was so insanely protective of them.
âDid you know my parents died when I was in college? Car pileup on the autobahn in Germany.â
âIâm sorry,â she said, watching him.
He gave a wry smile. âMaybe we could have been a version of a family, but it would have required getting to know one another, and that wasnât something either of them wanted. In the end, I suppose it made it easier for me to adjustto not having parents anymore, since we werenât close.â
Silence permeated the car for a long moment.
Finally he added, âYou know, I always thought you couldnât miss what you never had. But lately I donât think thatâs true. I donât think it at all.â
She agreed, her voice soft with empathy. âThat kind of emptiness is far and wide. But when youâve had something and it gets taken away, well, Iâve got to tell you, that emptiness goes pretty deep.â
Her thoughts spun to her father, and then to Carrie. The girl would get so worked up every time her father called that Kirsten and her mother had begun to wish heâd just stop calling.
Just the thought of it now made Kirsten realize she couldnât allow Carrie to get attached to Seth.
âSo I guess if I sell the ranch back to Hazel, thatâd be worse than never having had a ranch at all.â His words seemed to come out of nowhere.
âWhy would you sell the ranch back to Hazel? You just built it,â she blurted out, confused.
âHazel didnât sell me the land without attachments, Kirsten. Thereâs always the provision thatIâll have to sell back to her if I donât meet the contract.â
âWhat do you have to do to meet it?â
He slid his gaze to her, then back again to the night road. âItâs complicated. Something the lawyers drew up. I just donât know if I want to meet the provisions.â
âI see.â She turned her focus to the road. The ranch gates lay ahead, an artful crossing and weaving of twisted pine.
The impermanence rattled her. Having moved so much as a child, having had her parents break up, sheâd always longed for something she could count on. Now, when she worried about whether or not she and Seth Morgan should be lovers, she should have been more worried about what she didnât know, like his contract with Hazel.
Releasing a dark little laugh, she commented, âLife is so ironic. Just when you think you have everything by the horns, something comes up behind you.â
âWhat do you think you have by the horns? Me?â he growled, suddenly becoming the confrontational Wall Street financier.
She shook her head, still smiling. âIâll never have you by the horns, Mr. Morgan, thank you very much.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â he demanded.
âNothing. Nothing at all,â she said, still laughing at herself and her pathetic little hopes that kept springing up despite how severely they were crushed.
The car stopped in the front driveway, and she got out. Walking toward the stables, she paused when he grabbed her arm.
âWhere are you going? Not out for a midnight ride, I hope?â
Freeing her arm, she said, âI just thought Iâd go for a short walk. Just some thinking time. Do you need me for something back at the house?â
âNo,â he answered.
âThen I guess Iâm off. So Iâll see you later.â
She left him in the driveway, wondering if she had been a little harsh, but she was getting overwhelmed. If he sold the ranch, sheâd have no more job. No house. No retired mom. No stability for Carrie.
It all weighed on her like Atlas holding up the earth.
She walked behind the stable to one of the short trails that led to a nearby meadow. There was a full moon, and the path was lit as if by electric lights. Once in the meadow, she satalong the hillside and watched the moon slide behind the mountains.
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