outside to pick up the newspaper for my dad, I found this note on my porch:
I was an asshole…forgive me?
The note was stuck to the top of the new Brooks and Dunn CD. Cade knew they were my favorite and he knew he was a total jerk last night. I decided to let it go and try to pretend that it didn’t happen. Reliving it and being pissed off at him wouldn’t make me feel any better and it wouldn’t help the situation either. I needed that cocky cowboy in my life.
~Chapter 7~
Eighteen Years Old
Cade~
My senior year had been the longest year of my damn life. I had worked so hard to get to this day - graduation day. I wanted to make my mom proud. Thank God I was gonna graduate with the rest of my class. It had been touch and go for a while.
After everything that happened with Suzy Q I decided to turn off that part of me. You know that sappy- ass part that thought he was gonna have a future with some girl. I was fuckin’ crazy to think that we were gonna live happily ever after. That was all a load of bullshit anyway. I didn’t need that. All I needed was a good time, so the last year had been all about having fun.
And fun I had, tons of it. Lots of girls. So many girls. So many damn girls! I had thoroughly enjoyed every girl within the town, um, maybe county was a better representation. I made it to graduation. I wore the black gown, but like hell would I trade in my Stetson for that stupid little black cap.
“Son, if you have to wear your cowboy hat, please let me hang your tassel from it. Please? For me?” My mom was beggin’, so of course I couldn’t turn her down. She stuck the black and gold tassel in the band of my black Stetson. I must’ve looked alright, because when I got up to the stage to get my diploma, there was a lot of screamin’ and cat-callin’ goin’ on. Yep, I was definitely loved.
“Hey, cowboy.” I heard Suzy Q call after me as she walked off the stage from gettin’ her diploma. I turned around and put my arms around her waist and swung her around in a circle.
“We did it. We really did it.” She was blushin’ at me and I realized the double meaning in my statement. I clarified, “We really graduated. How’s that song go? No more teachers, no more pencils, no more dirty looks?”
Suzy Q laughed. “I don’t think that’s how the song goes, cowboy.”
Callie came up behind us and threw her arms around Suzy Q. “It’s finally over! Thank you Jesus!” Callie let go of Suzy Q and slid down the wall to sit on the ground. She had never been a big fan of school. Like me, she was more into havin’ a good time.
“Ya’ll comin’ to the party tonight?” I asked the girls. I really hoped their answer was yes.
“Um, I’m not sure, Cade. It’s been a long day and I just wanna go home and get outta this gown.”
“I could help you get outta of it, babe,” Branch smirked as he walked up behind Suzy Q and placed his arms around her waist. He leaned in and kissed her neck. Her eyes never left mine. I knew she could tell that I didn’t like him bein’ all over her like that. My nostrils were flarin’ and I could feel the fire travelin’ up my face.
I had to keep tellin’ myself - she wanted him. She chose him. Not me. Him . I knew he was an asshole. I knew he slept around on her and I couldn’t believe she was givin’ herself to him. It fuckin’ killed me inside. I wasn’t one to talk. Hell I’d slept with half, you know cause half were men, the county. But I wouldn’t have, if she had chosen me. She made it very clear what our relationship was. We were best friends and I couldn’t or wouldn’t ask for anything more. Besides, I was not the kinda guy to provide a forever future to anyone. Right? Guys like me weren’t one women men. All we did was hurt the women we loved. I told myself that so many times that I’d finally started to believe it.
“I think
The next morning, when I walked outside to pick up the newspaper for my dad, I found this note on my porch:
I was an asshole…forgive me?
The note was stuck to the top of the new Brooks and Dunn CD. Cade knew they were my favorite and he knew he was a total jerk last night. I decided to let it go and try to pretend that it didn’t happen. Reliving it and being pissed off at him wouldn’t make me feel any better and it wouldn’t help the situation either. I needed that cocky cowboy in my life.
~Chapter 7~
Eighteen Years Old
Cade~
My senior year had been the longest year of my damn life. I had worked so hard to get to this day - graduation day. I wanted to make my mom proud. Thank God I was gonna graduate with the rest of my class. It had been touch and go for a while.
After everything that happened with Suzy Q I decided to turn off that part of me. You know that sappy- ass part that thought he was gonna have a future with some girl. I was fuckin’ crazy to think that we were gonna live happily ever after. That was all a load of bullshit anyway. I didn’t need that. All I needed was a good time, so the last year had been all about having fun.
And fun I had, tons of it. Lots of girls. So many girls. So many damn girls! I had thoroughly enjoyed every girl within the town, um, maybe county was a better representation. I made it to graduation. I wore the black gown, but like hell would I trade in my Stetson for that stupid little black cap.
“Son, if you have to wear your cowboy hat, please let me hang your tassel from it. Please? For me?” My mom was beggin’, so of course I couldn’t turn her down. She stuck the black and gold tassel in the band of my black Stetson. I must’ve looked alright, because when I got up to the stage to get my diploma, there was a lot of screamin’ and cat-callin’ goin’ on. Yep, I was definitely loved.
“Hey, cowboy.” I heard Suzy Q call after me as she walked off the stage from gettin’ her diploma. I turned around and put my arms around her waist and swung her around in a circle.
“We did it. We really did it.” She was blushin’ at me and I realized the double meaning in my statement. I clarified, “We really graduated. How’s that song go? No more teachers, no more pencils, no more dirty looks?”
Suzy Q laughed. “I don’t think that’s how the song goes, cowboy.”
Callie came up behind us and threw her arms around Suzy Q. “It’s finally over! Thank you Jesus!” Callie let go of Suzy Q and slid down the wall to sit on the ground. She had never been a big fan of school. Like me, she was more into havin’ a good time.
“Ya’ll comin’ to the party tonight?” I asked the girls. I really hoped their answer was yes.
“Um, I’m not sure, Cade. It’s been a long day and I just wanna go home and get outta this gown.”
“I could help you get outta of it, babe,” Branch smirked as he walked up behind Suzy Q and placed his arms around her waist. He leaned in and kissed her neck. Her eyes never left mine. I knew she could tell that I didn’t like him bein’ all over her like that. My nostrils were flarin’ and I could feel the fire travelin’ up my face.
I had to keep tellin’ myself - she wanted him. She chose him. Not me. Him . I knew he was an asshole. I knew he slept around on her and I couldn’t believe she was givin’ herself to him. It fuckin’ killed me inside. I wasn’t one to talk. Hell I’d slept with half, you know cause half were men, the county. But I wouldn’t have, if she had chosen me. She made it very clear what our relationship was. We were best friends and I couldn’t or wouldn’t ask for anything more. Besides, I was not the kinda guy to provide a forever future to anyone. Right? Guys like me weren’t one women men. All we did was hurt the women we loved. I told myself that so many times that I’d finally started to believe it.
“I think
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