that is the best way
to be. Being scared and crying would not have protected us. So we tried to laugh.
HUTHAIFA â I really thought I would die,
but I was ready for it. I felt like an angel, without sins. But later, the war got
worse, and then I became afraid.
After the war, the clashes between the militias started happening, and
that affected our neighborhood.
YEMAN â There was a car bombing at my
school one day. I was walking along a corridor with glass all down the side of it. The
bomb went off and the glass shattered all around me. I ran away as fast as I could. As
the explosion happened, a song came into my mind, âI Disappear,â by
Metallica. It goes
Do you bury me when Iâm gone?
Do you teach me while
Iâm here?
Just as soon as I belong,
Then itâs time I
disappear.
I think itâs on the soundtrack for
Mission Impossible II
,
with the glass breaking. I felt like I was in a movie.
HUTHAIFA â I had a lot
of thoughts go through my head when we saw Saddam Hussein be executed. Saddam
didnât mean anything to us. He did a lot of bad things, but he also did good
things. Iraq had a very good education system, free for everyone. Even university was
free.
When the Americans came and took Saddam from power, we thought that maybe
it is the time for a new, bright Iraq. We were wrong. Many Iraqis would like to have the
old days back, because at least then we could have our families together. So many
families are separated and spread out far from each other.
For nine to twelve months after Saddam fell, things were kind of getting
better. There was killing, but not the same as now. We used to go out and feel safe to
stay out until 10 p.m. Then it gradually got earlier and earlier when we felt we needed
to be at home.
When the bombing of the shrine in Samarra happened, I was in my last year
of high school. It was the most important year in my life because the outcome of the
examinations would decide what my future would be. A good average would mean a chance to
go to a good university and study medicine or engineering. I had to study a lot. I also
went to private lessons. These were held in different areas of Baghdad, so I had to
travel around the city. The militias were everywhere in the street. You couldnât
predict what was going to happen. We would see a checkpoint and we wouldnât know
if it was the real army, or if it was the militia wearing army uniforms, wanting to rob
us or kill us.
YEMAN â There were
many car bombings in our area. We got up every morning to learn that someone else was
killed in a brutal way. My friends and I would talk about it. We decided the whole world
had gone crazy.
HUTHAIFA â I remember one of my
fatherâs friends predicting this. It was about five days after the fall of Saddam.
This friend had a generator, so we could watch TV. I went to his house. He is a doctor
and lives in Baghdad with his son, my friend. He said to us, âDonât be very
much happy, because things will get worse. One day all of us will have to carry a weapon
just to protect ourselves.â
After the war, in October of 2003, our father got involved with LIFE, an
American-based NGO. LIFEâs mission is to rebuild schools, get children school
supplies and uniforms, books and bags. There had to be new textbooks, not the ones that
were used under Saddam. They do other amazing things, like fixing up the water
supply.
Then his colleague at LIFE was abducted and killed. It was a terrible
shock for everybody. This was a brilliant man, and a great friend to our father. They
killed him the same day they abducted him. It was for sectarian reasons.
Our father decided not to take any more chances with our lives. He sent us
out of the country, and he joined us two months later. He stayed on his own in Baghdad
to finish up some work.
YEMAN â First me, my brother and
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