come to hugging him again.
âHow soon could you get out?â
He takes his time answering. âIt depends on the trial,â he says, and we both know what that means. It means he may never get out. The TalbertsâRussâs parentsâare testifying against him. Even though they told my grandparents to their faces that they love my dad, theyâre testifying against him,telling how Dad tricked Mr. Talbert into lending him the gun.
Grandma and Grandpa are testifying for my dad. Dadâs lawyer thinks that if they testify, explaining how theyâve known him since he was fifteen and know heâs a good personâhow they felt that both he and Mom were terribly disturbed, and that they still love himâthen maybe a jury would let him off easy. But as much as I like the idea of Dad getting off, it still bothers me.
Just because he was disturbed and people still love him doesnât necessarily mean itâs right for him to get out of jail. Iâm sure lots of people in prison for life, or even on death row, were disturbed when they committed their crimes. Iâm sure that most of them have people who love them, too. And the only difference is that this one happens to be my dad.
Tyler impatiently reaches up to grab the phone from me. He uses the p word, so I have to give it to him.
âI love you, Preston,â says my father before I hand over the phone.
âYeah, Dad,â I say. âI love you, too.â
January
My secret room has no windows, so I donât know if itâs dark yet. They say the days have started to get longer now that itâs January, but I havenât seen it. The sun still sets by five. The days are getting colderânot cold enough for snow, but coldenough to make you wish you didnât have to get out of bed. Itâs probably about five now. I study science while Jason organizes my entire baseball-card collection in some mysterious but brilliant filing system. Jason never seems to study. Weâre both good students, but heâs a good student by nature. I, on the other hand, have to study my butt off. We sort of have a competition goingâyou know?âwho can pull in higher grades. He always wins, but not by much.
Today science seems to bypass my brain completely. I sigh and slam down the textbook.
âWhatâs your problem?â asks Jason.
âIâve just been wondering something,â I tell him.
âAbout science?â
âNo, about life, and God and stuff.â
âOh, one of those questions,â he says rolling his eyes. âYou think about God and stuff more than anyone I know our age.â
Heâs right about that, and Iâm kind of glad about it. I guess itâs because my grandparents are really strict about going to church and things like that. That must be the reason.
âIâm just wondering,â I tell him, âif someone helps a murderer get out of prison, do you think theyâre damned?â
Jason takes the question very seriously. He thinks about it, then answers me. He doesnât answer the question I actually askedâbut instead answers the question I was afraid to ask.
âI donât think youâll be damned if you testify for your father, Preston,â he says. âI donât see how you could be.â
Grandma doesnât want me to testify; she thinks itâll be too traumatic. Maybe it will be, but Dadâs lawyer thinks I should because if Dadâs found guilty of first-degree murder, âthe judge will have no mercy.â He could be in prison for life, or worse.
âPrestonâs testimony,â the lawyer said, âcould make all the difference in the world.â I havenât told Dad that I might testify. I donât have the guts to tell him that the rest of his life rests on my shoulders. But I think he already knows.
âIf all youâre doing,â says Jason, âis telling the truth, then I donât
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